I'm a wreck and I need to Rant

((((Lisa)))), I'm sorry you are having a rough week. I hope you will soon be able to see all of the positives again. You deserve the time to rant, and be angry, of course. But, you definitely deserve to celebrate all the great stuff too.

Kathy:
I think some of it is probably coming from my upcoming 3 month appointment on Monday.  I want to be on target.  I don't want to be a failure at WLS.

Lisa! You've already succeeded! Every pound is another success. Every exercise, even the smallest, is a success. Everything we do for ourselves and for others, is a success. Even if we "cheat", when we realize it and learn from it, it's a huge success. This is a process.

You've done great, and I hope you are very proud of yourself!!1

None of us was meant to be the poster child for WLS. We are the poster child for ourselves alone. We are the ones in our own bodies. We lose what we lose, eat what we eat, and represent ourselves alone. There is nothing wrong with telling people to butt out, and that things are none of their business. I think it's great that people care, don't get me wrong. But, caring is knowing when enough is enough.

But, hey, I want a pink bike too!

((((((((Lisa)))))


I'm sorry this is happening. Go get yourself a pink bike and let that step son take that..........LOL

Tommorow is a new day honey keep your head up.

You know - I have been thinking about this. Just for extra measure, perhaps that pink bike will also need pink handbar streamers and a basket in front trimmed with flowers!

Deb:

That is so funny but I was thinking about a big white basket with flowers on it.  Something that can't be removed!!!

Thanks for the pep talk.  I need that sometimes!

Lisa, I'm really new here, but your post touched me. 

I'm glad you decided to let this go, and did it right then, here with your friends. 

Do you care for your mother in your home?  If so, I know right away that you are a thoughtful and compasionate person.  The step-son, well, not sure what you can do about that.  But I do like the idea of chaining up your next bike so that only you can have access to it.  And don't be afraid to say, Yes, its chained because no one is riding it but me.  Nothing wrong with that.  About the well meaning people at work.  They probably are well meaning.  I realized, reading your post, that my co-worker that had lap band about 8 weeks ago, I need to stop asking her, "well, how you doing?", "well, how much have you lost?", "well, what'd the doctor say?"....because I KNOW better.  So I've learned something from your post here.  I'm guilty of it, I'm so anxious to hear how she's doing while I'm waiting pre-op that I forgot that she may not appreciate all the attention towards her WLS.  You will do well at the doctors visit...and if he/she thinks there is not as much WL as there should be, he'll tell you, and then maybe even offer you help or guidance.  There will be a silver lining in this Lisa, I promise it just look for it.

Mari

Mari:
Thanks for posting.  You are so kind.  Yes, I take care of my mother in my home.  She had a brain anurysm when she was 45, I was 27.  That was 16 years ago.  She has come such a long way since that time, but it left her without the use of her right side and she cannot speak.  I know if is difficult for her.  I cannot imaging what it would be like to have that happen to me at 45 years old.  This was also one of the reasons that I had WLS.  I didn't want what happened to her, happen to me.  Besides who would take care of both of us, if we were that way. 

I know that people mean well and I'm sure that I am overly sensitive to the subject right now.  I know, this too shall pass and appreciate all the comments I have received today.

Lisa, ...In your few sentences I can read volumes into what you have dealt with, how you have pushed aside your own needs to care for you families, the struggles have had to be overwhelming at times, but now its your turn!  You are smart to be taking care of yourself as you say, who would take care of both of you...not the step son I'm figuring!!!  LOL!  Had to put some humor in here.  I think most of us that struggle with WL are naturally sensitive people.  I know I am.  I look forward to "talking" again.