I FEEL SOOO MUCH BETTER TODAY

THANK YOU to Vonda B and Aaron for ALL THEIR SUPPORT as well as Terri, Tina Hayden, Lisa, and Tia. I know I have been BOMBING you with questions but yesterday was MISREABLE FOR ME! As Aaron said it best "I had buyers remorse" and was freaking out  that I went through with the surgery. I was having anxiety attacks BIG TIME! You would not believe how fast I had my heart racing it was NUTS! I had to page Dr K at midnight and all thinking I was having a heart attack. I talked to Dr Goldberg who said it was more then likely ANXIETY which I realized it was. I have to talk to Dr K this week about helping with that. I have not taken ANY pain meds since home. NONE!!!!! I refuse to take them. Im up and walking more today and was able to keep down more of my liquid diet today. I had yogurt, protein shake made by Mike, protein mouse, small amount of cream of wheat and a jell-o. Today has been MUCH BETTER then yesterday. I still have a sore throat from the breathing tube and I was super CONSTIPATED a big ago which was awful. The good thing is I DID get out and about today. I had to use a pillow for the car ride even though my six incisions are super glued shut, no steri strips at all. They look great. Now I have to work more and more on the anxiety. I am looking to Aaron to be my big brother nad keep pushing me in the right direction. (((Hugs)))

Thanks Vonda for the love and checking on me. Thanks too for the "Cancun" advice heading under general. IT WORKED! hehe But it took me 4ever to wake in the recovery. I could NOT WAKE for nothing. I can barely recall Mike and my nurse who WAS AWESOME! LOOOVED HER! I had two other nurses too that helped me through bad nausea all day and they too were GREAT! I had some awesome nurses. Mike helped as much as he could too. He said he was FREAKING OUT in the waiting room thinking something what wrong because of the time that had lapsed. He said he was sooooooooooooo scared! He was suppose to call Lisa and my Mom but could not because of the hospital not allowing phones in their. He had to do a mass text instead. Sorry Lisa. (((Hugs))) He did say he was glad to finally reach ya later.

Dr Dextor called to check on me tonight who I met several times while in the hospital. He was checking on my attacks from last night. It made me feel good.

Mike is off work all week with me. THANK  GOD!

Thanks to Stephanie,Darla and Danielle for the Christmas cards. I have them hanging up now. I hope to have mine out soon. (((Hugs)))

Thanks to everyone who got me through the HARDEST DAY which was yesterday. I hope the days only get better from here. (((((Hugs))))))))) ~Jilly~

Hang in there girl it will get a little better and a little easier each day.  For me this was the hardest part of the journey, take good care of yourself.

Stephanie

I hope so thanks so much!!!! ;o)

So glad you are starting to feel better.  Its all down hill from here girl.  Wait until you get hit with the big burst of energy.  Anytime you have questions, ask away.  Thats what we are all here for. 

I am so sorry you had such a difficult time. As others have said, it truly will get better from here. It is great that you reached out so that others could help you through it. I am glad they were there for you. You can always find support here. I think it is smart to discuss all of your concerns with your MD as you are planning. Hang in there and Best Wishes!

Debbie

Thanks Debbie ;o)

Thanks Terri I appreciate that. ;o)

Jilly:
I'm glad to see you posting. It WILL get better.  I think we all go through a period of, "what in the ..ELL was I thinking?"  But it WILL get better.  Applaud yourself for getting in as much food as you have been getting in.  I was freaked out at first because food becomes like a chore.  Something that I had loved all my life, that never gave me any problems, was now my enemy.  WOW, thinking can I drink now, am I gettin in enough, should I eat that, is that going to stay down, etc, etc, ect...  It WILL get better.  Try not to stress out, but realize that we have all been where you are now and we are all here if you need to vent or laugh, or cry or just throw something (LOL).  In a month or two, you will realize that it is just your body saying what in the world am I going through. 
It WILL get better and we are all here if you need us.  I took every last pain pill in my jar, so don't be brave.  If you need them, that's what they are there for!!!!

Thanks so much honey. Your awesome!! Do you still have that book? Can I borrow it for a bit?
(((Hugs)))

I do, and yes you can!!!  I am going to write myself a note and make sure I pull it out tonight to send to you tomorrow!!!  Sorry