Just a Vent

So weight Loss has stalled for me, so, to jump start it,  I figured out my base metabolic rate, so I knew how many calories would maintain my weight vs what i need to lose weight.   I have the excersie thing down...5 days a week, run 3 miles, walk 2 takes about an hour or so to do and then I have the weights.  So I am doing great this week, the scale finally moved after 5 weeks and BOOM, Today I get  in an argument with a family member and what do I do  to ease the stress, I order a small pepperoni pizza, eat the cheese and pep off 2 pieces, THEN I make oatmeal and eat that with 2 tbls spoons of sugar and then I munch on potato chips, have no idea how many I ate there and to top it all off I eat an apple and 3 oz of cheese.  Yep, I feel sick to my stomach, and really wish I hadn't pigged out, all of this was over 3 hours.  Anyway, the only saving grace was that breakfast and lunch together were 450 calories and I went to the gym today,and burned about 60o.  BUT the problem is that old demon of dealing with stress by eating, almost felt like I was punishing myself for the argument.  Anyway do you think because we all have had WLS, we are just mor conscience of what we put in our mouths, and know our motivations for eating?  Because honestly, I hate having to think about food so much and at times, it is like I think more about it after WLS then I did before I had it.  Probably because I now have more specfic nutritional needs, but at any rate, have you guys who have been out for a year + still battle the food demons, has it gotten easier?  Thanks for letting me vent-Jen

Oh Jen keep you head up! Things will kick start again and look how far you have come!  Hugs Kristen

{{{Jen}}} sorry you are feeling stressed. I hope that even throughout this, you are proud of what you have accomplished. You're doing great, in spite of a small speed bump.

We all have that demon hiding. You will get back on track.

Jen - Okay, part of the battle is knowing what you've done and why.  Now, think back to BEFORE - you most likely would've eaten the ENTIRE pizza, oatmeal with LOTS of sugar, a whole bag of chips, and maybe apple pie for dessert.  Do you see how far you actually HAVE progressed? It's funny, at one of our support group meetings at GBMC, there was a shrink there who said that people need to not think about food so much.  I stumped him by asking how that was possible when we HAVE to think about EVERY single item that goes into our mouths, to ensure we're meeting our nutritional musts. I would like to tell you that your demons will go away, but the truth is, they operated on our bodies, not our heads!!  I would've paid extra for that.  However, with the help of a wonderful therapist, my demons have eased a lot.  But I don't think they'll ever be gone.   Again, knowing what you've done and why is huge, but jumping back up is key, and it sounds like you're on the right track.  Don't be hard on yourself - congratulate yourself for realizing it and not eating like you would have in the past!! Hang in there! Tia

Tia, Couldn't have said it better myself --- great way of looking at it and yes, I'd have eaten the whole pizza and the entire bag of chips.