When's my bandiversary?...and other conundrums.

Oh F! I was thinking I might have forgot my 2nd bandiversary.  I still can't remember, but it's this month, I think.  That's about how into it I am these days. 

I did get my gym membership back and my challenges are met with my girls on facebook, you know who you are!

I am eating way too much food and I've gotten good at being patient enough to eat around the band.  That being said, I'm not totally flailing out of control.  I plated my food today.  Over 2300 calories!  Geesh!  It should be more like 1200 or so.  EEEEK!  So I feel like a total loser, but I hit the gym and burned off 582 of those mistakes. 

Not to excuse my behavior but I was trying to figure out why I feel the need to clean my plate and eat more than what is in sight and a LIGHT came on.  Aunt Flo is around the corner.  Oh what a blessing.  Pre-surgery, she only showed up a couple times a year thanks to PCOS.  Now that I am a healthier 211 lbs (yes I'm up if you're looking at the ticker) she comes regularly.  Argh.  So I hope this is quick and dare I say painless?!  This eating stuff has to stop.

I will say that before I was on this bandwagon, pre-flo I would be gorging on 5,000 calories or more, so let's just chalk this one up in the WIN column (DUH!).  But damn those Entenmann's people.  Maybe I should try to get a job there just so I won't drool on myself everytime I see a box!
 
I keep hoping I'll find the right balance between crazy healthy and out of control.  There is an in between right?!  I'm going to toally stop stressing about this and just start keeping track, if nothing else, I can't eat very much while I type. 

I don't know if this is helping anyone but me, but for now it's keeping my ass out of the fridge and that's what I need most.  Maybe I need to make another trip to Barnes and Noble, reading something might get my mind off pigging out.  I just have to wear blinders past DQ!

Love ya'll!

You are so funny, Melissa!!  Congrats on your flights of stairs!  PMS gets me every time, also.....no worries, we will do this!

I stand in the candy aisle at the store and pick up bags of candy... then I realize Aunt F is approaching!   I hate that I even go to the candy aisle when I'm PMSing... ugh.  

 I loved your article....Thanks for sharing!





SW 265
CW 217
GW 165

Funny!  I'm with you sista!  I'm up from my lowest and keep gaining and losing the same 10-15 lbs!  I'm pretty sick of this and want to get to goal at least once in my lifetime, but at the same time, I'm the one buying the sweets and chips! 
I just keep working on identifying what emotion is really driving my poor food choices and it helps when I stop long enough to figure it out BEFORE I go to the fridge or pantry!
I feel burned out on a lot of the foods that helped me lose 100+ lbs and in my effort to find new things I've added back some things, (like processed foods, breaded fish and/or chicken,etc.).  Time to rein it in and start cooking again!  I better pull out those awesome cookbooks that some OH sweetie sent me for last year's gift exchange!

It's a process and we CAN do this.  Come back more often!  We need your humor !!  Bettes blogging and many are abandoning us because of recent negativity on this forum.  I won't let the negative nellies scare me away but we need more of the experience bandsters to help motivate the newbies!  Reality is A O.k. by me, but I hate the name calling and bashing. 

Anyway, good to see you post!

Hang in there and NEVER give up!

Lisa O.

So good to see you on here, Melissa!  You always make me laugh!

And as for Aunt Flo.... she always sends me straight for the Chex Mix.  That stuff is pure evil in a bag. 

Hey Melisa! We are band twins remember! July 23rd! I counted the days mins and seconds to that day. I was so desperate for a change for a little push. And I sure got it!

We all have those days but like you said maybe we need to come here more often again. One of the reasons I got the band is so that I could have ice cream in moderation and not get sick from eating it! I catch myself slowing down and eating around the band too sometimes but I've tried to take control of that and when I slow down I look at my plate and think do I really need to finish this? I still get GREAT enjoyment of throwing away food (esp bad foods) because I've had enough. Its almost as good as eating it all

I'm new to all of this, so I know I don't have a lot of "street-cred", so to speak. But I read that one bandster carried around those little gladware containers of the portion that she could eat (maybe it was a cup). Anyway, she filled up that portion and then she was cool. She didn't have to face the clean the plate compulsions that some of us have.

I have been measuring everything and that's all there is. I am tempted to eat of my husband's plate, but he stabs me with the fork - just kidding

I don't know if that would hel*****t for you? maybe worth a try?

I had to have an emergency hysterectomy in March (so nice!!!) but I swear I still have PMS sometimes (still have my ovaries, so I still have the hormones). Although it's not as bad. I wonder if there's a low cal alternative for that time. SF pudding? Artic Zone has a chocolate frozen dessert with protien that's supposed to be tasty.  I know it's not the same, but maybe it's close enough. Aunt-Flo is a tough one!!!

Good luck!