Food Vent

Ok, I know that I chose this surgery and I thought that I understood all the changes that I needed to make. However, I really am at a point that I am sick and tired of not eating. I don't know if this is still "head hunger" but I feel so stinking hungry. Yet when I make a meal and sit to eat it, I just can't. Nothing looks or tastes appealing to me. The thought of eating still makes me sick, yet I crave the food. I miss it. As stupid as this sounds I feel like I have lost a friend. Dang nab it - a good one too!  I read all these recipes and while they sound great, one bite and I am gagging. I am so tired of eating the same dang on foods. Maybe in all my hurry to get this done, I didn't totally mentally prepare myself. I know that I am a VERY picky eater to begin with, but I need to get though this and for some reason I just can't.  One of my fears of eating is that I am going to eat something and it gets stuck, or I will get sick off of it. But at the same time, chicken and the stuff I know I CAN eat is starting to make me sick at just the thought of it. And when I can manage to eat it, I get in 4-5 bites and I am so full, that my chest hurts. Mind you these 4-5 bites are still the small pieces less than a pencil erasure, so I am no where near even getting close to the 2-3 oz. that is recommended. I know that no one can "fix" this, but I no one around me gets it. I just needed a moment to vent out this frustration. I just feel so stressed at this. I feel like I will never eat again.  While I know that this is ridiculus and this is all part of the process, it sucks.  I feel like I almost wish that the Dr would have put me on a liquid diet or bariatric diet for the month or two before my surgery so that I would have realized how difficult this truely is.  Now, having said ALL this, Iam still thankful that I was able to get this tool. I am greatful that already at 6 weeks, I feel soooooooooo much better. I have the energy to play with my girls and give them a MOM again.  Please don't think I am ungreatful for this gift, because I really have no regrets. I just want this phase over. I don't want to pig out, I just want to be able to eat something solid, with substance that has flavor. If you read all this- GOD BLESS YOU!

Hi Dee, It will get better!!!  Trust me  .. it will.   I can't say when, but it will.   I remember being so frustrated not so much with not being able to eat, but just not enjoying it.   I would sit and be close to tears, knowing that while I couldn't eat the quantities that I once ate, could I please at least enjoy what I could eat. Do the best you can and don't lose faith, it will all come out ok.   Hugs, Mo

Mo-     Thank you. I really think I thought that I would have this done and the world would be wonderful. I don't think I realized how much your life changes.      And people think that this is easy-    It is good to know and be reassured that one day, eventually this too shall pass.  Thanks for being here tonight!

{{{Dee}}} All I can say is DITTO!  My diet consists of cottage cheese, light and fit yogurt, Atkins bars, and the occassional Atkins shake. Mpwhere near enough protein, or enough water. The Nut blames my constant nausea on not enough water. When I'm nauseas, I can eat a little, but if it's something I haven't tried, one or two bites and I'm done because I can't trust my pouch to like it. I have used a few saltine crackers here and there to help out with the nausea, but that defeats the purpose. I know this is worth it, I don't doubt that for a moment. I am so very thankful to all those who have helped share their own stories, offered advice and support. I wouldn't change much, if given the chance to do it over. But, I just do wish I could just move on with eating. I don't miss the quantity, but I do miss the variety. I do wish I could walk away from one meal feeling full, not stuffed, and not nauseas. I know that day is coming. Thanks for posting Dee, as it does help to know I'm not alone. We'll get through this, I have faith in us.

Kathy,       Thanks even cyber hugs feel good tonight. ;)  You hit the nail on the head... I don't want to gorge myself, I just want a meal. And your right, knowing that others have gone and are going through this, brings a little peace to the soul. Knowing that it is normal and will eventually be better, just seems to help.

Hang in there and keep trying to get in that protein! Shakes or bars whatever you need to get it in. I have days where I am so hungry and I take one bite and just dont want to eat. At times nothing sounds good. Keep trying and you will get there. Hugs Amy

Thanks Amy!        We ( you, Kathy and I) are all so close in this process. It is again reassuring to know that we are working through this together. Thank you for being here.       I am doing my best, and most days I can handle it, today was just so overwhelming and frustrating for me.

Kathy & Diane Hugs to you both and I know what you mean.  It will get better. I have good days and bad days.  I went to dinner with Mom, Dad, my niece and her fiance tonight.  Mom ordered a Prime Rib and baked potato and gave me some of each.  A few minutes it was running for the bathroom an losing it all. But then again today I bought clothes in sizes I never thought I would see. WLS is not easy but I would do it again without a qualm Take heart my friends Darla

Darla,      Thank you! And your right, the good moments WAYYYYY out weigh the bad.  Today was much better for me. And I am buying sizes I havn't seen since college!

I haven't gotten the surgery yet and what you are expressing is one of my main fears. I am hoping for you and everyone else that it gets easier and eventually you'll be able to eat what you want except just smaller portions. keeping my fingers crossed.