ive had a setback

well i was all excited i was doing so well and you would know it..last thursday i drank some grapejuice and as luck would have it, it made it's way out of my drain hole that was still closing up...we all know what that means...i had a leak...so we drove the 80something miles back to lafayette and i was admitted back into the hospital...i am home now as of this morning but tell me has anyone else experienced this..it is a small hole...i havent had anything by mouth for a week and according to my doctor not to do so for another 2 weeks until i see him again....if you have had this happen to you..how did you do it when every other commercial on tv is about food..your family members have to eat...all i get for nutrition is what i get from my iv...mmmmm..filling...help me out with ideas on how to get past this...please let me know..thanks carrie

Wish I had a magic answer...........but really, time and tears is what it took me. I'd cry and mourn over those commercials. Now that a few months have passed, I can eat most anything........or at least a taste of it. IT DOES get better.........just hang in there and don't beat yourself up for feeling down. It's normal...........and it does take time to heal, physically and emotionally. Good Luck and hope you feel better soon! Kendra

Carrie, It will get easierwith time, but you gotta remember why you choose this route. You knew it wasn't going to be easy. I spent quite a while on a feeding tube, but I didn't want to eat at that point anyway. If you feel that it is really getting you down, then ask the doc for an antidepressant. People don't realize, food is always such a big part of our culture and it uis taken away. It is very depressing. Iit is like being in solitary confinement, but you can see, hear and smell it all. I would go in my room and cry. It wasn't much fun. If you are feeling well enough, get line and chat with people that have been there. Get on line and read profiles and remind yourself about why you are doing this. Don't give in, it will only hurt you physically in the short run and ruin what you are trying to do in the longrun. Iit is worth it, you are worth it, find something to do. But get off of the tv. You are right, everything is about food, everyone is talking about what they want to eat, when they are going to eat and so forth. Take yourself away from that as much as you can. I am hear. Ii will listen. Take care. Debbie 426/255 and going for 174