my confesssion

Ok, so I need to come her and tell you all something. The last month really stunk for me. I fell into a LOT of old habits, and that candy dish called my name a lot. Sadly I answered.  :( 
In my monthly visit to the DR, I GAINED 3 lbs this month. Now- first my period was late, and he said that 2 lbs was fluid, but that is still a 1 lb gain. Even more sad, with this gain, I can't seem to walk away from the candy dish. I told the kids- tonight is it-when they go to bed, it all goes in the trash. ALL OF IT.  I even ate half of a Ben and Jerry's this week. I need a good butt whooping and some serious prayers. I need to get my head back around this. So go ahead, give it to me. I need to hear it all.

Diane,

I am not going o judge you or whip your butt. Because you are not alone. All I can tell you is that you already did the right thing to nipit in the bud. You have come here and posted which takes lots of gutts to do and tomorrow is a new day. I am very proud of you!  You are human and do not be so hard on yourself girl. You gained 3 lbs not all your weight back.  


Big hugs to you.

 

Dianne,

Please do not be so hard on yourself. I think it has happened a lot to people over the holidays. I am having the same kinds of problems getting back on track. This morning I threw a quarter of a pecan pie that my dil made in the trash so I won't touch it when I get home from work. I lose and gain the same 2 lbs constantly but I find that when I have a couple of good days and do some exercising it comes right off.

We're here for ya!

i agree with cira. there is no need to beat yourself up. you are doing the right thing by posting and reaching out to others. support is what you need, not negative attention. you need to accept you are human and forgive yourself. that does not mean continue the behavior but stop it because you love yourself not because you are torturing yourself. good luck sweetie. you have done wonders with your tool. be proud of yourself.

Ladies, 
    Thank you all. Last night when I posted I was pretty down about the whole thing. Today, as you all said is a NEW DAY. I will make better choices and will take it one meal at a time. I have a sign in my kitchen, that I think has just become unnoticable. I plan on moving it to a more noticable place. It says... " You are at a crossroad, the path you choose is up to you."  I am choosing to take this path further, to do what I have been taught and continue to make halthy life styles. I choose NOT to return to a life of food that makes me feel good for a moment and then destroys my body and my self esteem. Thank you all for listening. I NEED to ge here more often, to be accountable. I have missed support group 2 months in a row now, and I need to do these things - they relly do help.

Dianne:
Today is a new day and you deserve to be successful.  Get rid of the temptations.  If it's not there, you can't eat it.  Now, I know that's easier said than done also.  I have a husband who weighs 150 lbs and eats 4 times a day as much as he wants and it it's not there, he'll scream.  Put it out of sight, hard to get to.  I read one time about Jillian Michaels (the trainer on the Biggest Looser) when she is out to dinner she will eat half of her meal and then pour candle wax on the rest to stop her from picking at it and eating it all.  She said that you have to do whatever it takes to make you not eat.
Hope this helps.