ONE YEAR of banded life today!
I am so thankful for this surgery and really for the new attitude and outlook I took on with the band. I did everything I thought would put me in a position to succeed. I changed my mindset, tried new things, used new methods. I almost wanted to do it all different because you know the saying "you do the same thing, you'll get the same results" and getting the same results is scary for me. I didn't want that and that meant losing and gaining it all back plus some. Add me to the statistics.
I think back to when I weighed 281 and it still can bring me to tears. The loathing I had for myself makes me so sad. You can't help it though. The way people treat you and the way you are portrayed as a morbidly obese person is as fat and disgusting. I am amazed at the way I am greeted and treated by people now. Makes me sad people are so shallow, but they are. I am also a lot more friendly then I was before but come on, I knew what people probably thought, especially them thin and in shape mom's at the school. I was so embarrased and my spirit was lost inside. I looked in the mirror and saw fat fat fat as it just overtook my whole life.
I remember deciding to have surgery and I was terrified but so hopeful that maybe something would work, maybe I really might be able to do it this time. I read dozens of books, scoured the internet and prepared for months during the insurance work. I started the changes long before the surgery so I could practice and prove to myself I had what it takes to make such a big decision. When I got my band, I was ready, willing and able and low and behold, I rocked my band. Rocked down to losing 100 pounds, plus a couple extra. The changes in me were astounding. I was dressing cute again, got a cute new hip little haircut and felt good about myself again. I was running, chasing and playing with my daughters. I started exercising and walking. My life changed more then I even thought.
I went from a size 26/28 to a size 16, still some 18's in shirts cause of my large chest. I never imagined my panties would just fall right off my body. My boobs, still large, have dropped a few sizes themselves...good and bad in a way, but I am happy with that. Even my feet went from a size 8 wide or 8 1/2 back down to SEVEN!!!! My wedding rings fit again. I am shopping in regular stores. I wear cute outfits and shoes. I can easily sit at booth tables. I don't have to eye a chair up to see how supportive it looks. Everybody smiles and openly greets me when I meet them. I have danced again and that meant so much because I have missed that! Took a few margarita's but I danced!!! I was seriously hit on by THREE different men. Me and my husband are so much closer physically and emotionally, we did this journey different but we did it together and we've grown as a couple and as parents. I used to put off getting my kids a dog cause I didn't feel like walking him, now I want a dog to walk with me. I went from being stationary to walking, biking, yoga, workout DVD's and all kinds of exercise. I had the energy and ability to easily walk through the sand and play with my daughters on the beach. I took a hike with them in the Mountains when before I had to stay back at the cabin. I am tearing up now thinking of all the things I would have missed at 281 pounds. What is worse is I don't think it would have stopped. I'd probably be 325 by now. My life has changed in so many ways, and they are just a few on the top of my mind.
I gained 10-12 pounds back this summer, had a load of stress but I am happy to say that half of them are off and I am on a roll. I am gonna hold that 100 pound loss and go even farther. I feel good right now, back on track, motivated and so proud that despite having cancer, losing my thyroid, selling my house and moving all at the same exact time I KNOW I can still do this. Would I like to have done better, well sure but it is what I am doing now that shows me the true changes in myself. I never would have bounced back like this before. I would never have cheesy cornball talked to myself saying "stand up and do it! You can do this again and you will and you KNOW that you can!" I am a new me, changed for the better in so many ways still with flaws, but so much better. I am a better wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend and person for the brave choice I made, we all made, to take back our life. Not to let the fat truely take us over, to stand up and say we deserve more and better and we CAN once and for all do this. We can live a healthier more fit lifestyle.
So, here is to my 2nd year where I will continue this never ending journey at losing, maintaining or getting back on track. We are not perfect and things will happen, challenges will arise but if we stick to it and just believe in ourselves we will always be one step closer to the end. We can do it and I just want to thank you all here on the OH forum for your support, kind words and being there. There are so many amazing and inspirational people here. The support is beautiful and it makes a difference when you know other people believe in you too!
I think back to when I weighed 281 and it still can bring me to tears. The loathing I had for myself makes me so sad. You can't help it though. The way people treat you and the way you are portrayed as a morbidly obese person is as fat and disgusting. I am amazed at the way I am greeted and treated by people now. Makes me sad people are so shallow, but they are. I am also a lot more friendly then I was before but come on, I knew what people probably thought, especially them thin and in shape mom's at the school. I was so embarrased and my spirit was lost inside. I looked in the mirror and saw fat fat fat as it just overtook my whole life.
I remember deciding to have surgery and I was terrified but so hopeful that maybe something would work, maybe I really might be able to do it this time. I read dozens of books, scoured the internet and prepared for months during the insurance work. I started the changes long before the surgery so I could practice and prove to myself I had what it takes to make such a big decision. When I got my band, I was ready, willing and able and low and behold, I rocked my band. Rocked down to losing 100 pounds, plus a couple extra. The changes in me were astounding. I was dressing cute again, got a cute new hip little haircut and felt good about myself again. I was running, chasing and playing with my daughters. I started exercising and walking. My life changed more then I even thought.
I went from a size 26/28 to a size 16, still some 18's in shirts cause of my large chest. I never imagined my panties would just fall right off my body. My boobs, still large, have dropped a few sizes themselves...good and bad in a way, but I am happy with that. Even my feet went from a size 8 wide or 8 1/2 back down to SEVEN!!!! My wedding rings fit again. I am shopping in regular stores. I wear cute outfits and shoes. I can easily sit at booth tables. I don't have to eye a chair up to see how supportive it looks. Everybody smiles and openly greets me when I meet them. I have danced again and that meant so much because I have missed that! Took a few margarita's but I danced!!! I was seriously hit on by THREE different men. Me and my husband are so much closer physically and emotionally, we did this journey different but we did it together and we've grown as a couple and as parents. I used to put off getting my kids a dog cause I didn't feel like walking him, now I want a dog to walk with me. I went from being stationary to walking, biking, yoga, workout DVD's and all kinds of exercise. I had the energy and ability to easily walk through the sand and play with my daughters on the beach. I took a hike with them in the Mountains when before I had to stay back at the cabin. I am tearing up now thinking of all the things I would have missed at 281 pounds. What is worse is I don't think it would have stopped. I'd probably be 325 by now. My life has changed in so many ways, and they are just a few on the top of my mind.
I gained 10-12 pounds back this summer, had a load of stress but I am happy to say that half of them are off and I am on a roll. I am gonna hold that 100 pound loss and go even farther. I feel good right now, back on track, motivated and so proud that despite having cancer, losing my thyroid, selling my house and moving all at the same exact time I KNOW I can still do this. Would I like to have done better, well sure but it is what I am doing now that shows me the true changes in myself. I never would have bounced back like this before. I would never have cheesy cornball talked to myself saying "stand up and do it! You can do this again and you will and you KNOW that you can!" I am a new me, changed for the better in so many ways still with flaws, but so much better. I am a better wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend and person for the brave choice I made, we all made, to take back our life. Not to let the fat truely take us over, to stand up and say we deserve more and better and we CAN once and for all do this. We can live a healthier more fit lifestyle.
So, here is to my 2nd year where I will continue this never ending journey at losing, maintaining or getting back on track. We are not perfect and things will happen, challenges will arise but if we stick to it and just believe in ourselves we will always be one step closer to the end. We can do it and I just want to thank you all here on the OH forum for your support, kind words and being there. There are so many amazing and inspirational people here. The support is beautiful and it makes a difference when you know other people believe in you too!
Boo
04/20/2009- Started Pre-Op Diet at 281 pounds
09/16/2009- Had Surgery at 248 pounds
11/19/2009- 1st fill of 4 cc's
12/15/2009- 2nd Fill of 1 cc
01/28/2010- 3rd Fill of .5 cc
04/01/2010- 4th Fill of .3 cc
Ultimate Goal Weight: 140
04/20/2009- Started Pre-Op Diet at 281 pounds
09/16/2009- Had Surgery at 248 pounds
11/19/2009- 1st fill of 4 cc's
12/15/2009- 2nd Fill of 1 cc
01/28/2010- 3rd Fill of .5 cc
04/01/2010- 4th Fill of .3 cc
Ultimate Goal Weight: 140
Amazing! You are truly my inspiration!! I congratulate you on your continued success!
Thanks for sharing your story with us. To me, I feel honored to just have met you and know that I can do it!!
Congratulations!!!
(by the way, Ceppa did my surgery he's in the same office as Ku) small world!
I'm Sending a virtual hug your way b/c I think you truly need one. It's a happy hug b/c I am sooo happy for you!!
Thanks for sharing your story with us. To me, I feel honored to just have met you and know that I can do it!!
Congratulations!!!
(by the way, Ceppa did my surgery he's in the same office as Ku) small world!
I'm Sending a virtual hug your way b/c I think you truly need one. It's a happy hug b/c I am sooo happy for you!!
Yep, you CAN and you WILL do it.
Ceppa has done two of my fills and put me at ease at a real bad moment this summer. I like both of them. Small world indeed.
Ceppa has done two of my fills and put me at ease at a real bad moment this summer. I like both of them. Small world indeed.
Boo
04/20/2009- Started Pre-Op Diet at 281 pounds
09/16/2009- Had Surgery at 248 pounds
11/19/2009- 1st fill of 4 cc's
12/15/2009- 2nd Fill of 1 cc
01/28/2010- 3rd Fill of .5 cc
04/01/2010- 4th Fill of .3 cc
Ultimate Goal Weight: 140
04/20/2009- Started Pre-Op Diet at 281 pounds
09/16/2009- Had Surgery at 248 pounds
11/19/2009- 1st fill of 4 cc's
12/15/2009- 2nd Fill of 1 cc
01/28/2010- 3rd Fill of .5 cc
04/01/2010- 4th Fill of .3 cc
Ultimate Goal Weight: 140
Wonderful post, boo! I've missed you. It's good to hear how you've been living life and enjoying yourself again!!!!!!
I've been on prednisone and chemo for over 7.5 years. Gained over 160 pounds due to pred. Highest wt. 410. Surgery wt. 365. Current wt. 299
See ya,400s, 90s,80s,70s, 60s, 50s, 40s, 30s, 20s, 10s 300s!!!!
See ya,400s, 90s,80s,70s, 60s, 50s, 40s, 30s, 20s, 10s 300s!!!!
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on 9/16/10 6:28 am - Des Moines, IA
on 9/16/10 6:28 am - Des Moines, IA
Congrats Boo! I'm so happy for you and for all the positive changes in your life. Keep up the great work! You should be proud!
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