Fearing failure!!!

Hi Friends,      Alright if you want to give me a hard time just get it over with. Here is where I am at. I feel as if I am in a state of perpetual standstill animation! I can see all of you around me doing so well; and I am being held in a stop loss time warp. I have lost 96 lbs since my RNY in Feb 07. Since about the nine month mark I have not lost anything; I go up and down those same 2-3 lbs like a yo yo. I am exercising; treamill 30-50 min daily, ex bike 10-30 min daily. I have been trying to get my protein in but think it is a real struggle. I could do better on my water intake. I have been fighting some bad habits; (snacking). U have no idea how much I want to get to my goals. I am at 196 now; want to be down to 175 by summer! I figured it out; need to lose up to 2lbs a week.     Am I ALONE? Have any of you ever encountered this? I think if we were all honest we would tell anyone that has not been here; it is harder as time passes you by! So give it 100 percent while you are in your honeymoon phase! How long does it last anyway? I began keeping a log on fit day. I am sincerely working on it! I think my surgeon was new to WLS and inexperianced; therefore it is also my belief that he was to conservative in my surgery? Is that possible?  How can I find out without insulting my DR? I FEAR EVERYDAY OF GAINNING MY WEIGHT BACK! I would rather never eat again than to do that! I don't know how much more disappointment in myself I can take! I am at a breaking point  seriously!     To those of you *had this and haven't yet gone to surgery, please don't let this make you think twice! I still would have done it a thousand times over in a heartbeat! I just don't feel there is any support from my Dr. or Nut. What am I doing wrong? I am still healthier than I was a year ago; not many meds now, and no diabetes or high BP.!! I know now anything I lose will have to be a struggle of my own will again! This surgery is so worth it; but when you feel like you have hit the MOTHER of all plateau's where do you go????      Sorry this is my long rant.. Before you flame me, please remember let him without SIN throw the first stone! I am reaching out for help, suggestions, compassion.. Thanks for your time and honesty. Judy R

Judy, I am right there beside you. I had RNY on March 6 of 07, and have lost between 125 and 127 since then.  I have been going up and down the same 2 -3 pounds since November.  And I am frustrated as well. And just like you, have no regrets and would do it over a thousand times over. At some point this plateau has got to break. This week, I have kicked up my exercise a bit. We'll see if that helps.  I am doing the same things you are - back to basics, journaling, focusing on protein grams, getting in the waters etc.  At some point it has to break! I am hoping someone posts some wonderful, magical answer. But I think we just need to hang in there, keep doing what we are doing, maybe a little bit harder, and it will start again!   But I am right there with you! Caryn

Hey soul sister, So glad to see you post here in the MD Forum!!!  I am here to help you through this time of need.  You have always been there for me and so it is my turn to help you out.   No one here is goig to flame you sweetie, we are here to support you.  We are all in this together.   ((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))) 

Remember also that there is a "nature" component at work here as well. We are creatures of our environment.   Our bodies naturally store more in the fall and winter.   It has been shown that losing weight is harder during those times.   As Spring progesses you (and all of us) tend to get more active.    As the weather gets nicer, you will be outside more, doing yardwork, talking to neighbors, etc.   Your metabolisim changes right along with the weather. For those of us that had this surgery in February, March and April of last year...the first part was easy.   We were losing the majority of our weight when it was the easiest.   It will get easier over the summer.    Just stick with what you know is right.  Keep up your protein and fluids.  Fight the urge to snack and it will start dropping again.

Thanks Dave,    Thanks everyone! It justs gets to me sometimes. Now I know I am not truly crazy or alone. I am always judging myself in comparison to others. My own daughter has lost almost 140 lbs with her lapband; I am so proud of her. Still I haven't really seen her hit a plateau like mine. Then again she's much younger. LOL.. I hope the weather brings me a lot more suprises too. Best wishes to you all; and thanks again. Judy

Judy hang in there girl!! On the BMI over 50 those guys and gals who had RNY have lost hundreds of pounds and when they hit a plateau they say they cut waaaaay back on the carbs and increase the protein and water. Nothing you aren't already doing I am sure. Keep coming for support. We are here for you. Hugs.