Saying Hi to my MD family!!! w/ my 16 month out pics
I haven't forgotten you guys.. I have just been so crazy with everything in life. I've been battling some really bad depression and anxiety issues that feel like they're beating me most days. The good thing is I managed to pick up a part time babysitting job and that keeps me okay when they're here. I mean who can't think up or at least be okay when you hear little giggles. It's great fun. They love me and I'm kinda becoming attached to the little boogers.
Starting weight: 307 wearing size: tight 26/28 and 4 x
Current weight 187 wearing sizes: 12/14/16 and XL & L
before:
Now:
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before
couple days ago: 
front:
before
Starting weight: 307 wearing size: tight 26/28 and 4 x
Current weight 187 wearing sizes: 12/14/16 and XL & L
before:
Now:
Side:
before
couple days ago: front:
before
Thanks Tia,
One of my biggest coping mechanisms is isolating. I know thats the wrong thing to do but it's what I do, so when I'm really really down I struggle to communicate or just sleep constantly. Next week 9 more days til I see the psychiatrist to hopefully get re evaluater, properly diagnosed and my meds adjusted to fit me. Right now I feel like a ticking time bomb. One minute I'm hyper, fine,. dancing around and just being silly and the next minute I wanna climb up in a hole and disappear.
I took on a part time job and that's helped some because it's babysitting and I LOVE kids. Something about them and their giggles and stuff really help me even when I'm really down it keeps me okay. Otherwise it makes me giggle and we just have a blast. I really am getting attached to these kiddos though and their mom told me I'm their first sitter out of 8 or 9 in the past year where they've not needed to be peeled off of her. They are 6 and one just turned 4 and the other is 2. I mostly have the younger two and sometimes just the baby. It's really fun though and I feel like I'm doing good because I know they can't afford much so I only charge them 45.00 a week.
Anyways I have been busy too, not just wallowing in the pits though sometimes it feels like it. I'm really nervous because my therapist starts maternity leave this week and I will be thrown to someone I don't know or anything for 5 weeks and it scares me but I'm more freightened of NOT having that session so I guess I will have to deal with it. Hopefully i can connect with whoever I get because my therapist and I connected on the first appointment and I hear that is rare, so I am just really anxious. As if I'm not already a nervous wreck most the time anyways.
Really though I will get through it I have to but some days it sure doesn't seem like it.
One of my biggest coping mechanisms is isolating. I know thats the wrong thing to do but it's what I do, so when I'm really really down I struggle to communicate or just sleep constantly. Next week 9 more days til I see the psychiatrist to hopefully get re evaluater, properly diagnosed and my meds adjusted to fit me. Right now I feel like a ticking time bomb. One minute I'm hyper, fine,. dancing around and just being silly and the next minute I wanna climb up in a hole and disappear.
I took on a part time job and that's helped some because it's babysitting and I LOVE kids. Something about them and their giggles and stuff really help me even when I'm really down it keeps me okay. Otherwise it makes me giggle and we just have a blast. I really am getting attached to these kiddos though and their mom told me I'm their first sitter out of 8 or 9 in the past year where they've not needed to be peeled off of her. They are 6 and one just turned 4 and the other is 2. I mostly have the younger two and sometimes just the baby. It's really fun though and I feel like I'm doing good because I know they can't afford much so I only charge them 45.00 a week.
Anyways I have been busy too, not just wallowing in the pits though sometimes it feels like it. I'm really nervous because my therapist starts maternity leave this week and I will be thrown to someone I don't know or anything for 5 weeks and it scares me but I'm more freightened of NOT having that session so I guess I will have to deal with it. Hopefully i can connect with whoever I get because my therapist and I connected on the first appointment and I hear that is rare, so I am just really anxious. As if I'm not already a nervous wreck most the time anyways.
Really though I will get through it I have to but some days it sure doesn't seem like it.
WHOOHOOO!
Look at my sexy little sister! You look MARRRRRRRRRRRRRVVVVOOOOOLOUS!!!
And about the depression thing, Remember God's word, "Only the truth makes free" you have to admit it and deal with it, I am proud that you have finally taken the steps to do that! You will in time get emotional healthier. It will take time and work, but it will happen.
Luv ya!
Look at my sexy little sister! You look MARRRRRRRRRRRRRVVVVOOOOOLOUS!!!
And about the depression thing, Remember God's word, "Only the truth makes free" you have to admit it and deal with it, I am proud that you have finally taken the steps to do that! You will in time get emotional healthier. It will take time and work, but it will happen.
Luv ya!
Dianne
Hi Misty,
I've been following your posts on the OTHER board like Tia. I have to say that ever since you started babysitting, you've sounded so much better in your posts. I'm right there with ya on the isolating. That's always been my coping mechanism as well. I try hard not to do it but sometimes it just gets ahold of me and it's all I can do. Hang in there!
Congrats on your weight loss...you're doing GREAT!!
Heather L.
I've been following your posts on the OTHER board like Tia. I have to say that ever since you started babysitting, you've sounded so much better in your posts. I'm right there with ya on the isolating. That's always been my coping mechanism as well. I try hard not to do it but sometimes it just gets ahold of me and it's all I can do. Hang in there!
Congrats on your weight loss...you're doing GREAT!!
Heather L.
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