Panicked and Backed Out of Surgery This Morning

Well, I panicked REAL bad and backed out of surgery this morning.  I can't believe I did that. I have went through so much to have the surgery - I had such a HORRIBLE feeling and dread and something in my mind kept saying "do not have this surgery" , so I went with my gut instinct and backed out. I would like to thank everyone of you that has read my posts and responded and encouraged me. It's very hard for me to post this message - I was so excited to finally have the surgery - but when I get a feeling that bad about something, I have learned to listen to my instinct - I can't explain it, it is just something I have, my mom had it also.

I want to take this opportunity to thank each and every one of you that has encouraged me this entire time and supported me. I know I have to do something about my weight, now I just have to figure out how to make a life change that I have not been able to do before. Blessings to all of you. Janice

u are really brave and u did what u had to do so u did the right thing and maybe u  change ur mind i we will always be here for u no matter what u do  hugs tina

I am sorry, but you have to do with what feels right .Good Luck.

Janice, you did what you had to do.  Do not beat your self up over it. Now was just not your time.  When that time comes you will do what you must do. I had you in my prayers today and still do. If you still want to keep in touch I would love it. Maybe  you need to rethink about the band instead of bypass. Good luck with your new job. Hang in there girl it will come togeather for you. Write soon.

Don't beat yourself up over it.  I have had similiar experiences with doctors myself.  I was going to have a hysterectomy but something didn't feel right about the doctor.  I backed out and never went back to that doctor again.  I felt much better with my decision.  Through the years, I have learned to listen to my body.  I get really strong feelings about certain things and either I do them or not.  For example, when I was pregnant with my daughter, I wanted to have a VBACK (vaginal birth after cesearian), the doctors on my health insurance plan all wanted to take her by c-section in July, 1988.  They said that both she and I would die if I did not have this surgery.  I received quite a few, "Best of Luck, you are no longer our patient" letters.  I knew that I had gotten pregnant in December.  I also believed that my body could do what it was designed to do.  After a month traveling at 8 months, my daughter was born naturally on September 19, 1988.  She would have been premature if they had taken her in July.  I think that doctors need to understand that we are not "patients", we are consumers.  We should be treated as such. Well, after all of my rambling, my thought is this, perhaps it is the doctor.  Sometimes, you just don't click. God Bless and good luck in the future. RJ

Janice,  you did the right thing for the moment..I agree maybe the instinct you felt was that sign of not connecting properly with the doc or staff..not to say he did anything wrong..but it just has to fit like a puzzle..if it kinda fits it isn't right..and time to rethink. If you decide to go through this again at any point..please contact me and lets talk..if you would like to talk now , then contact me.   You did not fail by making this decision..this is a very personal one and you made the choice that was right for you..feel very good about having the strength to do just that. You don't have to disappear ya know..you are still very much one of us.. Brenda