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Sorry for not posting or getting your phone calls answered Melissa. I appreciate you checking on me. Life has been very busy--we got home from the hospital Friday night. Lyn has not been good. He sleeps so much and very seldom do I see those big brown eyes. Even though he is trying to sleep he needs suctioning so much, many many times a day. His breathing is very irregular and the last 2 days it seems he is really breathing hard. Yesterday his O2 saturation was at 83% with his oxygen on. I turned the oxygen up and got it up to 90. He is just wearing himself out breathing.
Last night was bad and I really have this feeling he is just going to wear himself out trying to breath and will just be too tired to go on. He hs no temperature and is still getting the IV antibiotics here at home. I thought about taking him back to the hospital but I am not sure as I am afraid they will just put him on a vent if that is what I want. I know if and when something happens I would like him at home knowing that is what he would want.
It has been 6 months today since this happened. I just feel him slipping away. Like he is too tired to fight much longer. Hopefully I am wrong and he will get over this and feel like fighting again. This last 3 weeks full of infections has really taken a toll on him.
Thanks so much for your love and prayers.
Terry
Last night was bad and I really have this feeling he is just going to wear himself out trying to breath and will just be too tired to go on. He hs no temperature and is still getting the IV antibiotics here at home. I thought about taking him back to the hospital but I am not sure as I am afraid they will just put him on a vent if that is what I want. I know if and when something happens I would like him at home knowing that is what he would want.
It has been 6 months today since this happened. I just feel him slipping away. Like he is too tired to fight much longer. Hopefully I am wrong and he will get over this and feel like fighting again. This last 3 weeks full of infections has really taken a toll on him.
Thanks so much for your love and prayers.
Terry
Big Hugs for you Terry, I wish was there to give you a big hugs myself, and tell Lyn that he needs to show us those big beautiful greogous brown eyes. Please let me know if there is anything I can do.
I understand to a point of what you are going through, it is alot of the same things I went through with my sister.
My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.
Hugs
Peggy
I understand to a point of what you are going through, it is alot of the same things I went through with my sister.
My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.
Hugs
Peggy
Terry,
Remember Steel Magnolias? That's what I can't help thinking about. The world thinks men are the strong ones, and maybe physically they are. But, us women carry the world's emotional burdens, it seems like. I know you're probably physically exhausted too, but I suspect the mental strain is the hardest. For me, I could keep going day and night for Maggie and Mikey this spring, but sometimes the feelings just overwhelmed me to the point I couldn't anymore.
Fellow strong woman, we can do this.
(((((hugs)))))
Remember Steel Magnolias? That's what I can't help thinking about. The world thinks men are the strong ones, and maybe physically they are. But, us women carry the world's emotional burdens, it seems like. I know you're probably physically exhausted too, but I suspect the mental strain is the hardest. For me, I could keep going day and night for Maggie and Mikey this spring, but sometimes the feelings just overwhelmed me to the point I couldn't anymore.
Fellow strong woman, we can do this.
(((((hugs)))))
You all cannot begin to know how much your love and support mean to me. I know I can always count on my OH family. The hugs and love I have received at the clothing exchanges and the Holiday World trip has done me a world of good.
Melissa and others who have been worried about me--sorry I haven't called you back. I have really been busy but that is really no excuse as I guess the real reason part of the time is that these last few days have been hard and I know that if I hear a friendly voice I am probably gonna start bawling. I have done so good to be so strong but I can feel myself wearing down.
There have been so many on this board that has suffered losses this year. It is really unbelievable that in a group as small as ours there have been so many. You have all reached out to me in spite of what you are all going thru and it means so much.
I was so happy to finally meet Linda V at the clothing exchange. Although she and her family had been in my thoughts and prayers for months I am sorry that I was not able to offer the kind of support I should have. Linda was such a help to me----she gave me so much love and support at the exchange even after what she has gone thru she gave lots of good advice and encouragement. So Linda just remember that you were able to help a friend in need because of what you have gone thru.
Just wanted to say thanks and that I can definately feel your cyber hugs and love. Bear with me as we continue this journey.
Love you all---Terry
Terry, thank you so much for posting! I was really worried. I'm sorry that Lyn is not doing well and I hope and pray that he turns around and begins fighting again. I'm sure his body is just worn out, as anyone's would be, that had been through so much in the past 6 months.
Honey, I send my hugs through the miles and know that I cry with you while I read your post. Hang in there and give me a call if/when you are ready to talk.
Melissa
Honey, I send my hugs through the miles and know that I cry with you while I read your post. Hang in there and give me a call if/when you are ready to talk.
Melissa
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