I don't know about you, but........
either you and i are two peas in a pod or this is normal. i have been having these anxieties as well. after almost a 2 month stall it finally broke this weekend. i was convinced i would be 204 for the rest of my life and i was mentally starting to give up, figured what the hell, if this surgery fails me (or better yet, if i fail this surgery), thats all i have left, i might as well go back to being fat and at least happy with my food.
i went to my therpist yesterday and discussed my relationship with food and realized my food problem was much more of a problem than i ever thought it was. when you're fat you get so used to thinking fat, planning your life around being fat, having excuses on hand to defend your fatness. i too have failed at every diet. if i even lost any weight with them, they weight always came back, because i didnt choose to do these diets for the rest of my life. surgery, is a choice we all made for the rest of our lives, so theres no need to go back without a fair amount of effort on our part to make ourselves fail.
my dr put me on an anti anxiety med for this. he said that for women especially some of the emotions that go along with wls can be compared to pms, menopause or pregnancy hormones. some women dont have that high of emotions, some do, i definitely do.
i fear every time i put something in my mouth if im going to mess up.
but i try to convince myself, im no longer that fat girl. im now that healthier girl...
you are too.
good luck sweetie you're not alone!!!
Just keep sticking with the plan - we can do this!
First 5K race October 4, 2009 (34.59) PR 5/22/11 (27:26)
First 5 Mile: January 1, 2011 (50:30)
First 10K: July 4, 2010 (1:03.26) New PR 4/10/11 (1:01.14)
First 10 Mile: April 11, 2010 (1:46.15)
First 1/2 marathon: June 13, 2010 (2:22.21) PR: 5/1/11 (2:17.30)
First Marathon: October 16, 2011: 5:47:20
Goofy Challenge: January 7-8, 2012
If you think you can, you can. If you think you can't, you're right. - Mary Kay Ash
I've been having crackers alot with peanut butter mostly as a snack and It's stressing me out thinking I'm eating the carbs.... I don't eat the whole sleeve like I used to...lol And when I want to take a bite of something that isn't bad I start to freak thinking I'm gonna gain it back........
I have to just tell myself that if I keep my portion control in check then I should be fine and still be able to enjoy those little bad moments...
YOUR NOT ALONE.....