Scared...

Amanda, I found it ironic that you posted something that a few days before you did, I was going to too. I got to reading the memorial page too and found myself spending the entire night crying and fearing for my hubbies life as well as my own. But then I got to thinking about not doing the surgery, this amazing thing happend, I remembered that my chances of a healthy and happy life on the road I am currently on, is non-existant. When I weighed the risks of doing something good against something that is currently bad, I realize this is the right decision for me. That and my personal relationship with God and Christ; I am putting it all in HIS hands. There is so much information to weigh in on and to remember and it does get tedious at times to keep it all in order. (what to eat, how much, mind vs. matter; etc) The thing is, when I really got to reading those posts, there were a lot of them that died from reasons not even closely related to surgery. I suppose you'll have to weigh your own pros and cons in making a decision which is right for you. For me, it's to push ahead and make this best out of this tool that can actually give me a life pain and disease free. It's going to be work, ain't no doubt about that, but it's gonna be an edge. An edge that I've never had before with traditional diets. If you'd like to talk, please feel free to email me at [email protected] I'd need support too and maybe we can help each other out! Try and take care-- Dee