just something...

this has been a very stressful day for me, also a bad eating day, but I was looking at different people on dr. averbach's OH forum and i says, hoping to have surgery, have a date, post op, etc....and I got depressed when I got to my name, where it says hoping to have surgery....I know, I know, it will happen but feeling kind of down tonight...sigh...

Oh Char
Baby we have all been there, all you can do is breath, THEN you need to start thinking positive.  This is a fight.  You fight to have the weight off, you fight to get the surgery appoved and then you fight again when you are approved.  You are doing wonderful thus far.  Keep the faith, this will all pan out.  If you hit a bump in the road give it a day or two and then it is time to refocus and get back on your feet.  You can do this, I have FAITH in you!  Be Strong and let me know if I can help.
Hugs Kristen

kristen thank you...I know it will get better but right now....it does not feel like it....but tomorrow is another day and I will be as strong as I can be...it didn't help when I was leaving the subway system today and there was this young very thin girl walking in front of me, and all the guys were looking back at her and I felt invisible...sorry...I just want to be thin too....or at least thinner....

CHAR  ((((((HUGS))))))  I have so been there baby!  It will happen......first you will be healthier and then thinner and then LOOK OUT WORLD HERE COMES SKINNY!
~smiles for you~
Hugs Kristen

I'm having the same kind of day. Twice today I've burst into tears because I'm so stressed. 

I really wish I was in bed right now instead of at work.

I know sweetie...I spent all day running from one crisis to another while my supervisor was off flirting with the detectives....business as usual at my work....

ohh char honey, before long your supervisor will be jealous of you when your the topic of the (***** dog dectives lol) just remember , which ones were mean to ya and return the favor lol cant wait till we are on the bench togeather

(((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

The same thing I told Char I am sayign it to you...

We are here fo you!!

It will happen.  Wait till you get a date, the time will fly by.  You know we are all here to support you when you need it and give you a boot in the arse when you need that too...Keep the chin up and all will be fine...don't sweat the small stuff...tomorrow is another day. 

Don't stress!  Please don't feel down. Don't allow yourself to take away from all that you accomplished so far. Each of us that is post-op was where you are at one point in our journey too. I freaked at different times too. I think I had a group on this very board that was ready to come hunt me down and put me out of my misery when I was very impatiently waiting 30 days between insurance submittal and approval.

You might try keeping a journal of your accomplishments on  your journey (you'll appreciate it later, if you are a scrapbooker). So,  you can look and see where you have come from. Each appointment with your nut brings you closer to surgery. Each test or diagnostic procedure you complete on your list brings you one step closer too. That was something my therapist pointed out to me each time I saw her, during the time I was awaiting approval. Eventually, I got my date, and the time flew by so fast, I couldn't hardly believe it. I actually LOL'd in the hospital, when I woke up in the recovery room, and remembered how I was stressed out over that approval delay. I thought, how silly of me to waste my time stressing, when I knew my surgery day would come around eventually. I was really lucky that I only had to do 3 months supervised diet for my approval. So, I know I had it easy compared to those of you that have to do 6. But, I do know the stress, and I can truly say now, looking back, it wasn't as bad as it seemed at the time.

Hope this makes sense, and helps a little. Keep thinking positively, and focus on your goal, but without forgetting all the great things you've accomplished so far.