Soon to be BOB and scared

Thanks...not really, no one believed me when I told them I was sick after the bypass until I wound up unable to keep anything down...my gallbladder was so badly rotten it took longer to remove than the bypass....no one believed me when I told them I was in pain so when they found the hernia it was a 7 hour surgery where they stitched the hole which blew open again and this time my organs adhered to my lungs so there was a 9 hour surgery to put in a gortex patch...now I've gained back 100 lbs and they won't do the band over by pass bc of the adhesions and I don't know what I'm going to do...