Good Foggy Thursday!!!

Hey everyone - Wow! The fog has been incredible this week, hasn't it? Funnily enough, the ride to work has been pretty uneventuful, taking me anywhere from 20-30 minutes, while the ride home has been a different story entirely! Last night, I left at 6, about an hour later than normal, thinking things would've thinned out by then. Yeah, right!!! But I made it home in one piece, which is all that matters. Today, K's having a choir concert at White Marsh Mall at 11. I was originally going to leave work at 10:30, go to the concert and come bac****IL I found out the Colonel's going to be here, and since I'm in the office by myself, I can't leave. I was heartbroken, and made my brother tell K, who said she understood. I'm glad, because I don't like it a bit. I've NEVER missed one of their school functions, but work has been incredibly supportive of my role in KB's lives, so what can I say? I need to be here. Plus, she's got a concert at school Tuesday evening, and I'll be there. Oh, well, such is the need for a paycheck! I know she'll look just beautiful in her sparkly red dress with her sparkly red nails!!! Although I don't really post about my wls struggles/issues in depth here, suffice it to say that as I approach 18 mos. out, it's been a huge struggle, physically and mentally. So I did something for myself that I've needed to do for a while - no, I didn't go back to the gym, yet, but that is on my radar. I contacted a therapist, one recommended by DVR's office. She is a "loser" herself, so I felt pretty comfortable talking to her, and made an appointment to see her on Tuesday. After I was done verbalizing EVERYTHING I'd been feeling to her, I felt like an enormous weight had been lifted off of me. Wow! Maybe that loss'll show up on my scale!! Anyway, I'm so glad I did this. Not that I'm crazy (much), but there's just so much going on in my life that I need an outlet other than my old love, food!!! Now if I could just justify the $$$$, particularly at this time of year, for a neck/shoulder massage, I'd be okay! OMG, it feels like someone pretzel-twisted me across the back of my neck. I'm almost considering having 50 pound B walk on my back, but I don't think so..... So, while it's quiet here for now, who knows what the day will bring. Our Trooper continues to improve, so continue your good thoughts and prayers. The assailant's father contends his son is a good boy and was "murdered." Um, hello? HE TRIED TO KILL A COP!!!! Ugh!!! Okay, everyone, have a great day!!! Be careful driving!!! Tia

Good morning Tia I think it's this crazy weather that is bringing out the fog!!!! I couldn't believe when I walked out of the house this a.m. and could barely see the road out front. My short drive to Annapolis is adventure enough without special weather events. I'm sorry you are having to miss K's concert today. At least you will have the chance to hear them on Tuesday night though. Even though I didn't take my gym stuff with me yesterday, I carried through with my resolve to change and go back out when I got home yesterday. I was actually at the gym before 5. I added 9 (it was supposed to be 10 but I just couldn't manage that last minute) minutes on the thing that is sort of like a gazelle. I did 20 minutes and a cool down on the treadmill then 20 and a 5 minute cool down on the recumbent bike. I got a good cardio workout. I think I'll schedule my appointment to go over the nautilus/strength equipment for that week between Christmas and New Years. I am struggling with eating things that are REALLY poor choices. I don't over eat .. but I eat some stupid stuff. I got in the fudge last night when I was cutting it ... I ate enough that I was feeling a bit rocky/queasy .. and even felt a bit under the weather when I got up this a.m. I'm working on my protein shake here and today is a new day!! I've got a list of things that need to be done. I have a tiny reprieve from the COOP stuff ... I have things to do for that, but I can take some time to do other things before I jump back into it. I've got to find my OIT pal to go out to the truck and help me bring in all the stuff I picked up yesterday. I forgot they are working on the front of our building and I can't take a cart down the ramp out front, so we are going to have to take a round a bout route to get to the garage with a cart. ARGHHH!!!! Have a good Thursday!!! Lefty sends head butts and kitty slurps!!! Hugs, Mo

Hey Mo - Oh, I am SO very impressed with your motivation to exercise. I'm sure you'll feel better physically AND mentally - exercise, when I can do it, is always such a stress reliever. I like being able to take it out on the equipment as opposed to a co-worker - sometimes! Ditto with the eating. Isn't it funny how just ONE more piece of fudge can put you over the edge? I've had more cookies this year than last, but still nowhere near what I used to be able to put away. In the past, 10-12 cookies (at least) would constitute a snack at one time, but now I'm more than satisifed with 2-3. Actually, I wish I would get violently ill from just one, but.... Focus on that protein, maybe it'll kind of "flush" the fudge away! Well, no one said this would be easy, I guess. Sometimes I just wish I could be as diligent as I was initially, at least in the first 10 months. I'd give anything to be that focused again. Well, you have fun moving and IT'ing and all that computer-geeky stuff. Love and head butts back to Lefty and woofs from Molly!! Tia

I think that everyone is out trying to handle holiday errands on the way home from work. I have never seen so many people in the grocery store on a tuesday or Wednesday. I am proud of you for finding an outlet for your frustrations. It is so hard to talk about our problems, and people resist going to therapy thinking that it brands them in some manner. You will be with your daughter in spirit today. She will feel you there. Have a good day. Aime

Thanks, Aime!!! You're right, everyone's trying to get done, just like me. Next week ought to be a blast! Actually, I can see how you'd think Kaity's my daughter, but she's my niece. She and her brother, Brian, are the lights of my life, so consquently, I talk about them ALL the time!!! Fortunately, no one on here seems to mind, or if they do, they're just to polite to say!!! The concert was canceled, anyway. Apparently, there was a robbery at a Superfresh in White Marsh, a Baltimore County Officer was critically injured, one assailant was killed and the other is in custody. Since her school was going to be participating with some schools in the White Marsh area, and those schools were on lockdown, the concert was canceled. So it worked out - for me anyway, but I know she must be sooo disappointed. Thanks for the vote of confidence in finding a way to relieve my stress. I did, at one time, use the gym, but life seems to get in the way, and I haven't been as diligent as I should be! Be compliant and exercise - don't make the same mistakes others do!!! Take care, Tia

Hi Tia, I can relate to nieces and nephews being the light of your life. My niece is mine but unfortunatly she lives in Florida so I see her only twice a year....so I have three Godchildren whom are the light of my life as well whom live local. I would move heaven and earth for them all and spend as much time as I can with them. They are my best friend's kids and I can have them when ever I want....gives her a break LOL I love it. Hope you had a great day, I'm keeping those officers and their families in my prayers. ~Heather

Hey Heather! You know, I couldn't love these two more had I given birth to them!!! I can't remember what my life was like before them, they've added so much to my world!!! However, I do say that I'm so glad I rent children as opposed to own!!! hehehehe!!! Tia

Tia, I am so glad you are going to see someone to help you out. I must say that if you are seeing Ranessa Mcnally she is awesome! I will continue to see her after my surgery. The best to you nena! hugs, Cira

Thanks, Cira!!! Sometimes, as strong as we think we are, we still need some help - or a lot, in my case!!! Just too much stuff in my head, you know? Tia