have any of you seen this?

fedup
on 2/28/07 9:36 pm
hey ladies, and gentlemen, good morning, i found this on another message board and was wondering if any of you have seen this. i thought it was really what all of us have been wanting to say. i think we should all write something like this to give us more confidence in ourselves that we can do this journey. DEAR FOOD: I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR THE COMFORT YOU BOUGHT ME MANY TIMES IN MY LIFE. I BELIEVE MORE THEN ONCE THAT YOU SAVED MY SANITY. WHEN I WAS SCARED, ALONE, A YOUNG TEEN AND NO FAMILY, I TURNED TO YOU AND WHEN NOBODY WOULD LISTEN I SHARED MY PAIN AND LOSS WITH YOU. I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR THE GOOD TIMES I SHARED WITH OTHERS WHILE EATING A DELICIOUS MEAL. I HAVE GOOD MEMORIES SHARING A GOOD MEAL WITH PEOPLE VERY DEAR TO ME. SO FAR, SO GOOD. BUT IT HASN'T BEEN ALL GOOD, THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN YOU AND I. MY DEVOTION TO YOU, MY OBSESSION WITH YOU. HAS REEKED HAVOC IN EVERY AREA OF MY LIFE. YOU BECAME A CRUTCH FOR ME TO HIDE MYSELF, TO COMFORT MYSELF PHYSICALLY WHILE IGNORING MYSELF MENTALLY AND SPIRITUALLY. THE EFFECTS YOU HAD ON MY BODY AT FIRST DIDN'T COMPARE TO THE COMFORT YOU BOUGHT ME. BUT THAT CAUGHT UP WITH ME AND MY BODY PAID A MUCH TOO HIGH PRICE. MY SPIRIT SUFFERED, MY MIND SUFFERED, MY SOICAL LIFE SUFFERED, MY ABILITY TO WORK SUFFERED, MY ABILITY TO BE AN ACTIVE MOTHER/FATHER SUFFERED, MY RELATIONSHIPS SUFFERED. FOR ALL OF THOSE REASONS I WORKED ON MY "SELF" FOR A VERY LONG TIME TO PREPARE TO SAY GOODBYE TO THE ROLE THAT YOU PLAY IN MY LIFE. IT TOOK TWO YEARS FOR ME TO LEARN TO FIND COMFORT ELSEWHERE, TO RECLAIM MY LIFE, TO RECLAIM MY OWN POWER OVER MY FUTURE AND MY BODY AND MY HEALTH. I'VE TAKEN THE PLUNGE AND PURGED YOUR IMPORTANCE IN MY LIFE. YOU ARE NO LONGER NEEDED FOR ME TO FIND SOLACE IN HARD TIMES. YOU ARE NO LONGER GOING TO BE THE PERSON I RUN TO FOR COMFORT, I AM NO LONGER TOO WEAK EMOTIONALLY TO TURN TO MYSELF, TO FIND OTHER WAYS TO FEEL BETTER. ALREADY I SEE THE DIFFERENCE PHYSICALLY SINCE BEGINNING MY PATH TO REDEFINE OUR RELATIONSHIP. I FEEL BETTER THAN I HAVE IN YEARS. I AM NO LONGER AFRAID TO LOOK IN THE MIRROR. I CAN ALSO FEEL HUGE CHANGES EMOTIONALLY. I AM SO MUCH STRONGER AND NO LONGER NEED YOU THE WAY I ONCE DID. SO FOOD, THIS IS GOODBYE. I WON'T CALL YOU MY FRIEND BECAUSE MANY TIMES YOU WEREN'T. I WON'T CALL YOU MY ENEMY BECAUSE MANY TIMES YOU SAVED ME FROM A DOWNWARD EMOTIONAL SPIRAL. BUT I WILL SAY THAT WITH THIS REDEFINED ROLE IN MY LIFE I AM READY TO ACCEPT YOU INTO MY LIFE AS A TOOL TO STAY HEALTHY AND STRONG. WE WON'T SEE EACH OTHER AS MUCH ANYMORE, AND HECK WHEN YOU HIT MY PLATE ALOT OF YOU WILL BE THROWN INTO THE TRASH. I AM LEARNING THAT THERE ARE VALUABLE THINGS YOU CAN OFFER ME AND I'M CHOSING ONLY THOSE VALUABLE THINGS. FROM HERE ON OUT YOU ARE MERELY A MEANS OF EXISTANCE, A FUEL FOR MY BODY WHICH IS NURTURING MY INNER SELF, DON'T BE SAD TO SAY GOODBYE, I AM NOT, I THINK WE'LL GET ALONG MUCH BETTER THIS WAY. SIGNED..... A VERY HAPPY WEIGHT LOSS PATIENT. now this brought tears to my eyes. i really hope i can say these things when i have my surgery. have a great day everyone. tammy
(deactivated member)
on 2/28/07 10:09 pm - Middle River, MD
WOW, Tammy - this is intense!! I'd like to say that it's no longer a struggle for me, but that wouldn't be true. In fact, it seems like the further out I get, the harder it gets as my old demons come back. I WILL win, though, with the help of my loser friends here, my wonderful therapist and of course, DRUGS (AND S/F CHOCOLATE)! I actually think my "Dear John" letter would be short and sweet: "Dear Ben & Jerry - Thanks for the memories!" Thanks for posting!! Tia
telsll
on 2/28/07 11:31 pm - Lusby, MD
Wow! So true and totally fits my cir****tance. Thanks for posting it. TraciL
the7thdean
on 3/1/07 1:40 am - GA
Tammy, Thanks for sharing -- this is deep.
Cira S.
on 3/1/07 2:06 am - Charles Town , WV
Wow Tammy that really is something and I can't wait to be saying the same thing! Thanks for sharing sweetie. Have a great day! Hugs, Cira
robinsaxton
on 3/1/07 10:09 pm - Columbia, MD
Tammy, thanks for posting this. I love it. It is a great reminder of why I went through all of this in the first place and it is a reminder of how i want to live my life for the rest of my life. I do not want food to control me. I am in control now. Thanks so much for sharing this. Hugs, Robin
Bonnie R.
on 3/2/07 12:09 am - stevensville, MD
This is very emotional, because it hits home in so many ways. I feel this way now and cant wait for my approval and 6month diet, to help fix this problem. Bonnier
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