One Year

Today is 1 year for me. I have lost 90lbs since surgery. Ironically without realizing it, I start my diet tomorrow. I have another 40lbs to go. I will do it. It has been harder than I thought it would be to stay on the program. I feel like I have been failing. I eat too much and all the wrong things. I sure wish I couldn't handle sugar. I have found that my biggest addiction is food. I am disappointed that certain aspects of this surgery didn`t work for me (restrictions). I will get down to my goal weight but I also know I will still struggle with my weight for the rest of my life. I am going to be joining TOPS so that I can go to a weekly support group. I really think that I need the accountability.

I wish everyone continued success in their journey.


Mich

 WOW 90 lbs in one year that is Wonderful, Well done!!  

I don't believe you should be so disappointed in yourself after all it is 90 lbs. I don't recall the last time I lost that amount in a year and kept it off. We all do things and get in our own way from time to time. You are willing to change it, so that means you've come a long way from the person you used to be. Take a Bow & Give yourself a Hug you earned it     

Firstly - you are doing great.  Think back to pre-surgery days and what a loss of 90lbs would be.  almost frickin impossible!! (for me anyway).  Don't sell yourself or the surgery short, you've had to work hard and will have to continue to do so which brings me to my second point - THANK YOU for posting the truth.   I think some people go into this thinking it is a magic solution and they will effortless lose everything, get free plastics and look like a superstar.  I don't know how many posts I've read (not here) about people who didn't realize how hard it would be or what they would be left with afterward (flabby skin, thinner hair, lifelong commitment, etc. )  We value your opinion as you have been on this site religously and many have met you personally and we are all still and will always be cheering you on!  You can do it Michelle!!!!

NGD 

Thanks you two. I have been feeling a bit down lately. I don't do January's too gracefully. I really hate winter. I had a really ****ty experience last weekend as well that has brought me down.  Then, yesterday, I realized it had been one year since my surgery. There have been many positive aspects (diabetes in remission, being able to walk more than a 1/2 block), but I did figure I would be farther into my weight loss than I am. I did loose a lot of hair (had to get a short hair cut), I have horrible saggy skin in my abdominal & upper thigh areas and I have lost a good friend this year (still don't understand that one) and I am having problems with another.  I have also been struggling with personal addictions - food, tobacco and and lately alcohol.

BUT...

...today is a new day and a new start. Time to smarten up. I am going to loose this extra 40lbs and qualify for plastic. I have great benefits at work and they will cover 80% of medically necessary plastics. I have already talked to both Dr. Andrews and my personal doctor and they both will vouch that it is necessary. I want to go next January or February. It would definitely break up the winter for me.
 
I am sorry for *****ing. I really try not to on here but sometimes there is no other place to vent without feeling like I am being censored. 

I have just made an appointment with my dietician. I will do this :D


Mich

You are not *****ing, your telling it like it is, that's one of the things I like about you Michelle. We all have our struggles.
Thanks for sharing

Shannon

Honey don't be so hard on yourself.  You have done an amazing job.  I reiterate the statement of 90 lbs is a huge achievement.  We all potentially have the less restriction issue.  We should have the mental restriction attitude, instead of thinking that the surgery is the be all end all. It is a too, and ultimately we need to find away around the addiction.  l You have recognized this and I believe that you will succeed.  Heres to a new day my friend.  Keep positive! 

Thanks Sherry.

 First congrats!..90 lbs is a sucess! That took work , lots of work.

Be proud of that fact. You are getting healthier all the time.

And more so, be proud of who you are. 

I beleive many of us have the addiction to food. I know I do..I will have to go to a support group after,

or councllihng to help me with my.."it's not what your eating, but what's eating you" self.

Alot might be habit now, time for a change in what to do..take up something soothing to do.

I have not got my date yet, but I have done all required, just waiting for the call. I know, 

once I have the surgery..there will still be things to work for myself. I wish there was something for
the addiction, but, that takes more than surgery. 

Please try not to be so hard on yourself. Hell, this is hard work to do!!. 

Be proud..maybe start a dairy of emotions for you, and your eating to help you out.































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YAY!!! one year - 90lbs!! Thats friggen awesome stuffs girl!! Seriously, keep at it. I feel the same way as you, eat too much, eat wrong things. Food addiction is SO FREAKIN' COMPLICATED!!! We need food to live, but man.....I hear ya! I went back to eating my food out of smalls bowls and plates and I measured/weighed it for a week to remind me what I need. I think you are still doing awesome and your honesty is refreshing...even in this dang cold weather!

Keep on keeping on girl!! You're entirely worth it!....now I'm going to get my sorry, jiggly butt on the bike!

Peace!!
Koko

I sure wish there  was a "like" button. Thanks to all of you for your kind words. It means a lot.