Maybe I shouldn't have gone looking into the

Hey Steph - It's interesting about the allergic reaction to the Heparin - because that's EXACTLY what happened to me. DVR was right on top of it though, stopped the Heparin and made me have blood work immediately the day after I was released from the hospital. I had no lasting side effects, and he just told me that I wouldn't be able to get Heparin anymore. Prior to my surgery, I did have an IVC filter implanted with no problems. I think DVR wanted that because at my initial consult, I weighed 377 and had a BMI of 60+ - just a safety precaution really. I'm sure you're nervous, and as I told Cira, all of your feelings leading up to surgery are perfectly normal. We all have them. But for me, surgery was my last resort. Even though at 15 months out, I still struggle, particularly with emotional eating issues, it was absolutely the best thing I could've done for myself. I just remember being so excited to start my new life. Don't torment yourself with the "what-ifs," because life is full of them. Just tell yourself you're doing this for you and basically, put your life in God's and DVR's hands. Actually, to me, they're one and the same!!!! You'll be fine, too. If you have more questions, please feel free to post. We're here for you! Tia

Hi Steph, Right I couldn't remember what he died of. But the heparin thing is right. I am sorry for bringing this up especially with your surgery is around the corner. Ughhh I shouldn't have posted. Please forgive me!!!!! I am feeling a lot better today and ready for tomorrow's consult. Yipppeeeee I have gotten up and dusted myself up and I am ready for my new me to emerge sometime in 2007! Hugs, Cira

It's ok, I don't guess we would be considered normal if we didn't have some fears. As scarey as it is I am so excited to begin my new life on the losing side. My daughter had the Lapband put on on Oct. 26th so far she is doing great and is losing about a pound a day, I am so happy for her and can't wait for it to happen for me. I am so busy trying to get everything in order right now with the surgery and Christmas coming, I have been shopping like crazy have pulled out the decorations and even put up the tree (geez I know we haven't even had Turkey day) so I will not have to worry about those things after my surgery. Christmas is a big hoilday for me and my family and of course I am the one who pulls it together to make it wonderful each year so I just have to have it done so I won't stress, keeps mind off of things on most days. Anyway, I have done my homework about this surgery and I know I have more of a chance of having a fatel car wreck on the beltway going to work each day than I do of not making it through the surgery, so I am just putting my faith in God who has bought me through much in my 48 years to see me through this also. Steph

Good morning Cira, Sweetie, you need to go into WLS with all the facts and understand the risks. Reading the memorials is one way to do that, but not necessarily the best thing to do. WLS is a very big step. Please remember while you are frightened and freaked out that we are all here for you. Hugs, Mo

Thanks Mo for the wonderful support. You are so right. hugs, Cira

Hi Cira, I am a little ovcer 2.5 years out. If you go back and read my profile around Feb-April 2004 you will see that I did the same... Now, what I am going to say may not be the experience of most, but for me, Pre-op was SO much more stressful than post-op. After surgery, the whole situation was SO much easier and less stressful....prior to surgery I was worried, scared and at times convinced that I was doing something terribly risky...and yes, there is a certain about of risk...but so it walking around with 130 "extra" pounds... My life is wonderful since WLS...I am in a size 6 pant, I can fit in an airline seat WITH my purse beside me!!!! People who have just met me call me thin!!!! You get the idea...oh, and the biggest plus....way less health problems!!!! Only you can make the decision...and sounds like you have made the decision to have WLS...nerves are normal, fear is normal, anxiety is normal...now focus on the EXCITEMENT of the post-op lifestyle!!! Best wishes, RAE

Rae, Thank you so much for the support. I know that EVERYONE is right and it is normal to get all these weird emotions. I guess if we didn't get them we wouldn't be humans right? lol I read your journey and it is amazing! Wow size 6 pants man oh man I never wore a size pair of pants!!! LOL I am so glad that you are doing great. Thank you for giving me the extra push I needed. I have a few tests scheduled and everythign is moving right along. Thanks again and best wishes you too! Cira