Time to confess!

Hello, I just wanted to let everyone know that I am still around and have not posted in awhile, but still reading each and every word of all the wonderful stories. I wanted to let everyone know that I was scheduled for surgery on Aug 22 ,03... and yes I backed out , guess I just did not feel ready to make that final jump to the other side. But on a lighter note.... I have rescheduled and will be having open RNY Dec.22, 03 in Junction City. I am ready now and have no second thoughts..just of few now and then , but nothing like before..I am ready..you guys all are very supportive with your personal posts. I hope soon I will be joining all of you on the other side.

Michelle, Your story is sooooooo much like mine....I was scheduled also for surgery in August of this year. I wanted to go to JC but my ins. was a problem so I was headed to the LivLite program in PA....but I just flat chickened out.....it was soooooo far from home and I just couldn't imagine flying home after major surgery so I cancelled. Now I'm scheduled just 4 days before you......in Topeka. Personally, backing out was the best choice I could have made...I just wasn't ready and this HAS to be something you're ready for. Now, like you, i'm ready. God bless you on your journey.... Jenni

Jenni, I think I remember reading your post about going out of state, that would of been hard...but who knows people do it all the time. I am glad you made the choice to wait. I checked into having it done in Topeka also...I really wanted it done Lap. The Dr. I dealt with was so nice, he e-mailed me back personality, said he doesnt do surgery on people that are farther out then 3 or 4 hours from him...But he said he would work with me if that was what I really wanted to do. Once again I chose to wait, something just kept telling me that the best place for me would be Junction City, when I was ready. I feel very at ease that I am having it done there, I am just worried about the little things I guess (nothing to do with the hospital or Dr.'s). It is such a roller coaster of nerves right now..one mintue I am so excited then the next its like I am at the end of my life. I know deep down it will get better, and I will have what I have always wished for in my life. Keep in touch with me and let me know how things are going. I know time will fly between now and then, I am going to Denver to pick up my mom she will be staying with me to help out with the children, I am hoping I will be so busy that I won't have time to stop and try to figure out what I am fearing the most actully this time I don't EVEN want to know what fears me, I just want to get on with it, guess I am to the point that I am tired of the waiting game. Sorry this is so long.... Good Luck, Michelle

Michelle...I'm really proud of you for pullin' up your bootstraps and doin' this for yourself. IT'S WORTH IT!!!!! BIG HUGS Deanna K

Thanks Deanna... You are such a big inspiration to me. You look awsome, you deserve to take a . I hope I can do as well as you have. Thanks, Michelle