Waterparks for the MO

WELL... today I took my kids, cousins, hubby, parents, sister, brother, sister-in-law, and niece to the waterpark (pools, waterslides, rafting) near our house... As usual, my sister looked perfect, all of 140 lbs at 5ft 8in, wearing a great teal eyelet bikini... Mom hiding in the lycra wrap skirt for her way old and tight swimsuit, and me (literally 3 times my sister's size)... I stayed in my street clothes for the first hour or so... then hubby insisted that I go get in the water with him. At first I was mad... I didn't WANT to bare myself in a swimsuit... But there I was.... Walking down the path, in only my swimsuit. I was already incredibly self conscious... I wanted to just fall into a hole and have the earth swallow me up and cover me over... THEN some snotty little anorexic pre-teen 12 year old in a trampy string bikini walked by, she looks at me (eye contact) and blurts out "Oh my GOD, that's disgusting!!" I stood on the side of the path, waiting my turn to get life vests for the babies... I was very upset... hubby was with me, but he just doesn't pay attention to other people, he disregards them as irrelevant and so he didn't even hear her. He looked at me puzzled as the tears streamed down my face and made me *repeat* it to him... I was devastated, and I was sure that my whole day was ruined. He said to me... "you're beautiful to me, and that's what counts, right?" Well I wasn't so easily comforted, I kept crying for a little while... just couldn't shake it... We got on the inner tubes and floated with my 22 mo old daughter through the water, and she was just so delighted with it, that I couldn't help but smile and laugh with her... it didn't take too long for me to perk up... yes I was still very self conscious and tried to avoid walking around a lot, but I found a row of chairs next to the baby wading pool and we sat there. Somehow, just being active, moving around, swimming, being able to keep up with my daughter, just made it all worth it... I forgot all about the ugly rude anorexic child, and had a blast anyway... I was shocked... I'm finally down by 20 lbs from my starting weight... I'm getting in the pool every single day and MOVING around... I really thought it was going to be a long wait (since I won't be doing surgery for months yet) before I could get to have fun with the kids like this... What could have been a horrible day was rescued by my wonderful hubby and my beautiful children... I had FUN... and I can't wait to do it again! Well all except the ugly rude anorexic child, anyway.

Sorry about the rude girl. But glad the day ended up being a success.

Kat, I am so sorry that you had to encouter this. I am however, happy that you enjoyed your day. At the end of the day it is YOU that matters and how you feel about yourself and I think you did awesome. People that have never been MO do not know what we go through as MO people. Just the fact that you got out there takes guts and I commend you for that. You have already taken a step in the right direction to better yourself and that is awesome. I am with your husband you are a beautiful lady, I am sure just as beautiful on the inside as well as the outside. I have read your posts and I am sorry about your insurance problems. I went through that for 3 years. So, if you ever need someone to talk too, I have been there and feel free to email me. I will listen and support you the best I can. God has something special for you and it will happen in His time. Keep up the good work. Gina

Kat, You did great. You made it a fun day for you and your family. I know we have talked about this before. Take the power away from others and put it in your hands. Just cuz she is a child, doesn't mean you cannot tell her about herself. You know me, I probably would have told her something like, "Excuse me, where is your mother" in a very dominant voice. Usually they run or say something stupid like , I didn't say anything. I will let them know I heard what you said, and usually I stare them down till they feel uncomfortable. I have never had anyone continue on. As for the adults that do things like that, usually a similar approach works. You do not have to be rude or mean to someone to let them know you don't like or appreciate what they have done, and that you will not tolerate it. It can be extremely embarrassing and hurtful in front of a bunch of people, but that just works for me. I understand you are not me, and everyone is different, but you are so sweet, and I hate to think of some brat making you cry. You are beautiful, like you are. If you look at most people on here, they were beautiful before they lost their weight. It is true when people say beauty comes from within. Take care, and let us know how the get together went.

Kids can be so cruel...and, yes, even adults can too. I have been in that position before. Makes you feel terrible...adds to your already low self-esteem and self-consciousness in public situations. But, you ended up enjoying yourself...putting first what should come first. Not others opinions, but your family and loved ones opinions. I am glad that you enjoyed your day of fun in the sun. I bet it was a hot one! I was inside all day at work. Gotta love that air conditioning! Take care!

WOW, KAT I HAVE TO SAY YOU HAVE MORE STRENGTH THAN ME ,, I ACTUALLY GOT INTO A HUGE AGRUEMENT WITH MY BEST FRIEND THE OTHER DAY AND HER GIRLFRIEND CALLED ME AND STARTING YELLING AT ME AND WAS CALLING ME FAT , SAYING THE MOST HURTFUL THINGS I WOULDNT EVEN SAY TO MY WORST ENEMY, THE FUNNY THING IS SHES MY SIZE MAYBE A TINY BIT SMALLER,, BUT OF COURSE SHE WAS CLEAR TO STICK IT INTO MY FACE THAT I AM SO FAT I HAVE TO WEAR T-SHIRTS EVERYWHERE AND THAT I AM SO FAT I HAVE TO GET A SURGERY ETC.. I WAS SO UPSET I COULDNT STOP CRYING FOR HOURS AND WENT BACK INTO MY OLD CYCLE ON BEING IN A FETAL POSITION ON MY BED AND CRYING MYSELF TO SLEEP, YOU ARE REALLY STRONG TO JUST IGNORE THE GIRL, B/C I WOULD HAVE WENT AND STARTED A FIGHT WITH HER!! AND ESP FOR YOU TO CONTINUE ON YOUR DAY AND HAVE A GREAT HUSBAND WHO SAYS HE LOVES YOU NO MATTER WHAT , AT 22 I HAVE RUN INTO A HUGE HALT IN MY LIFE B/C NO GUY WANTS TO EVEN BE IN THE SAME ROOM WITH ME EVEN AS FRIENDS B/C IT RUINS HIS CHANCES OF GIRLS TALKING TO HIM AND OTHER PEOPLE MAKING FUN OF HIM,, I AM HAVING A HARD TIME MAKING FRIENDS WITH SKINNY GIRLS, BUT IM GLAD YOU ENDED UP HAVING A GREAT TIME,, I DONT THINK I WOULD HAVE EVEN BEEN ABLE TO GO TO THE POOL IN THE FIRST PLACE,, I JUST MOVED INTO A NEW APT AND I HAVE A WONDERFUL APT AND VIEW DIRECTLY OVER THE POOL AND I JUST SIT OUTSIDE AND DAY DREAM ABOUT BEING SKINNY AND BEING ABLE TO GO OUT THERE AND SWIM WITHOUT SOMEONE SAYING SOMETHING,, BEST OF LUCK