MY CONFESSION: I'm struggling

Yes!

And how did you know my O face?

 The spitting gave it away.

 Hm. Funny. I always pictured your "o" face more like this . . . 

Very true - I hope some good luck drifts your way soon. And when you find the answer to the ever elusive questions of perpetual perfection, happiness and a perfect body - pass it around. I don't know of anyone who couldn't  use just a little bit.

 Oh, if I ever find the "answer", I'll do what everyone else who "finds the answer" does: SELL IT!

BetteI have the same problem with eating around the band I put on 10 lbs after an un fill and cant seem to get back on track. but I will and so will you. Hang in there... things will get better

 You know Bette, that is what ****** me off about this whole surgery war/board crap.  This is a support board for lapband people.  You shouldn't have to feel bad about posting anything about what you're going thru with your lapband...be it good OR bad.

Those Dser's post all about their Problems...surgery complication/icu stays/iron infusions/centrals lines?smelly gas and more...and you never see a lapbander on their board giving them a hard time about their choice in surgery

****** me right the hell off.

Anyhow...just because you've done well doesn't mean you're not going to struggle...although wouldn't it be nice if it did? ..LOL

I hope you get out of your funk...maybe find a terrific job and maybe just be a little easier on yourself and realize , food is how we cope...BUT it doesn't have to be.

((hugs))

Sorry this currently is a struggle for you. Sometimes we actually forget that life can mess with success. But... your still a success because you own it. You're not walking away from what your responsible for... that's still success.

I conisder myself a food addict. I love the way food taste. I love watching food being cooked. I like the smells. I like the anticipation of eating something I know is gonna taste good. I like touch food...preparing my premeasured snacks for the week. I love thinking about all kinds of aspects of food almost on a 24/7 time table. I'm a food addict. If I didn't own it, accept it, & become responsible for it... then I'd still be obese.

Bette you have been an inspiration to me from the beginning, and that has not changed. In fact, you inspire me even more, now. We all need to know that we will never get rid of what makes us eat and as you say it can only go into remission. I have had the same struggle since before Christmas. I will do very well for a while then something happens (like winter, my butt hurting like crazy, finances shot to ****, the $1700 + tax car repair we will have to pay the end of the week, going 2+ weeks without internet so no support,etc. You are absolutely right, life happens and sometimes it sucks. I have to remind myself of how I felt this time a year ago, wanting to have surgery, being approved but having no possible way of paying for the out of pocket. I had to make a decision that instead of making it worse I had to do all I could to improve me physically. It was a battle then and it is a battle now. I have had 3 very good days in a row and I intend to get back to that feeling that I am worth something. For me, it disappears whenever I start doing any of the goofy things I do when I am eating like the old days. I don't even know if I have gained more than 5 lbs. over my goal, but I feel stuffed like a fat old slug.

All that this means is that I identify with your feelings and I appreciate your honesty. By getting this out I think you have taken the first step to being the real you again. God bless, Sue

Bette, you have been an inspiration to me-and while I agree that food is not the addictive quality of heroin or nicotine or alcohol-I find that I am powerless over some things -if I have one choclate chip cookie I want the whole bag-I am a relief seeking missle and what has helped me is actually a 12 step program -this has taught me how to handle so many things as the woman who had rny and BOB  relates I can not have one of anything-not one cookie not one cigarette-not one pull on the slots-that is me I have an addictive personality and you can just insert anything hat might give me relief from my feelings and I will suck it up=
So I have decided that the wls wars are pure entertainment and none of my business-I am the only one who is responsible for my actions-Find one good thing and focus on that and when you are ready find the next- I hope you succeed-I am rooting for you-