Dear Unhealthy Food,

Dear Unhealthy Food,

 

Sometimes I really hate you. Why do I want you so badly that I would risk getting sick every time. I am able to forget that I throw up if I eat too much of you. I shouldn't be eating any of you. Here I am depressed cuz I'm not losing a ton of weight and I am eating you. I'm not exercising enough and I eat a lot of fat. Why would I expect anything different?

 

I need to let you go. I can't continue my relationship with you. It will have to be a clean break. No visitations, no calls late at night. We have to end it completely. I can't have you in my life. All you bring is destruction. You have made me hurt myself so badly. I don't want you in my life anymore. Please leave and don't come back.

 

With Disregard,

 

Nicole

Hi Nicole, I love the letter you wrote! I believe you can some just in a small portion so that it doesn't get you sick.   (((hugs)))

Nicole,  I wirte that letter in my head all the time.  You know, even though the weight comes off, I still have to hewad wanting all the sugar.  I am one of the few that can eat sugar and not dump and let me tell you....over the passed 2 days I have eaten a whole box of Ho Ho's.  I hate stress On a happy note, Cira, you are almost at goal girl...woo hoo!!! My Ho Ho eating put me back to 20lbs....rather the 18...oh well to the gym I go

At least it is only 2 pounds and not 20.  I don't dump like I used to. I have notice that I can eat more sugar now that I am one year post op. But I have been trying hard to be good. I do notice that I need to stop grazing all day long. I had to eat a lot when I was pregnant and now I can't stop.  I need to really stop.  I have been eating a lot of cubed cheddar cheese and monteray jack with cheese nips.  Ughhh girl I need to reach my goal soon.  I also have been snacking a lot on baby carrots with light ranch dressing because I feel like I have the need to keep chewing something crunchy. I want cookies but I will not aloow myself because if I start it will get me in big trouble. I hate stress eating too. Focus on reaching you goal and if you need to snack eat cheese and carrots! lol  Best of luck sweetie.

Nicole I love this letter and will put this on my Fridge with Nicks.  Go look at his post, on the "other" board. Hugs Kristen PS: Keep up the great work!

Awesome letter. I feel the same way. I have said many times  this surgery saved my life and gave me a life but thank God I had and have a wonderful counselor to help me through. I think they need more follow up with mental health and exercise. There is tons of nutrition but for me I have to do it all to be successful. I have not reached my goal ,heck I don't even  really know what it is.My goal was to walk , to be as healthy as I could and I have gotten so much more. So far i have dropped 250 lbs and went from 430 to 180 lbs and a size 7x to a 12 .   I even have a size 10 dress that fits. I just want a one number size one day but even if I never see that I am beyond thrilled. My weight is still high but with working out in the gym and swimming pretty much daily I have built a lot of muscle. I also don't know what I would be after skin removal. I can wear a few medium shirts and I have no idea when I could do that last. I am 47 today-it is after midnight now (5/8/08) and I weigh less than I did in 1982 when I was 21 and I believe less then when I was a teen. The last weights I have were 1982 and that is only because I had a failed stomach stapling then. I almost did from that. Life is amazing and I am so blessed and loving life yet I still struggle with food.  I can't have chocolate in the house or I eat it get sick swear I will never do it again and then do it again. I never want to wish pain on anyone but it helps to know that others go through the same thing because I know better and hate that I do it and feel I should be able to stop it but addiction is  addiction and I may need help forever and that is ok One day at a time I can do this with the help of all of you and others who understand. Thanks for listening and thanks for writing a wonderful post. Better end I am so long winded -sorry. I am excited I am going out with my biological Mother today( I was adopted) she wanted to spend my birthday wth me and I really want to spend it with her. She made reservations at a great restaurant apparently , in silver springs Mrs K's Toll House and then we are going to walk around Brookside Gardens and then do whatever I want. We are spending the day together. We never have. The hard part will be driving there. This is my biggest drive in years-like 20 yrs. I had a lot of anxiety and then was to sick to drive at all- I can't bwelieve I can even try this.Life is grand .Have a fabulous day everyone. I know I will that is if I don't fall asleep. Ibetter try to sleep.I am just to excited. Good night all Laurie