Scared to death, may back out, date is aug 17,2007

Help, im scared to death, worrying constantly, have no support, dont know if im doing the right thing or not. what if i have the surgery.....AND LIVE THRU IT....what then, ive never been able to consistantly stick to a diet before, what makes me think i can with this. will i try to sabotage myself, my insurance wont pay for it and im taking the money out of my 401k, am i throwing it away?? please help julie

Hey Julie, what u r feeling is normal and we all feel that way before surgery. Before my gastric bypass I'd been overweight all my life and had never been able to lose at all. I'd never had major surgery. I chose open instead of the lap and that scared me. I had all the "what if's" too. The what if I don't make it, I have a lil girl, a hubby a stepson, I was scared to pieces but my desire to lose weight was stronger. The morning of surgery I went in and was scared, nervous, and most of all EXCITED! I can't tell u in words just how awesome it is to be able to actually lose weight, to keep it off. I have ppl I used to know that have no idea who I am now when they see me and its awesome. I feel great. I have so much energy that its not funny. I have so much more confidence in myself. My self esteem used to be non existent and I have loads of self esteem now. U r the only one who can make this decision, search your heart. One of the things that helped me decide is that I had a great surgeon, I knew I could trust him. I have so much faith in God. My surgeon also gave me the option of getting a vena cava filter and that made me feel alot safer too. If u need to chat email me or messenger me anytime. Hugs and Best Wishes Angela R email [email protected] messenger [email protected]

Hey Julie I think we all feel that way . This time you have great tool. You can do it....

Julie, I am scheduled for RNY on Aug 21st, and i am also scared but i am very excited.  I am determined to make this work for me.  If you are willing to pay out of pocket then that tells me that you are at a point in your life that you realize that something has to be done.  I decided that no matter what happens and even if i am sick constantly it cannot be any worse than i feel now but that i will be able to breathe and walk without my back, hips, knees hurting.  Stop and remember the reasons that you decided to pursue this lifestyle change. 
There is nothing that can make me back out!!!!  We can keep in touch and help each other since our surgeries will be close and also you live close to me as well!!! Good Luck with your choice. 

 

Deanna

Hi Julie,  It is a scary thing and you being a nurse have heard and seen everything.  You also have seen what obesity does to a body.  It seems that all things are worse if we are obese.  I have said all along this surgery can't change our genes but by doing this surgery it may change our future.  You are right it can fail but it won't.  This is not a diet its a tool.  Your body will let you know when you try to sabotage it.  I didn't have everybody at first supporting me but when the weight starts coming off and everyone see you are ok, these people become your cheerleaders.  Your husband doesn't want you to not be healthy he is just scared of the unknown.  Having my surgery has changed my life.  I am now an active healthy women.  I can play, work out, clean my house all day if I choose, but most the time I don't choose that.  Just think of your children.  Having a healthy mom is what is important.  Its not the easy way out at all.  It is a life long comittment.  Hang in there.  Look at the before and after pictures.  Find people who are your weight and see how well they look at goal.  Don't cancel yet. 

Jane

HI Thanks so much for your encouragement. I start the 2week pre-op diet on saturday, if i can make it thru it i probably wont cancel, but i am afraid. Its in Gods hands, Its a shame what some people have to go thru to have a normal life....then others dont even have to worry about their weight. I know we all have crosses to bare. Right now Im waiting on my flight to Dallas for the Mary Kay Seminar, and i finally have time to respond, please forgive me for not writing sooner. Pray for me and I will keep you in my prayers julie

Julie, you aren't alone in this.  All of us who have had WLS have struggled with some of the same questions you're dealing with.

Just do as well as you can on the pre-op diet.  Don't use the word failure NO MATTER WHAT.  The only real failure is when you stop trying! I had my surgery a year ago on August 16 and have had a great year.  I've averaged about a pound a week, which is slow loss, but it's LOSS!  I haven't had much support and have had to encourage myself when I got disheartened.  But you can do it.  And you'll be making a step toward better health and potentially longer, better life. Life with the band is not really a diet.  Once you get restriction (which can take months), your band will make you feel full with a small amount of food.  You'll be amazed at how little food it takes to keep you happy!  It's a wonderful tool. Blessings, Kathy

Well, I can honestly say ive had the worst weekend of my life,  All my life ive sought the favor of my father (who didnt raise me), my worst fear was loosing him or his love, and this weekend i did. Its a long story, but it was MORTIFYING! so afterward i drove my car, crying, 30 miles to london ky and went thru white castles drive thru and was going to eat myself happy.  i am on the liquid diet right now as a preop for my surgery this friday, and i guess my stomach has shrunk because i could only eat 2 sandwiches. since then ive stopped crying, and been true to my diet, only to find that i lost the check for $5000.00 that was to pay my surgeon with. so ive been thru the trash...twice, and thru this house a dozen times, thinking this MUST BE A SIGN. but thank heaven i finally found the check, my daughter put it in a drawer, so if the drama is over i think i'll go to bed, i have to work tonight. keep me in your prayers. julie