Panic Attack At A Party...

Over the weekend I was at my boyfriends family's home for a birthday party for his grandma. A lot of people showed up...well over 30. It was a lot of fun, busy, and everyone was really nice. I am a people person, I love talking to people and shaking hands and getting to know others....I am in Sales and I travel. Heck I am leaving for Canada this Thursday...BUT...

I panicked with all those people. I started comparing myself to others for the first time. I have lost 115 pounds...I look amazing and yet I still feel like the fat ugly one.

When I was big I was the loud one...made sure everyone knew I was there; now that I have lost all the weight it's like I have lost my confidence too? That doesn't make a bit of sense to me but that is what it feels like.

Hmmmm, that's an interesting one.  Sounds like you don't quite know this newer thinner version of you.  I know you know that comparing yourself to others, you will always come up short.  So try to catch yourself when it starts.  Remember that everyone you are comparing yourself to has things they feel insecure about too.   Let your beautiful inner self shine!   You have tons to feel proud of!!  

I completly understand! I was that way for a long time and at times I still am, I feel like I am not accepted with the cubbyies or the skinnies! It drives me crazy, and I get food anxiety to top it off, when there are too many choices and none are the right ones,I have trouble picking and making decisions about what I should eat. I always feel like people are judging what I put in my mouth.
I am pregnant now (about 7 months) and feel awful about gaining so much weight, I know I am pregnant but it is so hard right now, everyone tells me how good and glowing I look but I think they are full of it!