My Story (long)

Its been a very long time since I posted to this website, so heres my story. I'm 51 yrs old and married to a wonderful man for 27 yrs. I had my gastric bypass surgery in July of '03 by Dr. Lavin. I weighed 240 and I met my goal of losing 100 pounds 9 months after I had surgery. I went thru plastic surgery. Everything was going great for me. Then my world fell apart for me in December of '05. I was diagnosed with epilepsy after suffering a grand mal seizure. I suffered 3 more seizures in August of last year. I had all kinds of trouble adjusting to different seizure medications until two finally worked. I haven't had anymore seizures (knock on wood). Only drawback to one of the medications was hairloss and weightloss. My hair started falling out bigtime and my weight got down to 117. I felt fine but looked terrible. Family and friends were telling me I looked anorexic. Even my doctor was concerned about my weight so he lowered the dosage. My hair was continuing to fall out and my weight picked up and I was maintaining at 130. But the hairloss continued, so the beginning of this month my neurologist completely took me off of that medication. The hairloss has slowed down alot, almost to a stop now, but now my weight is going up. I've gone from a size 4 to an 8 in less then a month! Even the hunger pains are back, which I hate, and i'm sooooo scared the scale is going to continue going up. So I have to make a decision. Do I go back on the medication be bald and thin? Or continue gaining weight and have a head of hair. I absolutely hate this situation i've been put in. And the hunger pains are the pits. Never thought they'd come back, guess I was wrong. I can't eat sweets or i'll dump. I can't eat ice cream cause i'm lactose. I also don't drink soft drinks which I can't stand since I had my surgery. I drinks lots of water and Crystal Lite Ice Tea. I try and make the right choices in what I eat, but I do slip up every now and then, i'm only human. And I do exercise some. I saw Dr. Lavin last week and he suggested that I see a nutrionist. Anyone have any luck with seeing one? I'm so down in the dumps right now and depressed. I do apologize for this post being so long but I had to vent.