FED UP!!!!!

Woah spell check...
what I meant to say was... I agree, everyone needs to know....

Oh my gosh stay away from that stuff its bad bad and bad lol.   And the worse thing is it goes right through my band so I never get full from it. I can eat it and eat it . *sigh*.

They have a little country store up the road from me and they bring in all these Amish things and kettle corn is one of them .

They make the best dang salads and when I go in there that kettle corn is saying Derinda come and buy me come buy me and what do I do ? I buy it lmao I need to stay away from that place when its period time no salads from there during this time . Its a evil place I'm telling you :o)

and that dang store is right beside my Curves I go to two times  a week . I just need to close my eyes from now now when I walk past it

  They're evil!!!!  Ironic how yummy food places are near gyms and work out places no????  Its a conspiracy I tell ya!!!!!!

Derinda... you are doing so fantastic on the lap band though.  Holy Cow... like 60 pounds lost and NO FILL????!!!  How is that possible!!!?????  You are rocking your band I must say.  I know we are all fighting to lose the weight but you seem to be doing it wonderfully! 

Take care... btw... I'm very nervous that the NFL season wont start on time.  CANT WE ALL JUST GET ALONG???  Damn NFL team owners!  SUCK IT UP... they're going to lose more $$$ if they keep it up!

Im so ready for some NY GIANTS football!!!


Jan

Oh gosh thank you Jan :o)

I think there are several factors playing into why I haven't gotten a fill yet  could I use one maybe on some days and then others no .

My parents gave me 10 grand to do this surgery and then my husband who was against WLS to begin with especially after he saw what happened to my Aunt and my best friend and their marriage he was totally against . He knew how important it was to me and how unhappy I was becoming so he drained our bank account and took a loan out for the rest .

I am doing this for me dont get me wrong or I would have never had it done, but that puts alot of weight so to speak on my shoulders also not to fail doing this also .  My parents and my husband went  way out of their ways to make this happen and for me to let them down is just not a option. I have eyes watching me at all times . I cant fail.

Plus like I said we paid cash for this I dont have another 20 grand to go back into the hospital if I screw this up and I dont have insurance to fall back on either so being self pay I watch myself alot.  If you know overeating could make a band slip then why do it ? That is my biggest fear right there is overeating to much or getting back to my old ways and that happening. So its best just not to do it .

I think another big thing is I was so mentally ready when I  had this done.  I went into the surgery knowing I can only eat so much and I have to exercise and that has been so set in my mind .

I tried to explain this to my doc .  I use my band as  mental thing like people get the fills and use that .  When you get a fill it gets into your head that you dont need to eat that much you play mind games with yourself if that makes sense ?? I do that same thing with my band alone I just dont get the fills .  Right now I got that head game going  big time it's just working for me right now . Will it always work ? I dont know maybe when I get further out from my surgery date then it will be the time to get a fill and start the head games all over again :o)

I think deep down and this will probably sound stupid and silly lol. I dont want to become to dependent on the band !!.  We all know what can  happen to the band we have seen it on the boards, we have heard it from our docs.  Nothing is 100% sure on this band .   The more I can do on my own without relying to much on this band then if something does happen to the band then not having it in me wont be that much of a shock  because I would have never felt that tight restriction on me and not being able to eat certain foods and wont be that big of deal to me because I could always eat them foods, I just learned how to eat them . Does any of that make sense ?? lol.

I guess what I really wanted from the band was never to restrict me from foods or have that tight of a restriction  I just wanted to learn how to eat right and how to eat a normal healthy portion meal that is what I wanted from the band.

I know I will probably lose a little slower this way, but that is okay also because in the long run I'm learning such more valuable lessons that will always be with me , even if my band isn't with me :o)

But honestly Jan I still can go a good three hrs of not wanting to eat being physically hunger that is . Head hunger I have my days where it's all about that but that is something even with fills in you wont take away that something we have to deal with not the band or fills :o)


Like I said before I pd 20 grand for this baby, and if it does come time for a fill I will get one , I dont want to waste 20 grand and I want use the band to it's full potential but I also want to do some of this on my own to and not have to rely so much on the fills and become to dependent on them fills because Jan that scares the hell out of me. I have seen with my own eyes what that does to a person and I dont want to become that type of person.

I kicked smoking 2 packs a day just to get this band done , and honestly Jan quitting the smoking was harder and rougher then trying to quit eating so much.  If I can do what I did with the smokes then I can do anything because that was a ***** and I dont ever want to go through that again .

I have learned so much about myself doing it this way I'm very proud of it , and what I have learned :o)  I guess it makes me feel stronger and more confident . I always knew what I had to do , I have done it before I just needed that reminder in me 24hrs a day saying hey you , you dont need to make a pig of yourself . Sit back and enjoy your food there will be more of that later .

But I know someday it will come a time for a fill and then maybe again just having the band around me is all I needed.   When I first talked to my doc he said that I would do extremely well with the band so far he is right lol.

And I hope people dont think I'm knocking people that get fills, I'm not because one day I might be there also, but just for now my mental thing is helping me right now and I would rather use that as much as I can :o)

As far as football I'm ready to pull my hair out lol.  I just read  on yahoo news they are thinking it might only be a 8 game season *sigh*.  I'm so looking forward to my football.  I am hoping to get to a Steelers game this season but I have a feeling with only 8 games tickets are going to be sky high :o( .

I think both sides are being greedy. If a football player cant live off 300,000 to 2 million a yr there is some problems. they need to stop buying all them toys and them 50,000 dollar stud earrings and put some money back into savings .  Hubby and I argue about this all the time lmao.

LMAO!!!  I too would like to dedicate my "Can't we all just get along?" to the NFL owners & commish rather than the anti-bandsters!!  That is what is really important here.  HAHAAAA!! 

Go Chargers (Derinda and Bubbles y'all have your Superbowl rings...can't I just get ONE after being a fan for 36 flippin' YEARS?)!!!  I am so sick of the "almost" Chargers.  LOL

OMG Lisa if my hubby found out you are a Chargers fan he would fall in love with you lol.  He grew up in San Diego and has always been a Chargers fan die hard and my son had to follow in his footsteps :o( lol.

We always always go to the Charger games when they play the Steelers.  A couple yrs ago when they was playing the Steelers at Heinz Field hubby surprised me with freaking front row tickets on the 50 yrd line right behind the Chargers.   Now LT was playing with them then and his butt looks good on TV you should see his butt in person oh my ,  and Hines Ward dang they got cute butts lmao especially in them tight uniforms .

For Christmas last yr I got hubby and son tickets for them to go to the Bengals stadium to see the Chargers. I stayed home had no desire to go.  If I would have went I would have worn my Steeler gear just to tick off the Bengals since we are division rivals lol.  And then the Bengals won that game   What the hell  Hubby was so mad lol.

So I know as much about the Charges as my Steelers and watch all their games .  Hubby is a good sport though he takes me to the Steeler games every yr and watches my games. Love that man :o)

If the Steelers dont make the playoffs I always hope the Chargers do well :o)  Its my second favorite team in the NFL.

Im counting the days till Tom Brady leaves oh I hate that team with a passion yuck lol bunch of cheaters lol

EW I hate the Patriots (and the Cowboys too )!!!!!  That's awesome that hubby is a Bolts fan...what-whaaaaaat!!  It's always bittersweet.  We have spurts of doing well and then always bite the bullet in the playoffs when it counts. That's where Pittsburgh is clutch - constantly in the offseason, its do or die - they never choke!  What's even more funny is that my Dad is a lifelong die-hard Steeler fan (grew up in PA) and MY second fave team has always been the Steelers.  My house growing up was decked out in black and yellow girl!!!

Oooooweeeee tight butts drive me nuts!  I have season tickets and always get the best view of the player's hineys.  I love football SO much and this is just an added bonus (hey, the dudes get to look at the cheerleaders, right?  HAHAA).  I have had the biggest crush on Polumalu and Ward for the longest.  On the Chargers' squad...OMG I am head over heels for VINCENT JACKSON.  That boy is too fine for his own good.  I love them tall, dark (even though he's light-skinned lol) and handsome. Put a pigskin in their hands and its OVER.  GUH.

I'm glad there are some lady fanatics on the board so we can discuss football come September (I even have a spot left on my fantasy football league too if you are interested!).  Provided there IS a season, that is.  I am also a college football fan (Oregon Ducks!) so at least I'll have that if the NFL thing doesn't work out.

:)

OH gosh a hot blonde, a football fan, a Chargers fan to boot and a season ticket holder , will have to hold hubby back *wink*.

I always tell hubby if I could find somebody with season tickets for the Steelers I would marry that guy and use hubby for the great sex lmao.   Sorry everybody just football humor lol.  Well maybe use the other guy hubby just got me a new boat tough decision there lol.


This is so funny how we both like the same teams.   We would be season ticket holders to if we lived in San Diego  I would even go to the games but still a Steeler fan lol.

I have one room that is decked in black and gold or a good part of it is .  You can tell Im a Steelers fan lol.

I wish I could get season tickets for the Steelers but there is 25 yr waiting list to get tickets just nobody sells them off because the Steelers are so popular. 

Now as much as I love football Im just not into college football.  Gosh with me living in Ohio you would think i would be a huge Ohio State Fan but I could care less lol drives my family and friends bonkers that I dont like college but love the NFL.

I have never played in a fantasy league before I would have no idea what to do lol.  But I will check it out and see if its something I would like to do though :o)

Im glad we got some football fans on here to .  Talking about something besides the band all the time would be very cool :o)

 OMG!!!!  you literally made me lol!  you're too much about their butts!!!  Have to say i'm with Jan--Giants all the way.  Where i live it's mainly Eagles (blah!)

Anyway it sounds like the kettle corn is your version of crack!

lol when we went to that Chargers game hubby asked me if I needed a bib lmao.  Hines Ward bent over right in front of me I thought I had died and gone to heaven and then he was on Dancing with The Stars and shaking them hips .  Hubby asked me if I needed a cold shower lmao.

Has you can see Hines is my favorite player. I dont get into owning jerseys mainly for their price but I do have three authenics of Hines though . Hubby gets them for me Christmas .  I have the Whites, the blacks , and the throwback jersey .  Gosh They are probably to big on me now since I have lost weight .  Oh well cant get rid of them will just have to wear them baggy lol.

I dont mind the Eagles.  Michael Vick is amazing to watch on the field. Dont condone what he did off the field but that is one talented person .

Kettle Corn it has been calling my name all night but I have been good I ha vent had none today lol.  Usually, I never eat as much as I have this week but its salty and sweet at the same time and a works perfect for them cravings for that TOM lol.  Dang a little to perfect it seems lol. OOPS 

.  Hubby was going to eat the rest of it and I about came unglued and told him no lmao.

I'm telling you girls the J E T S is the team to watch this yr .  Their coach is the best defensive mind coach around well exepct for ours :o) Nobody can top our defensive coach.  lol