NOT DOING SO GREAT

WELL, NOT TO MAKE THIS A LONG STORY.....BUT I AM NOT DOING SO WELL AND NEED YOUR PRAYERS ONCE AGAIN....... I NEED TO PUT SOME WEIGHT BACK ON ( AND YES I AM EATING ALOT) I CAME BACK HOME, ONLY TO HAVE MY HUSBAND TURN AROUND AND LEAVE ME....... I AM VERY DEPRESSED AND HAVE HAD MANY THOUGHTS OF SUICIDE, AND YES I DID SEEK HELP BUT TO TOP IT ALL OFF.......I FOUND OUT THAT MY HUSBAND HAS BEEN HAVING AN AFFAIR FOR 6 MONTHS......WAY BEFORE WE EVEN SEPERATED.....SO NOW I KNOW WHY HE WANTED ME TO MOVE TO FAST. AND WHY HE WASNT SO HAPPY TO HAVE ME "COME BACK HOME" I FOUND ALL THIS OUT YESTERDAY, FROM SOMEONE WHO KNEW ABOUT IT AND FIGURED I NEEDED TO KNOW....I HAD BEEN OUT THE NIGHT BEFORE LOOKING FOR "THEM" TILL 4 AM........AND THEN THEY HAD JUST LEFT THE "HOTEL" WHERE I WAS TOLD THEY WERE.......SO I WENT TO HIS PARENTS WHERE HE WAS STAYING.......AND WELL......TO MAKE IT SHORT AND NOT SO SWEET, I CONFRONTED HIM, WITH A TELEPHONE UPSIDE HIS HEAD AS HE WAS SLEEPING.......BUT THEN IT GOT WORSE, THE COPS WERE CALLED......BUT WE DID NOT PRESS ANY CHARGES..... HE TOLD ME HE WANTED A DIVORCE AND THAT WAS FINAL.......... BUT THEN LAST NIGHT, HE TOLD ME WASN'T SURE.......HE KNOWS I HAVE THE BEST ATTORNEY, AND THAT I WILL TAKE EVERYTHING FROM HIM.......I HAVE THE PROOF AND THE LEVERAGE ON HIM......FOR SURE!! HE IS ON HIS WAY OUT HERE......I AM NOT SURE WHAT WILL TAKE PLACE, BUT I WILL STAY COOL AND CALM.......HE IS NOT WORTH THIS STRESS I AM GOING THRU.....IT IS GONNA KILL, THE STRESS AND THE SADNESS AND ALL....... LORI, PLEASE DO NOT SAY A WORD TO ANYONE.....YOU KNOW HOW EVERYONE KNOWS US AT THE BOWLING ALLEY.....SO PLEASE KEEP THIS PRIVATE!!!!!!!!!! I KNOW YOU WILL.....I LOVE AND TRUST YOU. SO......WHAT DO I DO, I AM JUST AT A LOSS.......I AM SO DOWN I CANT GET UP...... MY DOCTORS ARE WANTING TO PUT ME IN THE HOSPITAL TO GET THE WEIGHT ON, AND HELP ME WITH THE DEPRESSION, AND RIGHT NOW THAT SOUNDS PRETTY DANG GOOD........ I NEED SO MANY PRAYERS AND I AM SORRY THAT I AM ALWAYS ASKING FOR THEM.......BUT THEY HELP AND EVERYONE HERE HAS BEEN SO GOOD TO ME.........SO HELP ME AGAIN......... I LOVE YOU ALL, AND WITHOUT THIS I CAN NOT MAKE IT THRU..... I SEND ALL MY LOVE, AND KAT, I AM THINKING OF YOU AND PRAYING FOR YOU AS WELL....... WITH ALL MY LOVE AND HUGS KIM

KIM OF COURSE YOU KNOW I WON'T SAY ANYTHING, THAT IS YOUR BUSINESS AND IF YOU WANT ANYONE TO KNOW YOU WILL TELL THEM, THAT ISNT MY PLACE. I WILL ONLY TELL PEOPLE THAT KNOW AND ASK ABOUT YOU THAT YOU ARE DOING GOOD. I AM SO SORRY ABOUT JODY HUN.... YOU DESERVE SO MUCH BETTER THAN THAT!!!! AS FAR AS YOUR HEALTH, SWEETIE I KNOW YOU HATE HOSPITALS AS MUCH AS I DO, BUT THAT MAY BE THE BEST THING FOR YOU TO DO TO GET YOURSELF BACK UP TO PAR, BOTH MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY.... YOU GOT TO THINK ABOUT 4 PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE..... CHOLE, YOUR DAUGHTER, YOUR SON AND THE LORD. LET THEM BE YOUR STRENGTH WHEN YOU ARE WEAK HUN.... THEY LOVE YOU AND SUPPORT YOU NO MATTER WHAT THE CIR****TANCES ARE. AND OF COURSE BRIAN AND I ALSO LOVE YOU. YOU TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, AND PLEASE KEEP ME INFORMED ON HOW YOU ARE DOING. WE MISS YOU AND YOUR BUBBLY PERSONALITY. WE WILL SEE YOU SOON THOUGH! LOVE YOU ALWAYS, LORI

Hi Kim, I'm here, my dear sister. Until a few minutes ago, I felt all alone and kinda scared which usually doesn't happen to me. I started thinking that I would write to let you know that you weren't alone and then it dawned on me that would mean neither am I. Coping and making decisions can be like running through a field of dynamite with torches attached to your drawers -- no matter what you do it's gonna hurt and right decisions and wrong decision all seem to carry the same weight. I'm gonna cuddle for a little while. Remember what is was like to be held -- not by our husbands, but as children in the large arms of a caring (completely wrapped) daddy? If you can find your special place, visualize our heavenly Father holding and protecting both of us. Feel the strong arms around you and how it feels to drop your head on a heart as large as Texas. Take a deep breath, sigh, let it out slowly and watch the stress and pain go from your hands to HIS. Think about how nice it is that you didn't have to make an appointment for this visit and no matter what tomorrow brings, this special moment can be relived whenever you are ready to bring it -- and leave it -- all on the altar. "But you can not have rest ... or be perfectly blessed ... until all on the altar is laid." Now, tell you good friend Frances to try this. In HIS love, Frances

Kim; Hi this is Sue that used to be in Shreveport. I'm now back in Texas and am really sympathizing with you. My hubby and I are also seperated. He didn't have an affair but I sure got tired of him sitting on his behindside and refusing to get a job until we were at a crisis point. Anyway back to you. You stay strong girl. God will get you through this. Tell the husband to pack his things and leave. You sound like you need a good long rest and relief from the stress. This is one gal supporting you here. If the doctors feel that its best for you to go into the hospital then girl pack your bag.....I don't know how much rest you'll get there but at least you'll have a chance to get things figured out and maybe get some rest, (yes I know thats really hard to do in a hospital). I'm praying for you! Oh and Good for you for cracking him one upside the skull there....he deserves it!!! Sue