Iam so depressed today.

its a yuck day.. i got up with a headache again..mostly due to my back injury and some part due to stress from wc lawyers etc..and i miss my dad so bad..he died a year and a half ago..i still havent dealt with this..i got injured 2 months before he died suddenly from and aneurysm. and for those last two months i was drugged up for pain and on the couch sleeping. he died jan 16 2003and i hadnt seen him since dec 24 2002. and he lived right down the street.i didnt get to tell him i loved him..does anyone feel the same way..what do i do to deal with all this..i pray.. i talk to god constantly..i dont know what to do. sorry i went on and on..i am just at the end of my rope..i see a psychiatrist i take paxil wellbutin and then ambien to sleep and i still cant sleep..thanks for letting me get this off my chest..i know my poor husband is lost and dont know waht to do for me. happygal(not)

So sorry for your loss and not feeling good I know what you are going threw when I lost my mom for a whileb-4 she had got so sick we had not been very close then when she passed away I was so hurt cause I felt like I had not told her enough times how much I loved her and how much she eant to me I have been to her grave several times but what has helped me the most I am now living were I grew up at and were my mom had been b-4 she passed away it makes me feel so much closer to her being back in here I have prayed to God to help me deal with this also and I guess this was the anwser moving back in my childhood home were all the good and some bad memories had been Take Care Huggs Beth

my daddy is buried about 3 hours from me..and i have only been back twice..it was where he and my mom decided to be buried close to her parents..and their dead baby. mom is still alive..thank goodness..i feel like its my fault dad died and i cant loose that feeling..we knew he had the aneurysm and i didnt make sure he got the proper treatment.after i got hurt i didnt know much of anything because of those darn drugs..i am still so bitter toward the guy at work that hurt me i feel as though he caused me lost time with my dad..and i am afraid he didnt know how much i love him. i was a daddy's girl..the only girl of three. gosh i miss him so much. thanks for talking to me. happygal

Hi, I lost my dad 20 years ago and still miss him so much. Try writing about it. Write down what you are feeling. Write to your daddy what you would say to him if he were here. Hope it helps. time is the only thing that really helps. PJ sept 2, 2003

Sorry for your loss. My dad passed away 7 yrs. ago and I still miss him very much. Good luck and god bless. john

Hey there Happygal, You've got to keep those spirits up. Everything is gonna work out. I don't know how it feels to lose a parent, but my granddad was so special to me and I haven't never forgotten him and he's been gone since 1977. I even dream about him and I feel like when I'm thinking of him or dreaming of him he's just there in spirit telling me he loves me. That is why we have such strong thoughts. He's there by your side just telling you to keep your head up that he'll always be with you even though you can't see him. The bible says to be absent from the body is to be present with him and if your praying he's there with you and also where else would he want to be. His spirit is not in that grave, he wants to be close to the ones he loved here to watch over them and help them get through this old world. So keep those spirits up and know he's probally hugging you right now. Love you, Lydia

I am sorry you are going through a rough time right now. He will always be in your memory hun, and sometimes when you feel so depressed, and think of him, it could be a mixture of feelings. YOu have the sad from not being able to say your final goodbyes, but I find myself when I think of my Grandfather, we were close I feel depressed and sad, but realize it is me missing those wonderful times we had, so in a way it is a happy cry too, cuz they are good memories that I just wish were reality again. Your father knows why you couldn't visit him, and still loves you dearly. Think how proud he is of you making yourself healthy again.- Melissa