Time to plug back in....

Hey everyone!  As you know, I haven't been on OH for quite some time.  However, I KNOW it is time to plug back in before I lose all control.
I am almost 2 years out.  I started at 375 and got to 220 at my lowest.  I have mainted the 220 for about 6 months.  Then things in my life took an ugly turn and I turned to food.
I've been having a lot of health issues and a lot of stress in my life.  In the last month I have gained 8 lbs.  I  am compulsively eating Reeses Pieces?  I don't know why.  I never really liked them before.  Now I can't get enough of them.  I realized one week that it had been 3 days since I had anything to eat BUT Reeses'.  I just kept snacking on them and didn't get hungry.  I'm eating crap all the time.  I've been able to stay away from bread and pasta for the most part.  But I'm not taking my vitamins, drinking my protein or water and haven't moved enough in MONTHS.
Everyday I say tomorrow is going to be different.  But then it comes and I can't seem to get a grip.  I know that I am headed in the WRONG direction so I decided it was time to plug back in.  No more acting like my body is like everyone elses.  I refuse to have gone through all of this just to gain it all back.  NO WAY. Not to mention, I know I am eating so much it has to be stretching my pouch.  But I just keep doing it.  Lately, Ive been having some odd feelings and pain and think I might have a small hernia.  SO.....Here I am.
Tonight I am going to plug back into the this site.  Tomorrow morning I am going to call the docsand dieticians and get my ass back down there.  Going to look for a local support group to attend ASAP.  But I knew if I came back on here and confessed my falling off the wagon it would help.  It's always helped for me to be "surrounded" by people who are trying to live the same life I have to now that I have altered insides.  Ya know?  I know that some of my feeling bad HAS to be my own neglect.  Not getting my vitamins, protein or water!  I could just continue to sit in my life and feel badly about losing control....but that doesn't seem to be working.  Plus, that same self loathing and negative talk is what got me to nearly 400lbs.  ENOUGH.
So, I'm back.
Anyone have any suggestions or words of wisdom?

I need to re focus too.  I am having the TT tomorrow but I have gained about 7-9 pounds since Lyn died in Sept.  I was on vacation last week and ate dessert everytime it came with our meal.  Ive been eating fast food since I work on the road it is so easy to go thru the drive thru instead of cooking just for me which I hate.  I also have lost too mu*****luding Lyn to mess this up.  Kick me into getting on track too.

Terry

Me too!!!   Me too!!!  Me too!!!

I am living my life the way I always have...waking up each day and saying today will be the day I start a diet...and by lunch time that is over.   ugh ugh ugh.

I know the solution is simple, protein water and exercise, I just can't seem to get focused.  My doc keeps telling me that almost all people who lose weight and are able to maintain that loss are the same people who add exercise to their lives.  She told me I will have to walk 3 miles a day to maintain my weight loss for life.  I continue to make excuses to not walk. 

Jeannie

It must be going around!!  Since Daddy died, I havent been eating right.  I have missed my vitamins, my protein, my calcium.... and I have been wanting to curl up and sleep waaayyyy to much.

I say we all jump start this whole process by being accountable to each other on the board here.  We need the daily check in again and to just make sure we are all hanging in there.

Terry, best of luck with your TT hot momma!!!

I am so ready for summer and we all need to get our acts together... together!!!

Huge hugz,
Tracy

Thanks for sharing with me ladies.  I lost my Dad in Sept.  I had just had foot surgery and so my training was going to be a little different and that slowed down.  Then I hung in there until Christmas...and then everything just went down hill.  I got on the scales this morning and it had a number I thought I would NEVER see again.  I know it's not a LOT of weight but it is enough to make me 16's tight.  I don't want that.  So, we are all going to get our asses in GEAR!  I'm going to go get a protein shake NOW. I've already had my first dose of calcium.

Jen,  congrats on taking it serious and jumping on the wagon again with both feet!!  I think all things considered, you have been through alot and its hard to get back going.  But YOU CAN DO IT!!!  I am doing better today with my food choices and I took my vitamins this morning so its calium this afternoon and protein shake tonight.  I hope you know I am here for you any time.  Just text me!!!   Our support group meets tomorrow night at the Y in Marion.  You are more than welcome to join us.  It's small but we are very good to help each other out!  I would love to see ya!!

Huge hugz,
Tracy