Do u need support? Motivation???

I posted this on my myspace blog and thought I'd put it here too just in case there is someone like me who is fighting to get the extra pounds off.   For anyone who wants to, my myspace is
http://www.myspace.com/sweetnsassynky last name Russell to add.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009 

Believe in yourself! Current mood:  confident Good morning everyone!  This morning I've been thinking about meeting goals and support while u're meeting those goals.  I know in life sometimes we all have something that we plan on doing.  For example, right now I'm trying to lose a few pounds.  More than just a few actually.  I had a gastric bypass in March of 2005.  Lost over 160 pounds.  Then in October 2006 I started regaining.  No, I have not regain anywhere near all of that. Not even half of that.  But, I have been procrastinating over the past year.  2008 was a very emotional year. It was like an emotional roller coaster ride.  First in Dec we made the "rash" decision to have Adam have his vasectomy reversed.  Didn't work, which turns out to be a good thing because in many ways Adam and I don't need more kids. I love kids but for Adam and me, we don't need more.  Then in Feb my brother and sister in law had to bury their newborn baby girl, Gracie.  U talk about pain.  That was the HARDEST thing I've ever been thru. It hurt, and still does, on many different levels.  I hurt because my niece died and there wasn't a dang thing I could do.  I was angry. I was frustrated.  Then there was the hurt of one of my baby brothers and my sister in law (whom I've known and loved since she was a lil girl) were going thru something like this and they were hurting so bad.  There was nothing I could do to help.  When u have lil brothers or sisters, u want to protect them.  I don't care who u r. If u have a lil brother or sister and something causes them pain, u want to fix it, right?  Well, enough of that.  It was hard on them and all of us.  2008 was just a very emotionally stressful year, that sounds good, we'll go with that.  I could never get my head back in the game.  Get myself back on track.  I knew what I had to do but I was just too unhappy to get off my lazy, plump'in booty to do it.  Would  u like to know what helped me get my head in the game?  I don't have much support here at home.  We won't say names, we'll just say, support is pretty much, nil.    Ok, I got to the point where I would look at myself in the mirror and hate what I saw.  That wasn't enough to wake me up apparently cause I've been hating what I've seen for months.  In the past few weeks each time someone would see me naked, they'd have a sneer on their face and say something stupid like "how much r u up too? did ya regain it ALL"  or in some situations (won't go there it'd be tmi, extreme tmi) someone would ***** about my weight gain because things that had gotten easier after losing alot of weight, had gotten harder again.  Of course, someone has gained weight too and has quite a belly on him so its not all my fault.  But long story short.  It woke me up. So I guess for once, I'm thankful that he's unfeeling and rude.  It opened my eyes.  Thurs Feb 12 I woke up and decided to go back to eating the way I did right after surgery. I started my protein shakes again.  Getting in more water instead of just coke zero's all the time.  eating a small lunch consisting of something with protein and few cal's.  No snacks, healthy or other wise.  I do protein for bfast, lunch is a small meal, supper at 5 and no later than 6 is small consisting of protein too.  I'm also exercising period.  Cleaned off the old treadmill and got my booty back on it.  Yes, I do fight the urge to do that snacking when I get stressed, upset, angry, whatever but I win!  I am so PROUD of myself for doing this.  I feel great. My friend Katrina and I are doing it together.  I started Thurs but she and I decided to do our weekly weigh in Mondays.  So this past Monday morning I weighed and had lost a grand total of 7 pounds in 4 days.  I'm not weighing again until Monday.  Tomorrow will be my 7th day of doing this and I am going to keep on doing it until I get off every single extra pound I gained.  Today's society makes us so hard on ourselves.  It tells us that we have to be pencil sticks to be sexy, beautiful.  I've thought that for along time now.  But this past week has given me a new lease on life and u know what?  I'll never be Paris Hilton or any other skinny, beautiful girl but I am Ange Russell and I am just fine the way I am.  I am not losing this weight so I can think of myself as sexy.  I am losing it because it's done went and pissed me off. I am losing it because I want to feel better, have more energy and steal back my self confidence and self esteem.  U know what else?  I WILL DO IT.  U know why?  Because I have the will power, determination, the motivation to do it.  I keep a journal every day of what I eat, drink.  Nothing is going in this mouth unless it's supposed too.  So, my point to all this rambling nonsense is, if u have a goal and have no support at home, like me, hit me up. I'll be here for u. To help keep u motivated and on track.  The more support u have, no matter the goal, it's easier with friends.  I've only lost 7 pounds so far, but u know what?  I still feel like a rock star. Ok, now it's time to end this, I'm starting to sound like a freaking infomercial,ewwww.     Love and Hugs Ange Stay Strong, Stay Focused, Stay Motivated! and if u need a friend, email me anytime at [email protected] I'm usually on here everyday too but u can email me too.

hey there, I feel exactly like you do, I need to get off the extra pounds, and I haven't been losing in almost 2 months now, I feel like a failure at weight loss, today, I am watching what I eat, I started thinking I didn't come all this way just to gain it back. today, I have had a chicken breast that had 37 carbs,. and 1/2 yoplait light yogurt. and powerade zero, I want so much to get out and walk, or whatever, as long as I am out of the house, I don't think about eating.
    I am hoping as soon as this weather gets warm and sunny, it will help me extremely. I am planning on going back to school this fall, I wi**** was this week.
   Good luck Angie, and I am on your myspace, any time you need someone to lean on , I will be here, same goes for you, 
                                  Lisa

Thank u Lisa...It's good to have supportive friends that are there for ya.  I think I'll get me some yoplait light tomorrow.  That sounds delicious!  Powerade zero, I haven't tried that yet but I will.  Writing it down helps me and the fact that I keep telling myself I can do this and I will do this.

there is 2 kinds of powerade zero i like, one is strawberry, and the other one is blue colored, lol, I think it is berry flavored, they are good, also have you tried the fuze slenderize?  they are my favorite drinks