My empty band

Well its been a month and the scale has tipped up some...I made some bad choices and take blame for every ounce..then one day I was working in the pool and Nichole  (lifeguard) says You have been working even more than usual these last few weeks, I KNOW you're not trying to lose more weight right?   (I wanted to glare a hole through her) Could she not see the globs of fat that had found their way back to my body? Was it not obvious by the ever returning of my backside that I was failing alone without my band? That probably before they could get one fill in me I would be back to my original fat girl status?  I mean the fat girl has found a way out right now...and its very hard to stop her sometimes...

But then I was Swoosh when I answered, I'm just trying to be careful, I don't want to gain it all back.  

Gain it all back? You could gain 20 lbs and still look on the too thin side, besides you were one of the smart ones you got that band thing, you are gonna do great.

I laughed and kept working...I know she was being nice....but it did make me feel better and her last statement about being one of the smart ones and getting the band made me think....It was the best option for me.  Lets be honest...okay I lost about 50 before the band...would I have kept it off? would I have EVER been able to reach this goal level? I doubt it.  Its okay that the band helped me, its like she said.....it was the smart thing to do :) 

My empty band and I go to get a fill in a week.  Until then there will be a bit of a battle between the fat girl and I..and she is talking junk...bringing her friend...Ms. PMS....  HMMF  (Don't get cranky but do crave things)

Guess I am rambling..but sometimes it helps to write it down :)

just keep swimming
Swoosh

 Thanks your post made the fat guy inside me scared to come out and the banded guy I am smile. Keep up the GREAT work and thanks for sharing your thoughts, they help us all..
God Bless

Sometimes we have to pull the fat girl or boy out and give them a firm talking to  :) Thank you for your kind words  :)

Just keep swimming,
Swoosh :)

 you look fantastic!  congrats on your success...I just got my band 3/23.  So i'm still sore and thinking maybe i was stupid in getting it, maybe I should have tried 1 more diet, why did I put myself and my body through this pain.  But I am hoping and praying that i a couple of days/weeks I will see why I put myself through this...

Best of luck and congrats again!

I promise you will be feeling totally different in a couple days. I got my band 3-8-11 and within 1 week was feeling 100%. I am so glad I did this even though I know it's still a long road to go, I didn't eat 390 pounds of food overnight

that is very good to know John.  I hope so..i am very much looking forward to not having the gas pains, incision pains, etc...  I am due to go back to work on Monday, but I'm not sure how that will work.  I don't know if I am going to feel completely up to it?  what are your thoughts?  when did you go back?

 Your gonna hate me for this but I was back to work 2 days after surgery, I refused to let that gas get to me so I walked until my calf's hurt.. I was very Blessed as I never had to use any pain meds even in the hospital after surgery. I think I want to remember why I went through this and know that no pain no gain is true. You'll be OK, I'm sure of it.. Any questions or problems just ask, if I can't help I know people who can and are glad to. I had to call some of the AWESOME people here on OH to get my mind straight and get a better understanding of what I was in for.. You can always call me if you want, just message me and I'll send you the # ..

No way I don't hate you for saying that at all, I'm glad that I'm not the only one wanting to go back to work so soon after surgery.  Thank you and I will make sure if I have questions to let you know!  Thanks again!!

HANG IN THERE... The first bit was full of doubt for me too... take some pics, go for a walk... and most importantly....

JUST KEEP SWIMMING :)  I don't mean in the pool.... I mean.. .just like Dori.... JUST KEEP GOING...its gonna get better...one yr from today you will look back on today and think WOW...they really knew what they were talking about it... and lookie at me now!  :) (We will expect pics of the great new you btw :)  

Every negative thought you have just follow it with one of the following...

I can do this,
This is gonna work
The band is going to help me
I am gonna ROCK this band
My PERSONAL favorite... "Heck Swoosh did it..and if SHE can do it .... I KNOW I can do it :)

Hang in there, we are all here for you :)

Swoosh  :)

thank you both...I figured I fought to damn hard to get where I am right now..(my hubby was/is very much againest the surgery) but I fought like hell to get it.  I certainly wont give up now, but you know, sometimes its hard to see through the pain! 

thank you for your kind words!!