3 THINGS FOR FRIDAY!

i'm grateful for: 1. that there are only 6 hours and 39 minutes left before i can leave. 2. that there are only 6 hours and 38 minutes and 30 seconds before I can leave. 3. that there are only 6 hours and 38 minutes before i can leave.

Alrighty then.  What's up?  Didja hear on the job?  Talk to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PM if necessary or call me if you need to talk! Tia

hey lol. yeah nothing good to say today. i haven't heard anything either way. i left a message with the head guy. i will assume that it is a no if i don't hear from him today. ate pasta yest and today. feeling bad.

You've been under a lot of pressure at home and work lately, so please don't add to your insult by beating yourself up. So you had pasta, so what?  So did I.  But I bet it's nowhere near what you would've eaten pre-op.  Just focus on how far you've come, not the rest of the journey, and it will come!!!! Hugs, Tia

thanks for being kind to me. i just finished throwing up for the second time since last night cuz i ate stuff that made me sick. i really have a very destructive streak in me. i feel so bad right now. i feel like a ******g idiot! luckily i see my acupuncturist today. she is so great and hopefully she can give me some love. i am going back to the bathroom now to throw up a little more. don't be jealous!

Stop calling yourself names!!  I know it's a vicious cycle - you eat the wrong stuff, get sick, get disgusted with yourself, eat to make yourself feel better or to punish yourself, and it begins again.  I don't begin to know how to tell you to stop, but you have to.   I know this sounds crazy, but last summer, I was REALLY obsessing about this guy that I'd met and liked, who wound up going back to his ex.  I was devastated, and making myself (and my friends) NUTS!!  I put a rubber band around my wrist, and EVERY time I thought of him, I snapped that thing!!!  Nuts, yes, but it worked!!!!   I know you want to succeed at this Nic, but you need to work from the inside out - to sound trite, you need to work on what's eating you and then you can work on what you're eating.   Call me if you need to!!! Tia

i put the rubber band on. hopefully i won't hurt myself. i finished a report and will leave early cuz my acupuncturist had a cancellation. get me outta here. thanks for your support. you are a great lady. can't wait to meet you next weekend.

Nah....it wasn't really "obsessing", but thank GOD that ledge is over! lol  And better yet, thank goodness you didn't jump!

My Three Things for Today  1. Finally feel up to interacting on my  computer up to now it has been mostly a little bit of viewing now and then 2. The sun is outand I am glad to be back involved on OH 3.  It's my one week re-birthday today!!!

Happy Re-Birthday, Terri! I'm glad to see you're feeling better!