ONE YEAR LATER..............
Hi Everybody,
I got a one year reminder from the website so decided to fill you in on my journey. First of all, I hate to admit that the lap band has not worked very well for me. Or more truthfully, I haven't worked the band. I have lost 25 lbs since I got the band in June of 2007. That's right, 25 lbs. I'm tempted to say, is that all? or I'm a failure... but I won't. I choose to look at it as, "that's 25 lbs less than I was last year at this time....Now!! I don't have high blood pressure, diabetes, and all my other lab work is normal, however, I have been having a time with arthritis flare ups. Not all the time, but enough to get on my nerves.
The lap band stops me from eating too much at one time, but, I can eat alot over a period of time and that's what I've been doing. It doesn't mentally stop me from overeating. It doesn't force me to make healthy food choices. I also drink alcoholic beverages which keeps the weight on. At one point, I had 8 cc in a 10 cc band and I was losing good. Problem was, I had GERD and couldn't sleep lying down because my food would come up. Even if I stopped eating early in the day, something would still come up. Dr Geller gave me the barium swallow test and discovered that my stomach has bubbled over the band because it was too tight so he took a whole cc out. I was instantly relieved but needless to say, I could eat more and did. Right now, I'm at about 7 cc and I can eat quite a bit. For example, I can eat a whole sandwich at one sitting. It may take me 45 minutes but I get it down. I'm just not making good food choices. I eat any and everything I want, and more than I should. I've gotten food stuck and thrown up too many times to count, but even that hasn't stopped me.
I was exercising faithfully, which was really helping me lose inches, but the arthritis slowed that down. I can't blame anyone but myself. I've seen the band work for hundreds of people, so I know it works. I'm just not doing my part and it's a shame that I went through all that to get it, and now am not taking advantage of it. I refuse to beat myself up though.
Food is my drug a choice. I'm an addict. And addiction is a sickness, so I know, it's not my fault. It's the sickness. However, I want to get well, mentally and physically. Through this journey I've come to realize that I need to do alot of work on the inside in order for it to show on the outside. No surgery, diets, or Drs, is going to fix what's wrong on the inside. So I say to all you OAers out there, don't be discouraged by my story. It's not over yet........I still have hope and faith that I will get well.
Don't compare yourself to me. Your journey will be different. Just keep the faith and love yourself unconditionally, fat, failure and all. YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!!! UNTIL NEXT TIME, CARPE DIEM!!!
QUEEN DENEEN
I got a one year reminder from the website so decided to fill you in on my journey. First of all, I hate to admit that the lap band has not worked very well for me. Or more truthfully, I haven't worked the band. I have lost 25 lbs since I got the band in June of 2007. That's right, 25 lbs. I'm tempted to say, is that all? or I'm a failure... but I won't. I choose to look at it as, "that's 25 lbs less than I was last year at this time....Now!! I don't have high blood pressure, diabetes, and all my other lab work is normal, however, I have been having a time with arthritis flare ups. Not all the time, but enough to get on my nerves.
The lap band stops me from eating too much at one time, but, I can eat alot over a period of time and that's what I've been doing. It doesn't mentally stop me from overeating. It doesn't force me to make healthy food choices. I also drink alcoholic beverages which keeps the weight on. At one point, I had 8 cc in a 10 cc band and I was losing good. Problem was, I had GERD and couldn't sleep lying down because my food would come up. Even if I stopped eating early in the day, something would still come up. Dr Geller gave me the barium swallow test and discovered that my stomach has bubbled over the band because it was too tight so he took a whole cc out. I was instantly relieved but needless to say, I could eat more and did. Right now, I'm at about 7 cc and I can eat quite a bit. For example, I can eat a whole sandwich at one sitting. It may take me 45 minutes but I get it down. I'm just not making good food choices. I eat any and everything I want, and more than I should. I've gotten food stuck and thrown up too many times to count, but even that hasn't stopped me.
I was exercising faithfully, which was really helping me lose inches, but the arthritis slowed that down. I can't blame anyone but myself. I've seen the band work for hundreds of people, so I know it works. I'm just not doing my part and it's a shame that I went through all that to get it, and now am not taking advantage of it. I refuse to beat myself up though.
Food is my drug a choice. I'm an addict. And addiction is a sickness, so I know, it's not my fault. It's the sickness. However, I want to get well, mentally and physically. Through this journey I've come to realize that I need to do alot of work on the inside in order for it to show on the outside. No surgery, diets, or Drs, is going to fix what's wrong on the inside. So I say to all you OAers out there, don't be discouraged by my story. It's not over yet........I still have hope and faith that I will get well.
Don't compare yourself to me. Your journey will be different. Just keep the faith and love yourself unconditionally, fat, failure and all. YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!!! UNTIL NEXT TIME, CARPE DIEM!!!
QUEEN DENEEN
What you believe, you can achieve!!
Qween,
I am working with my band but do realize that it would be easy to not do so. I am almost a year out but I am determined to get to my goal. When you decide that you have a goal you are going to achieve you will seize the day. I too wish you the best.. Take care,
Z
I am working with my band but do realize that it would be easy to not do so. I am almost a year out but I am determined to get to my goal. When you decide that you have a goal you are going to achieve you will seize the day. I too wish you the best.. Take care,
Z
With 
I will succeed.
HW: 280 - LW: 190 - GW - 180
Unfilled 8/15/11 - WT: 209
1st Fill 11/29/11 - WT: 215.5 - 3cc
2/20/12 - New Goal - Get n Onederland
2nd Fill 4/26/12 - WT: 224.0 - 3cc
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