Dealing with DOUBT!!
Tracy,
I have my 6th meeting with the nutrionist tomorrow. It's my understanding at that point, she'll submit the paperwork and I play the waiting game.
Since you're on the "other side of the world", Silver Spring isn't that far to attend the support groups.
I live in Pasadena, so 495 in the evening would be quite a treat.
Barb
I started thinking about having the surgery in probably 2001. I didn't have insurance that would cover it at that time, so I didn't even explore the possibility. I was living with someone who could get it covered by insurance, so to help him out, I researched surgeons. I thought about it again, but still didn't have insurance coverage for it. My current insurance does cover it, and for some reason or another it took me about 4 months into the policy to have a bell go off in my head and tell me it was time. I had just about stopped thinking about it. It took me 2 months to get a reservation to go to my surgeons required information session. I got the call the next day that they had already verified my insurance coverage, and to schedule my initial appointment with the doc. I haven't had any doubt moments yet. I've been moving full steam ahead, having completed all but one of the required diagnostics that he wants (the other is scheduled tomorrow, as is my 2nd appointment with him). After that, I will only need one more monthly appointment with the surgeon before we can submit for approval. I am still excited, still not worried or doubtful. Sometimes I feel like I'm preparing for my own party. I am turning 40 next month, and I am starting to have symptoms of comorbidities, so it's definitely time.
I'm a strong believer in following your heart. If you have found doubt, and turned back, it just wasn't the right time. If you feel determined this time, follow it through. Don't let any task seem too difficult, any test seem to annoying or painful. Just keep plugging along, and do one step at a time. Just like you will for your weight loss, set intermediate goals. If you feel like you're not going to follow through, try to figure out what is holding you back. Believe me that reading, and posting here and seeing everyones triumphs, with very few struggles will give you motivation. I think this is the best support group around.
Hugs!
Kathy
Kathy
For me, I did a heck of a lot of research and was able to made an educated decision. As the days got closer to my surgery the doubts started kicking in more and more. I chalk that up to surgery jitters. I knew when I made my original decision I did it with a clear mind.
The funny thing is that I am now 4 weeks post-op and I still have a lot of times when I doubt my decision. It's much harder to cope with now than it was prior to the surgery. The reality is that the surgery is done and you can't turn back. Still, I know deep down that I made the right decision and it is reinforced each morning when I put on my clothes. At some point in the future all the new habits I'm trying to establish will become second nature and I'm positive that will be the day when the doubts will fade away.
I'm sorry to hear that you are having some doubt. I had no doubt. I wasn't scared. I was ready and I would do it again. In a heart beat. I had laperscopic by pass on Jan 31, 2006. I started at 240 with diabetes. I have not had any diabetic meds since that day. I've lost 80 pounds and put on 10 in the last 8 months. Still looking forward to taking off another 25 pounds. I wish I could go back to the first 2 months after surgery. One big thing tho. I trusted my doctor. I think he is great..... If you trust your doctor you shouldn't have so much doubt. Good luck . Ellie
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