Bummed!!

I really don't know why I am so bummed lately. Maybe it was the broken nose and sore body from my fall almost 2 wks ago but, my goodness I am still stiff and sore and although the nose is looking great, I have been feeling crappy! I haven't been eating good and I couldn't make it through my first day on the 5 day diet

I don't like feeling like this! All I do is go home and lay in bed. Maybe do some dishes and clean a bit. Lord know, my house needs it since my son, his girlfriend, my grandson and their dog moved in.

I just can't get motivated to do anything. I wi**** would stop raining because I can't get out in the yard.

I know I am just being a big whiney cry baby but, man oh man I am in a slump and so far down I am looking up to see light!

Sorry, I just wanted to vent and I am so afraid I am failing on my weight loss because I am into bad habits and I am only 10 months out!!  It is real scary to realize that I could fail after all of this and the surgery and now what? I let myself down again like all the other times? Man, it is just so hard to rise above. I better end this now or I will just rant and rave on....... 

Johnna,  first of all... huge hugs!!!

I hit the same point and did the same thing.  But you have to stop beating yourself up over your slip ups.  You need to focus on the smaller picture for a while to get back on track.  Take it one small step at a time.   Do you do your measurements?  It is a real motivator for me when everything else seems to be gloomy.  One thing in group that we had a session on was call NON Scale Victories.  That is measuring your success in other ways rather than the scales.  You need to journal your non scale victories so you can find a positive when you are having a slump like this.  For instance, one of mine was jogging for the first time since 1982!!!  Another was being able to paint my own toenails.  Little things add up to big success.  Dont focus on the things that make you feel like a failure.  You have come so far.  You will pull thru this and move foward.  Just know that you everyone hits a slump but its up to you to pull yourself up by the boot straps and make it thru.  YOU CAN DO THIS!!

Huge hugs,
Tracy
 

I understand ya... Life gets hard sometimes and we tend to get over welmed and bad habits and comfort food is easy to turn to than well displined structured eatting and exercise patterns.. and I KNOW about feeling whiney..and needing to rant and rave..

So rant and rave, feel sorry for yourself and then get back up on that horse and start again... You are not a failure unless you just quit trying. Life is full of bummers but we have to keep trying...

I am only saing this as a self reflection because grabbing a cookie instead of a handful of turkey peperoni chips has become a habit lately for me. I have been sitting with my dieing sister before work to give my neice a break...

Good luck to us both in getting back. WE can do it!!

Linda Kay

Thank you Tracy and Linda, you have so much your dealing with too. I didn't get to be almost 48 yrs old without knowing what I need to do and I have fallen and gotten back up so many times. I have always been one that deals with mental stress great but, I feel so old and tired sometimes and just as soon as I get my energy back and am feeling great something happens to knock me back down (or I fall on my NOSE). And well, we are having major money problems although both of us work fulltime. He changed jobs recently and makes less than he did so it really does hurt financially but, I know he is starting his career in accounting and it will only move up from here. He is doing so good at this new job. I get bored at mine because all I do is sit and answer the phone as a receptionist and lately the phone doesn't reing a whole lot. Business has gone down! So, I am bored and nothing to do for 8 hours a day watching the clock and getting online at what ever sites I can that they haven't blocked here at work. At least I can come be here with my friends.
I've had a lot of changes recently and they have taken their toll. I wish I had the money and time to just go somewhere and stay at some hotel, boarded up for about 5 days and just lay in bed and sleep like cinderella. Of course that wouldn't change anything and I feel so guilty complainging when I am lucky and have no real reason to complain. I wonder if my anti-depressant isn't working well anymore. I changed from lexapro to celexa and it seemed to help but, can't really tell anymore.
Ho-Hum  

Maybe your meds need an increase.  You might want to call your PCP and see if you can get that checked.  Also maybe your vitamin levels are off.  B12 and B1 are supposed to give you energy,  You mentioned bruising... maybe you are annemic.  You would be tired from that as well.  I think I would be having them check on some of those issues. 

I just had my annual blood draw for the first time.  I had to do 9 tubes!!!  Vampires leave more for their victims!!!  I felt like I was on TWILIGHT without the hot guy,  LOL

Huge hugs,  Hope you feel better soon.
T

Oh Johnna Sweetie!!!
I hate to see you so bummed....
but girl..
look at yourself!!!! you have come a long way baby and you have worked hard for this...
so to quote those geniuses in music baby girl...
"dont stop believinnnnnnnnnnnn
hold on to that feeeeelinnnnnnnnnnnnnnn"
and be damned glad im not singing that to you in person....
hugs and much love sweetie!!!
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Hey there! Lady, you sound depressed. I know you said you were switched from Lexapro to celexa. You know they're essentially the same drug? Celexa is just the older version of it. When the patent ran out, they tweaked the formula ever so slightly, to create Lexapro, and hence they had a new patented drug. Talk to your doc about feeling like this. Maybe you need a totally different med. If that's unappealling, look into talk therapy maybe? I know money's tight, many places offer sliding fee scales. Talk therapy can be just as effective as meds in treating depression, and the two combined are shown to be most effective.
I think just about all of us are worried about failing at this wls thing. It seems like the last resort, and if we fail at it, what else do we do? Unfortunately, most of us have failed so many times at trying to lose weight, that our brain works in failure mode. We're waiting silently for that to happen. We need to be positive and put the brain into success mode. I CAN DO THIS. I WILL DO THIS. HEY LOOK I ACTUALLY AM DOING THIS. We'll make it together!

You are so right Linda, thanks. My talk therapy is here with you guys (no money available for any other type right now), you guys are the best and we all help to communicate, celebrate and console each other. I guess I just need a lil TLC. It's so wonderful being a woman when you let everything ride on your shoulders and play the balancing act until, we feel badly and then its like, "why do I feel this way?". There are always many reasons and mine are just bogging me down right now. You really hit the nail on the head when you said that WLS is like a last resort and if we fail at it then what else do we do? It is scary to say the least. I need to find a way out of my slump and pick my butt up off the floor. It keep****ting my ankle anyway! (you think I'm joking? I mean it) LOL. 
I will think of the little train that could when I think of you Linda... " I think I can! I think I can! ".
Maybe a long bubble bath tonight with soothing music and I will call the doc tomorrow and ask about the anti-depressant. I think that is a good place to start.

you know whats funny about talk therapy? Well, anytime I go in to talk to a counselor or have in the past, I immediately am composed and assume my role of being ok. It's like I can't lose control. I would love to go to one of those seminars where you can wear your sweats and get big air inflated bats to be able to hit things and release all the stress and energy in your body. I've seen something years ago about it. Some sort of Body Release Spa where you could go and detox your mind and body. I think we hold so much in these days and just try to deal because what else can we do? The world is in deep hardship right now with the economy and weather and beside all of that we have our personal hardships, each and every one of us and some of us even harder than others. You, sweet Linda know all about that. Many on here have such tragedys (as there are in life) and they are all so endearing to each other. People need people and thats why we exist to be here and have people to relate to us. I am thankful for you all *****mind me of the goodness in life.
How does one just stop and be thank ful for each day when we have fear and doubt of the unknown in our lives. One step at a time is the only way to pursue tomorrow. I am confident tomorrow will be a better day.
Thanks for your ear girl!!