So mad with myself...eating everything BAD

So these last few days have been the worst for me in a very long time.  Now that I've had all my appointments and am just waiting for my surgery date I seem to be wanting to eat everything that's full of fat & sugar.  Ice cream, pizza, wings...ugghhh.  I feel nasty & bloated.

I'm so angry with myself,  I've come this far & have really remained pretty under control, watching what I eat & exercising, now it seems like I going off the deep end.  Anyone experience this as they get closer to surgery?
I'm going on my treadmill tonight and going to start tomorrow watching what I eat, and hopefully next Monday join WW again.  GRRRRR, so annoyed with myself.

I'm nowhere near waiting for a date so I can't comment personally but I know I have seen others post similar statements on other forums. Hang in there!

 seriously the past week I've thought of all the foods I've wanted to eat  with my liquid diet fast approaching and when I've gone to eat them I totally lost my appetite, I think our minds can play tricks in us hang in there change is coming and it will be fabulous, with anything there will be struggles along the way , think of the past week. As a bump in the road.

Thanks ladies...I definately need a change in my mind set.  Tonight I
went on the treadmill for 30 min, which mad me feel a little better.
Guess I'll start fresh tomorrow.

I know exactly how you are feeling and I wish a person could bottle that fat, bloated feeling and take a shot before you start the gastric abuse!!!!!  If I had a dollar for everytime "I wish I hadn't eaten that" - I could have paid for a Mexico trip twice over - lol. 

For me (after much self examination), I know I will miss the actual "high" I get from the inital binge - the first bite of cheesy meat pizza, the gooey part of the cheesecake, the salty, buttered popcorn, the messy finger lickin chili cheese fries....... you all know that feeling (or it may just me who will literally stop breathing and close my eyes to savor those first bites.... haha) I am slowly making my peace with this problem but I am sure that it will give me some "head hunger" post surgery.  I think part of my psyche is in panic mode, the part that loves that stuff (the food "high")  and never wants it to go.  This may be the only good thing about having such a long wait - the "sorting out" of our food feelings - I think it is quite a process and these little "food crisis" are normal.  Just get back on track (which you have) and do your best.   

NGD

 I think it's normal Lindsay and we all experience the same thing in some way.  I think I lost the same 5 pounds about 10 times pre op!  What I can tell you is that for me once I started the liquid diet and the whole surreal experience started to become more real I found my mind and my resolve to change became more clear and focused.  Don't waste time beating yourself up over it, each new day comes with the opportunity to do better if you let yourself move forward.  This is the perfect time to treat yourself to some great new, fresh fruit and vegetables.  Market gardens will be open soon and I can't wait to taste a fresh cuke or tomato.  Maybe try to find some new healthy and interesting recipes! You're over the first hurdle, you recognize the problem and want to change it.  You got this! 

I ate everything I thought I would have to give up.  Chicken wings, Pizza, candy, cakes, burger king, more burger king, ribs, huge arse plates of pasta.  I think we all go through it to some extent.  

"huge arse" - LOL!!