Shopping and WOW

For mothers day I got a gift card for Dillards. Last night I decided to try and shop. I went and tried on numerous things, Started with 10/12 pants, none of them worked so I dropped down to to an 8 thinking that would do the trick. They were to big, so I went and tried on some 6's and gosh they worked. My last pair of jeans were a 6 but I bought them at Walmart and really didn't think the size was true. I got so excited!!!! The best part they were marked down 75%. I bought three pairs ofLiz Claiborne capris in such bright colors, normally I would buy black. I got bright orange, hot pink and a really pretty aqua. I was pooped and didn't look for shirts so I need to go back. I did get one shirt and it was a medium, I think I could have bought a small but it is form fitting and I really felt better in a medium. Still trying to get use to buying things that fit my form. Been a real long time since I have done that. I am also down to 143/144, playing with those numbers. I have 4/5 lbs to my personal goal and 9/10 to the surgeons goal. Last Sunday I wore a dress that I wore seven years ago and it was almost to big. I had more people come up to me Sunday and tell me how good I looked. One lady came up to me and said she saw me walk in and didn't realize who I was until I sat down and she saw me with my family. Everyone says I look like a different person. The past six months have been a huge WOW for me. I feel like a recovering alcholic/drug addict. I told my mom I have been sober from my addiction to Little Debbies and sugar. I no longer crave them or sweets. It is so opposite, I really look at labels and if there is sugar or sugar alcohols I avoid it. I don't even want sugar free stuff. I still find my eyes are way bigger than my stomach so if I don't measure I find that I will put so much more on my plate and then throw most of it away. For those that are early out or pre-op. There will be stalls and there will be times that the scale will go up and down a couple of pounds. This is normal, yes I still freak out, you see I am a scale ***** it is my new addiction and it is . When this happens just stick with the program and it will move again. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would be where I am today. Don't set a big goal, I set small goals of 10lbs and didn't put a time frame on it. I would get so excited to see the digits move down from 190's to 180's so on so forth. I ended up getting to the big picture with out be let down. Ok almost, I still need to see 139 but that is just around the corner.... Also the word "only" needs to be removed from your vocabulary. This I picked up off of another board, thanks Dana. I see so many people post " I ONLY lost xxxxlbs" it should be rephrased to say "I lost xxxxlbs and ONLY have xxxxx more to go" We need to step back and take a look at our past endeavors, when have we lost ONLY xxxlbs in this short time. Yes, this surgey does help with fast weight loss, and we need to be happy with the way it is working. The ultimate goal is to get healthy, and our bodies know what it needs to survive. Our bodies are like cars, it needs nutrients to survive. Weekly (or more often for me) I have to put gas in my car. In order for my car to run to it's potential it needs other nutrients, like oil, transmission fluid, water, brake fluid etc, our bodies are the same. It is so important to get the right amount of nutrients in our bodies. Once we get back to eating normal foods, it is real important to fuel our bodies with the right ingredients to run to our potential. We do need to eat off of the daily food group, this is what it takes for our bodies to run. Imagine your car, if you left the oil out it would not run. We do need some fat in our diets, but we have to put the right kind in. There are good fats and bad fats, just like carbs. We have to weed out the good from the bad....but this is do able. Those that have had this surgery we have been given an amazing tool, it is now up to us post op to work the tool to it fullest potential and we can all succeed in this wonderful journey.

Jodi, hey there I was thinking about you and was even going to send you an e mail I am glad to see that you went shopping. I just went shopping for new scrubs for my new job. I tried on the large and they swallowed me so I tried on the med and they were a little to big so I went down to the small and they were ok but I was afraid that when I washed them they would be to tight so I got the med pants and the med tops I was happy I was in the med top and pants I have not been in that size in forever.... For the most part I am in a size 8 still I do have one pair of jeans that are a size 6 I wear them sometimes. I am for sure stuck big time at 145-147. I feel I will never get to my goal for when I go to Dr Lavin on Aug 16th. To do that I have to lose at least 10 pounds in a month and a half. Some days are better than others with my eating. I do try to stay away form sugar but I have gotten in this big fruit kick. I need to come off of it. I get upset and so discouraged at times cuz I know I can do it and don't. So then it is going through the old tapes playing in my head and me fighting them. I mean the wanting to eat just because I am upset, or mad cuz I am stuck and have been stuck for almost 3 months. But any way I am really glad to see that you are doing wonderful..... Take care and keep up the good work. Love ya, Chrissy

Chrissy, I am always so excited when I open my email and see a post from you. You have always been so sweet. Thanks....I have not been on the boards for a couple of weeks, I had one heck of a bladder infection and just felt so bad. I use to get them all of the time but this was a doozy.... Congrats girl on the scrubs, I know that is a happy feeling to get to a smaller size. I sure loved the scrubs. I use to wear them all the time and I sure miss the comfort of them. The job I have now is so completely opposite of anything I have ever done. I have always worked in the medical/dental field. Now I work for a used truck center. They sell 18 wheelers and it is so much fun. I did this through a temporary agency and at first I thought, no way!!! But I really do love my job and have been hired on full time. They are very laid back with the dress code so that is nice too. Heck they are laid back with everything. I have found the last couple of days I have come home and snacked on some unhealthy things. Makes me so mad!!! I usually don't snack so this is freaking me out. I want to try some watermelon but I am afraid of the sugar, seems like it is so sweet and I have this darn fear of getting sick. I did have a peach yesterday and it was so good. Girl, you will get off of this stall. I know it is driviing you nuts. I have the same amount to loose as you do. I honestly am very happy with my weight right now but I do want to get to at least 139 and would be happy to hit the 134 which is another 10 lbs. Chrissy, I hope you all have a great weekend and a wonderful 4th. Hugs, Jodi

Jodi, I am gald that you got over your bladder infection. I know that they are always bad when I get them which is once and a while. I sure hope I get off this stall and soon. See I get mad too when I eat things I know are bad and were things that I ate to get as big as I was before surgery. I also feel so guilty too. I am working for a pediatric clinic now. I was glad to see that the small fit. But I also get upset too when I know I should be at goal or closer than I am and I hear that people weigh less than me and had their surg after me. I feel like I am not doing as good as I should be. But as of today though I hope to get back on track and stay there this time. I ea****ermelon all the time it is in my fruit kick I am on now but I am going to be less of it now. I would love to see the 130's for my 1 year visit in Aug so that is why I'm getting back to the basics. Well take care and let know when you hit that 139 mark I am rooting for ya. Love ya, Chrissy

Chrissy, You will get the last 10lbs off, it is the hardest part the last 10-15lbs. I am rooting for you too. I know this will sound funny but are you getting in enough calories? For a while I was lucky to be eating 500-800 calories and I was told I needed to increase it. Once I did I started losing again. Lately I have been using the Weigh****cher plan, I seem to be doing ok with that. I sure hope you make the 130's by August, I know it is important to you. I bought a watermelon today, I can't wait to try it. I am also a little scared, for fear of getting sick. Girl, I bless you for working in a pediatric clinic. I don't think I could do it. It breaks my heart when I have to take my kids in and I see little ones sick and all. I sure will hate when my kids outgrow their peditrician. I swear I have the best, I just love her and her nurses to death. I know you are a little discouraged, but Chrissy you have done wonderful and I am very proud of how far you have come. Keep me posted, Hugs, Jodi

Wow Jodi it sounds like your doing great, I knew you would. And your such a great advice giver thanks. Tina