Skinny??? Are you talking to me???
I wish for one day I could take off my Body Dysmorphia mental glasses and see how I REALLY look. After 100 lbs lost I still see myself as fat.
The other day at work we all brought in a dish to do a birthday lunch for two coworkers, so I had a huge rubbermaid container with vegetables and cous cous in it and I was heating it up in the little kitchen where everyone heats their lunch. I took it out to stir and another employee was in there and I said "I swear this is not my lunch, its meant for 8 people" LOL and she says "I didn't think so and if it was, I would have to hate you bc you are too skinny to be able to eat all that and get away with it."
The girl was like a size 4 herself, I was shocked she would see me as thin. I am a size 8 and still 20.5 lbs from goal, so in my head still big bc I am considered overweight.
I know this is a common feeling amongst us post ops. I am almost 7 yrs post op, I wonder if I will ever be able to look at myself and think I look thin.
The other day at work we all brought in a dish to do a birthday lunch for two coworkers, so I had a huge rubbermaid container with vegetables and cous cous in it and I was heating it up in the little kitchen where everyone heats their lunch. I took it out to stir and another employee was in there and I said "I swear this is not my lunch, its meant for 8 people" LOL and she says "I didn't think so and if it was, I would have to hate you bc you are too skinny to be able to eat all that and get away with it."
The girl was like a size 4 herself, I was shocked she would see me as thin. I am a size 8 and still 20.5 lbs from goal, so in my head still big bc I am considered overweight.
I know this is a common feeling amongst us post ops. I am almost 7 yrs post op, I wonder if I will ever be able to look at myself and think I look thin.
Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who said it, no matter if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense. - Buddha
I know how you feel Heather, I am 5+ years out and I still don't think of me as being skinny.
Just this morning one of our cleaning ladies asked me why I had no stomach???? I was like what, I do have a stomach and she said "no you don't, what did you do to get rid of your stomach?"
I was just floored because when I turn sideways in the bed my damn stomach hangs over and I hate, hate that!!!
You have done a wonderful job and look fantastic, keep up the good work!!
I wonder the same thing myself. Someone here told me I was going to "blow away" when it was really windy out...WTH? He couldn't be talking to me...yet, he was.
I had another situation where I put on a pair of jeans and was looking in the mirror and my mom was with me and I said I thought I looked really wide in the jeans - and my mom says "yeah, I'm sure they make a size 6 WIDE....you are never going to see what you really look like!"...and it hit me - she's right - how ridiculous that is that I think I'm so wide yet I'm wearing size 6 - something is seriously wrong with me, LOL.
I had another situation where I put on a pair of jeans and was looking in the mirror and my mom was with me and I said I thought I looked really wide in the jeans - and my mom says "yeah, I'm sure they make a size 6 WIDE....you are never going to see what you really look like!"...and it hit me - she's right - how ridiculous that is that I think I'm so wide yet I'm wearing size 6 - something is seriously wrong with me, LOL.