??for those who are a year or more out.

Just wandering if anyone has gain wieght back or are you maintaining your wieght?? I'm 1year and 3 months out and I have a terrible fear of regaining my wieght. Sometimes I'm scared I'm eatting to much(which I don't think I am) but than I will go on a liquid diet for the day and at times I'm ashame to say this but I will go as far as make myself sick. I'm gonna be seeing someone( a doctor) for this problem but, I'm wandering if anyone else feels this way. Still look at myself as fat at times even thou I tell my brain I'm ok. Feeling stupid for saying this but I still see myself as big at times and think people view me the same way. Thanks for listening. Have a great day.