Feeling a little blue...just need to vent

Heather, my beautiful new friend. You have me welling up for you. So I know if I'm welling up that you've probably had a tissue nearby when you were writing this post. I know how you feel on all counts (losing a loved one - and by the way yet another similarity my grandma was MAYBE 5' tall and a total pistol!, not feeling worthy or good enough for a good relationship, being the only one in your circle without something/someone - for the longest time for me it was having a baby). I know you don't want to hear it but dag-nabbit, you're gonna. All in due time my dear. It takes some of us longer than others. After we had Kylie I was so happy we didn't have her sooner because now I know we can give her what we want to and I'm not sure we could have earlier in our marriage. As for having someone. Having friends is sometimes better than having a man. You don't have to clean up after your friends! Trust me, I love Floyd, but some days I wish he was still in the Navy and underway for 20 days! Beware of what you wish for. hehehe And don't sweat the 36! Just remember I'm always going to be a week OLDER than you! hehehe 2007 will be a new beginning for us both physically and emotionally. I decided a long time ago that I was okay as I was (and that means fat too) and that the only person's opinion that mattered was my own. Everyone has their right to their own opinion, but if their opinion had anything to do with me, how I looked, what work I did, where I lived, my situation, etc, their opinion just didn't matter. Nobody has to be me or live my life. You are not a downer, you are a wonderful person looking to vent and that's a good thing. That's what we're here for. I'm really glad that I took the time to stop in tonight. Here's a (((((((((((((HUG)))))))))))))) for you! As for celebrating birthdays I'm up for anything if I can plan for it. Otherwise, I will see you on the 17th! ...AND the Moms hehehe