"Move your FAT lady"

ok so this weekend I had a blast,, me and liz went back to where she is from,, breaux bridge area,, and went to the etofoua festival and fair,, it was a blast,, we brought her 2 nieces and sister ,, her nieces are 6 and 9 ,, and LOVE to go on all the scary rides,, since I haven't been on rides since I was like 12 , I thought sheesh I'll go for it,, not even thinking maybe I can't fit on them,, it wasn't until we went on the ferris wheel and I had to lift my stomachs for him to close it that I thought OMG I AM STILL FAT,, I was depressed after that,, since I have lost 63pds , I have been somewhat confident and thinking I looked halfway good, not realizing 248 something pounds is still FAT to alot of people,,, Well we went to go on the scrambler and OMG I could barley close the bar,, I thought I am going to have to get off and tell liz and her niece that I can't fit,, So the guy came over to check everything was closed before starting the ride and the bar wasn't closed yet,, we were still working on it ,, and he looked at me and said "ma'am the ride isn't going to close if you don't move your FAT" he said fat,, to me ,, me who cries when someone says I am somewhat overweight,, I wanted to DIE,, right in front of liz,, she was soo embrassed for me she didn't say anything and I didnt want to look up at all,, he then took the bar while I sucked in and SLAMMED it closed,, now I have bruises on both my top thighs b/c my FAT didn't fit,, I was soo depressed and my legs were killing me when I got off , but HELL NO I didn't say a word , I was already humilated enough,, we went on about 2 more rides that I barley fit and the last one made me sooo sick I couldn't walk straight to get off!!! But now I am nursing my bruised black and blue legs,, liz asked where the bruises were from not realizing and I said I ran into a open drawer in the kitchen,, OMG I AM EMBRASSED!! I am now soo depressed about my weight,, I am going to post another post telling everyone why,, just wanted to let yall know of my humilating moment at the fair,, and there's one this weekend again and I don't know how to tell them no at the rides !

hi ashleigh,sorry you had a bad experience at the fair, just think one day soon,you will not have to worry about all that... you don't deserve to be treated like that, keep your chin up girl, you can get thru this! rhonda

oh my , I would die. Sorry about this..you'll be smaller soon and won't even think twice about it

Wow, he was a jerk. I can't believe he said that to you. Don't let him get you down. You never know, he may have been in a bad mood but now he regrets saying it. I still can't believe it tho. Jeez..

Oh Ashleigh, I am SO SORRY to hear this happened to you. It makes me so damn I would love to go face to face with this jerk and put him in his place !!! Some people just have no heart and it is obvious he has none! You are a better person than I am if you go to any other festivity. I hope you are able to make the best of the weekend and I am sure if you told Liz the reason about you not wanting to go, she would understand. God never sleeps girl and his day will come that he'll have to face the big man upstairs. Give yourself a huge hug for me to you. I love ya! Dee