That's it... I'm taking my life back
I'm in a slump. It's a no-job waiting-for-paperwork no-exercise too-much-crappy-food slump.
Here's my situation and yes, I am venting. I need you all more than ever. You know me. I'm a happy-go-lucky gal, but even the happiest of girls have their breaking point.
I've been in Korea for one year and two months. That's 2 months longer than I planned, but I happened to meet the love of my frickin' life here, so what's a gal to do? Now we're waiting for paperwork to process so we can BOTH go to America. With that said... I'm stuck here. I can't legally work (tourist visa) and I don't know when I can go home. I'm a workin' gal. I love to work. So as the days pass by, my craziness increases.
I should take this time to exercise, better myself... but instead I'm in a depressed slump full of lousy naps and whining. It's pathetic.
Starting this morning, I decided to take my life back from my enemy -- me.
I have made a promise to myself to:
-Stop eating stuff that makes me PB. Start eating like a bandster again!
-Start exercising - gym, walks, more sex... whatever it takes
-Do something to improve my life every day - read a book, learn a language, take the foster pup outside to play, etc.
-Stop feeling lonely. Yes I'm thousands of miles away from family (and a sister who has gone off the deep end and hasn't talked to me in over 4 months), friends and my WLS support groups. But... I can go on OH, post on YouTube and my blog and find support here. And hell, I have a wonderful husband!
I am almost 3 years out from surgery and I am NOT about to give up. I feel myself getting into a not-so-comfortable sluggishness and it stops now.
Goodbye:
Back to happy crazy me:
Here's my situation and yes, I am venting. I need you all more than ever. You know me. I'm a happy-go-lucky gal, but even the happiest of girls have their breaking point.
I've been in Korea for one year and two months. That's 2 months longer than I planned, but I happened to meet the love of my frickin' life here, so what's a gal to do? Now we're waiting for paperwork to process so we can BOTH go to America. With that said... I'm stuck here. I can't legally work (tourist visa) and I don't know when I can go home. I'm a workin' gal. I love to work. So as the days pass by, my craziness increases.
I should take this time to exercise, better myself... but instead I'm in a depressed slump full of lousy naps and whining. It's pathetic.
Starting this morning, I decided to take my life back from my enemy -- me.
I have made a promise to myself to:
-Stop eating stuff that makes me PB. Start eating like a bandster again!
-Start exercising - gym, walks, more sex... whatever it takes
-Do something to improve my life every day - read a book, learn a language, take the foster pup outside to play, etc.
-Stop feeling lonely. Yes I'm thousands of miles away from family (and a sister who has gone off the deep end and hasn't talked to me in over 4 months), friends and my WLS support groups. But... I can go on OH, post on YouTube and my blog and find support here. And hell, I have a wonderful husband!
I am almost 3 years out from surgery and I am NOT about to give up. I feel myself getting into a not-so-comfortable sluggishness and it stops now.
Goodbye:
Back to happy crazy me:
Good for you! Can you volunteer? Find a bunch of kids and help them learn to read better? Help older folks with chores? Start a garden? You are a very creative person so I know you will find something to occupy you. Congratulations on the new love and finding your strength. You will be fine.
Highest weight: 212.8 Current weight 135 Lost 77.8 pounds
That's what I'm thinking I might do. I am also searching out a LapBand clinic here so I can participate somehow.
Read Eat, Pray Love and you might feel better about your wait :-) Wishing you loads of positivity and encouragement!
5.0 cc in a 10cc lapband (four fills) 1 unfill of .5cc on 5/24/2011.
.5 fill March 2012. unfill of .25cc May 2012. Unfill of .5cc June 2014.
Still with my lapband with no plans for revision. Band working well since
last small unfill.
HW: 267lbs- size 22-24 LW:194lbs CW:198lbs Size 14-16
Elena,
I'm sorry you're struggling, but happy to see that you realize that happy crazy Elena is still in there somewhere.
What's the pup's name? Does he/she like to go for walks?
Jean
I'm sorry you're struggling, but happy to see that you realize that happy crazy Elena is still in there somewhere.
What's the pup's name? Does he/she like to go for walks?
Jean
Jean McMillan c.2009-2013 - Always a bandster at heart
author of Bandwagon (TM), Strategies for Success with the Adjustable Gastric Band & Bandwagon Cookery. Bandwagon for Kindle now available on Amazon. Read my blog at: jean-onthebandwagon.blogspot.com
Her name is/was Alpya, but I call her Muffin. I got her because I am going insane here from boredom. I never thought I'd be so crazy without a job.
She does like to walk, so I am trying to do that every day.
She does like to walk, so I am trying to do that every day.
I COMPLETELY understand. we just have to do what we need to do.
Get out there and enjoy life Elena. Find your bulgogi, go hiking up the mountain.
It's spring and nows the time to shed the slump. You can do it. Find it in yourself.
Get out there and enjoy life Elena. Find your bulgogi, go hiking up the mountain.
It's spring and nows the time to shed the slump. You can do it. Find it in yourself.
Tiff
Current MD- Dr. Mikami, Honolulu Hawaii
Lapband 14cc AP Lg in 2008- slipped and removed 2016 -VSG July 21, 2016-dx Gerd
** RNY Revision 05/21/2019 **
"A few drops of hope can water and nourish our garden" - Jean M
you are in Korea.. motherland of taekwondo... if you need an excercise program that will both get your body in gear as well as your mind ..i highly recommend it and I would kill for an opportunity to be in Korea for a few months to train there.... I took a few years off to be lazy drink eat and get fat ...10 to be exact.. don't know why exactly .... but now that I'm back with it (taekwondo/muay thai) I don't know why I ever left.. hope everything works out well for you
Elena-
I think we all go thru slumps...I know I did! One day I woke up with the same reality...what am I doing? I've worked way to hard to do (or should I say not do) this. So I had to scrape my poor pitiful lazy self up off the couch, away from the computer and tv...and get seriously moving at the gym again, along with putting that horrible food diary back up on my fridge (uggh). The first week was torturous...lol. The second week, I started feeling like me again...my energy was back, along with lots more smiling...and I've dropped over 12#s in 6 weeks.
I'm so happy that you have found the love of your life!!! It's really hard to be away from your family and when you are a career woman, hard not to have a job! You have a great personality and could really do some great things while you are there...I agree with the suggestion about volunteering with children or elderly...they would love you.
I love your pic with the helmet!
Sherie
I think we all go thru slumps...I know I did! One day I woke up with the same reality...what am I doing? I've worked way to hard to do (or should I say not do) this. So I had to scrape my poor pitiful lazy self up off the couch, away from the computer and tv...and get seriously moving at the gym again, along with putting that horrible food diary back up on my fridge (uggh). The first week was torturous...lol. The second week, I started feeling like me again...my energy was back, along with lots more smiling...and I've dropped over 12#s in 6 weeks.
I'm so happy that you have found the love of your life!!! It's really hard to be away from your family and when you are a career woman, hard not to have a job! You have a great personality and could really do some great things while you are there...I agree with the suggestion about volunteering with children or elderly...they would love you.
I love your pic with the helmet!
Sherie
I was totally surprised how crazy unemployment made me! I thought I'd love a life of leisure, but not so! I found that volunteering was helpful. I tried a few places. Some hospitals like to have volunteers to help rock babies in the NICU. (Not sure if it would be possible if you're on a visa or not.) It's very moving and really puts life into perspective!!!!!!!
2nd idea: if I can be self centered, I have a project in mind too. I have been really wanting to get "a day in the life" kind of experience of seeing how one lives with the band. It might be too ambitious, or maybe too personal, but I thought I'd love to "shadow" a successful bander and see if it was a lifestyle I could manage.
Whatever you chose to do with your time, I hope you will find fulfillment and joy!
2nd idea: if I can be self centered, I have a project in mind too. I have been really wanting to get "a day in the life" kind of experience of seeing how one lives with the band. It might be too ambitious, or maybe too personal, but I thought I'd love to "shadow" a successful bander and see if it was a lifestyle I could manage.
Whatever you chose to do with your time, I hope you will find fulfillment and joy!
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