I am really stupid

The past is the past. Today is a new day! Don't beat yourself up! Sending you a big hug for motivation!

K

Today is your new day. Don't fret about yesterday and move on.

Do you have a plan for today? What I mean is have you pre thought out what kind of healthy foods you should be having. Perhaps even portioned them ahead of time. Do you have healthy snacks readily available and in hands reach when you go into the kitchen. And lastly, are you one who journals? I hear journaling your food really helps to keep you accountable to yourself and make you think twice about sneaking those extra calories.

keep trying... thats all we can do. Just don't give up on yourself or your tool.

no... don't be hard on yourself.
I had an issue with chocolate cake earlier this week. My sister and I celebrate my fathers birthday with cake. He has been gone now 14 years, and its really about rememberance. So after I had a very small frugal piece, and she had hers and was long gone, she was going to take the cake but didn't... Well there it sat. Not good for me. I ate another and another albeit small pieces. Finally my food demons were poking me so badly, I almost gave in. UNTIL I swiftly and adeptly dumped that whole chocolate cake right into the toilet. YUP. no going back at this point. And to further my distaste. I did not flu**** right away because it was too big. I had to go get something to break it up... I forgot about it... WEEEELLLLLL.... when I had to pee, I remembered it. It actually scared me ... it had absorbed all the water in the toilet bowl and it was huge. I had to add a pail of water to get the sucker to go down. NOW imagine that in your teeny tiny pouch. I know cake will not be an option for me

17 crackers is no biggie... just remember the toilet next time

Now that was a good share and really gave me a chuckle.  When you put it into perspective like that...hmmm 17 crackers doesn't seem quite so bad...gosh, I can't imagine having to bail out your toilet because of the cake - imagine that is how it reacts in our stomach, too, expands like that...?

LOL! Heck- I'll remember the toilet when I get down on myself..I seriously laughed out loud. FUNNY!

We all make mistakes. The best part about making a mistake is learning from it. So you admitted that wasn't the best choice for you have done & you also admit you have some type of food addiction & need help. May I offer up a great set of self help books about weightlooss & food addiction. Her name is Geneen Roth. She's been on Oprah & The Doctors. She didn't offer a "diet" because she deals with the emotional & physcological issues. She use to be obese. Here's a link to her website so you can check her out: http://www.geneenroth.com/
I read her book "When Food is Love" & it touched me greatly. That book made me decide that I was gonna take control of my eating habits & my life instead of following just the band diet & rules. It really was an I opener. After I finished the book I did her workbook "Why Weight? Ending emotional compulsive eating" and it took me 6 months to fini**** Not because I was lazy about it, but because the exercises she has you do really dig deep into your behavior & gives you much to think about & process. But doing the workbook I lost 30 lbs. She's at least checking out to see if it's something you'd be interested in. Not ever solution is a solution for everyone.

Good Luck & Blessings.

Jo - thank you so much for posting...I believe that you posted earlier in the week or last week on the books from Geneen and her workbook and how it helped you - I did not write the specific name of the book down and went to Amazon but could not find which one it was so THANK YOU!  I do so appreciate it and will go to her website and check it out - I am a big reader and will look into this to help with the mind games food has on me.  Thanks so much for your support.

 

And to everyone else who wrote, a big thank you - it is SO nice to have a place to go where we can share and KNOW that others understand.  In the "real" world we have to be careful because a lot of our friends or co-workers have problems with the weight loss and oftentimes their support is not what you really need to hear...so thanks again.

Hey there, I just went to Amazon and ordered the two books - I am so glad you wrote - I couldn't remember where to find your response from before where you indicated the books and was like, what to do?  Now, I have them both on order should have them by Monday the latest and am ready & willing to read up and see what she has to say! :)  Thanks again.

Don't be so hard on yourself..

I too agree you should not go on a liquid diet .. you lose 10 pounds then when you start eating again you might regain 4 of the 10 you lost. Its a constant YO YO of disappointment... we need to adopt the will, the paintence, and the habits to be successful long term

Yesterday I ate 4 (small) tootsie rolls, 2 mini kit kats and 2 small cinnamon girl scout cookies BOO!! I wanted it and I couldn't stop and I finally did then I took my sorry ass to the gym!! I pounded out 125 min I'm sure I made up for my mistake.

We need to not let things snowball.. okay so you slipped up at breakfast or lunch move on make a better choice at dinner.. DON'T be like oh well I ruined the day might as well go buy a bag of chips or a tub of ice cream.. because what could of been a blip of 11500-2000 cal day has now snowballed into 4000+ and it's harder to recover from that then it is from 1 meal ..

Good Luck

THanks - good for you on the gym...I am working on getting in more exercise right now, just trying to walk every day at least at lunch...it's a new day...thank God for brand new days, huh?  Appreciate your words of wisdom and I was truly eating thousands of calories a day before I had the band placed, so I know that what I am doing now is so much better than I was...