OMG MY FRIENDS,, UPDATE!!

OMFG,, I have missed yall SOOOOOOOOOOO much,, Sooooo much has happen,, First the huge news,,, I am 4pds away from loosing a total of 100pds,, I NEVER thought I would be here right now,, I remember a year ago today I was writting in my journal that I thought I would die fat and ugly,, that I didn't want to live anymore but didn't have the courage to kill myself and didn't want to upset my family,, I never thought I would be in this position and be able to do the things I can do now,, alot of things I and other people take for granted I can now do like: - Fit into a bath tub and the water run around me , without having to get up swoosh the water around so the back is hot as the front,, - to be able to shave my legs while sitting in the tub(big one for me) - to be able to paint my own toenails without oxygen - to fit in my car with the steerling wheel down all the way - to fit into a roller coaster( I had given up all together) - to be able to sit on someones lap - to fit into a f#%#@ size 16,, which I haven't been since I was 16-17,, - to tie my own shoe's without needing oxygen - to fit into my old jewerly, be able to buy regular jewerly without extenders(HUGE one for me, since I had all this wonderful nice jewerly) - To fit into XL shirts,, omg I still cry about this one as I write it,, - To feel confident AND Most impt,, To feel that I am being looked at for the right reasons and not b/c I am fat and gross,, to have someone , anyone be jealous of me and think I am pretty, I never thought I would be here, and I never ever thought I would be confident again, which I still have ALOT to work on,, but without liz in my life through this journey I KNOW , I wouldn't of gained this confidence on my own,, every time she see's me she fills my head with amazing thoughts and complments,, She makes me feel that I am worth something and can do anything I set my mind too, now while we are having alot of bumps in our road , she has never doubted me and continued to complment me,, I went to get some new clothes the other day, since my 20's could no longer stay up even with a belt,, I haven't bought clothes in at least a year, so I have no idea what size I was , since those 20's were old and I assumed they just shrink since I washed them soo much,, so I thought I was a 18 or 20,, I got several sizes the smallest one being a 16, thinking I will see how far away from it I was,, and could set a goal,, well I tried on the 20's and was like damn,, then the 18's and got even more excited thinking oh its just this type of pants that runs big,, then the 16's ,, THEY FIT,, ok ok I remained calm,, I thought IT MUST JUST BE THESE PANTS,,I tried on the other 6 styles I had all different materials and OMG it was true they all fit in size 16,, one or two even being big,, I bust out crying ,, I mean a crying from the gut,, sobbing and holding the breath and all,, the sales lady came running along with several others shopping and were banging on the door, omg ma'am are you ok, did you fall, did something happen,, I swung the door open and said I am soooo sorry I fit into a 16.. and continued crying ,, some looked at me like I was nutz , some laughed their ass off,, I said I had gastric bypass less than 5mths ago, and haven't bought clothes in a year,, I am sorry,, then they were sooo supportive all wanting to know details and saying how great I looked,, of course I always carry pics of the big me , so I showed them off,, I asked if I could show them some outfits to tell me which ones looked the best since I was only buying two or three,, It was great,, I was thrilled,, They all kept telling me,, why are you wearing such big shirts ,,, they said girl you aren't a size 20 shirt , your like a 16,,, they were picking out clothes asking me to try those on and saying , see this fitted shirt looks alot better,, but I am sooooo insecure about my saggy skin I won't wear short sleeves yet,, I don't think I have had a prouder moment than that in life yet,, I called everyone I knew and told them, Thanks everyone who has been my friend through this ,, especially frances, I couldn't of done it without you being my best friend, and my therapist at times!!! I truely believe there are angels on earth and she is one without a doubt!!! I am about to go to work so have to cut this short,, well it isn't short but you know ,,, I have been working almost everyday to make money, since I love money and am high maintance now!! I went on a shopping spree that day and spent over $600 on me,, I loved itl, and deserved it,, I will be having a 100npds lost party soon,, so please let me know when everyone is free , I will try to have it on a weekend when me and liz are both off, so hope a weekend is ok for everyone,, Hope everyone is well I barley recongize alot of people on here,, so glad it has gotten soo big,, will try to make next meeting but I work almost every thrus ,, and pick up major overtime,, thanks again everyone, oh my mom moved to texas yesterday to take care of my dad , so I am motherless now!! need my friends soo keep in touch,,, and my computer is done with no internet ,, so I have to come to the coffee shop to get it , thats why I havent been on,, sorry ,, will check it as much as I can! love yall soo much, will post new pics soon, since my last ones were when I had lost like 60pds

CONGRATULATIONS ASLEIGH........ BOY I CAN HEAR THE EXCITEMENT.... I CAN'T WAIT TILL I GET TO THAT 100 LB. MARK BUT IT WILL BE A WHILE YET FOR ME. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK AND GOD BLESS YOU KATERI

Way to go Ashleigh!! I knew you could do it. I was so excited to fit in a eighteen and now I'm in a twelve. Can't wait to see the pictures. Keep up the good work and don't wait so long to get back to us. I'm always free unless we go out of town. Do you think you can make it to the meeting Thursday? We would all love to see you again. Tina 336/189/145

Ash, I was thinking about you the other day and wondering how you were doing. I am sooooooooooooo happy for you that you are almost at the 100 pound mark. I feel the same way about alot of the things you said. Like being able to fit in a bath tub, shaving my legs in the tub, croosing my legs again. walking a ways and not get short of breath. I could picture yourface when you realized htat you were a size 16. Keep it up... Oh how are you and Liz doing? Love ya, Chrissy

Hey I was wondering what you had been up too!!! I can so relate to most of the stuff you are talking about. It really is an exciting journey huh? I love the part about the bathtub and swooshing the water around, LOL....damn I can so relate!!! I'm now 236 and still freaken out when I tell someone how much I've lost so far! I'm glad things are going good for you. Post some pix soon!!!

Angel wants your 20s and 18s Seriously, I'm only a cheerleader for one great gal. It's all you, babe, and I'm so proud of you I want to cry. Luckily, I can wipe my tears on the cat. Thanks for the update and HOW ABOUT SOME PICTURES NOW? See ya soon, Frances

Ashleigh!!!! WTG Gurl!!!!!! I am so proud of you!!!!! Keep up the GREAT work!!!! Cindee

Ashleigh, Sounds like you are having a great time!!!! Congratulations on all of your recent accomplishments. You have come along way. Debbie Farrell