I don't socialize much... BUT

Friday night I went to an adult toy party (uhm... yeah I was rather embarrassed, but it was fun). Anyway, it was with a group of other wives who haven't seen me since March. I had my surgery in May. Everyone was amazed at how good I looked. There were a few girls there I had not met, and they were skinny, skinny, skinny. They were impressed w/my dedication. That made me feel good. I also found that now that I'm losing weight I feel so much more confident. I had no idea how much I was regaining confidence until I was leaving my friend's house and there were a bunch of soldiers at her neighbor's nextdoor. Usually, a group of men standing around talking and partying would make me nervouse. I'd be sure they'd be talking or laughing me. Not only did I not think that but I didn't walk to my car with my head down. I actually smiled politely at them. I'm very socially phobic so for me that was amazing.

Lin, I remember the first time I went to an adult toy party, I thought I was going to die!!!! Had fun but, it was not something I was not use to. I have always been a very shy person around those I don't know. Hard to believe but it is the truth. I so understand what you are saying. Funny thing even in the past when I was thin I had a hard time being around crowds or even smiling at a group of guys. Now I feel so much different, I feel I am so much more outgoing. I am having fun. You are doing great with your progress. So proud of you. Take care, Jodi

yay for you, and it only gets better from here.