Need Swift Kick in the Rear!

Okay I am posting and asking for some support for the first time since surgery.

Yesterday and today especially I have had the big meltdowns.  I am having  those emotions that I remember you guys all told me I would get.  I am  second guessing my decision.  And I am sooooooo hungry.  I know that I am not really and that it is head hunger but it has gotten worse today.  Today has been the best day as far as getting my liquids and protein.

It doesn't help that I am having trouble with my vitamins.  They just won't digest well.  So I thought I would give them a couple of more days than try it again.

My husband has been such a trooper.  He knows how miserable I have been since last night.  He keeps reminding me that I made the right decision and each day will get better.

I stepped on the scales today and I have not lost one pound.  Needless to say that did not help the situation.

I am sorry for being a big baby and pouting.  But I thought posting might keep my mind off the horrible day that I am having.

Sweetie, I am here to tell you it gets better.  Within the first week or two after surgery, I think I was in tears more often than not.  Our hormones are in a constant state of flux - as we burn fat cells, the estrogen trapped in them is released.  I have had more freakin' zits than I ever had as a teenager!  Not to mention semi-permanent PMS...!  LOL

Sometimes I had to take it 5 minutes at a time, rather than a day at a time.  I've been where you are. 

I'm only 3 months out myself, but I'm down 64 pounds.  Dr. Evanson is a doll!!  Today at the bowling FUNdraiser, I wore a size 16 sweater.  The top I wore to the hospital the day of my surgery was a size 26-28.   I tell you this so that you will know there is light at the end of the tunnel - and it's definitely not an oncoming train!  Hang in there!

That first couple of weeks was so emotional for me too. You aren't being a baby and you can pout all you want to.  You have been through major surgery and you need to give yourself time to heal.  You are not alone and you will get through this. Seems like everything was just amplified for me in those early days out. All the food commercials on tv... the smell of what my family was eating.  Knowing I had altered my body surgically because of my food addiction and bad habits.  I was so angry at myself for letting it all get so bad.  Feeling "icky" because all this was so new...and having no way to soothe myself.  Because I would normally soothe myself with food!!
Write down what you are feeling.  Start a blog. That helped me alot. And write down all the reasons you wanted to have this surgery in the first place. Keep those thoughts formost in your mind. And think of the results you will have!!  I am 5 months out and have lost 98 pounds!! I used to wear a size 24-26 and am now in 14-16!!  Just keep thinking how much better you are going to feel.  Keep working on the emotions and learn new coping skills.  Go to the library and find some good books that deal with food addiction. 
Know that you aren't alone in this.  I can give you my email and my cell number if you would like them. Sometimes it just helps to talk to someone who has been there.  You can do this!  And you will be successful!!

Sounds all too familiar....YUP everybody knows exactly what you are talking about! You are completely normal. Heck you are only 1 week out. Girlfriend, It took me a  week just to get the 25 pounds of water weight from surgery off of me. NOt even kidding about that either. The main thing is getting a schedule set and sticking to it. Work on getting it in but you prolly won't for a couple weeks but you have to try. It will get easier and you will way better in a week and then even way more better in another.( do you like my english. lol)

Hang in there and don't weigh more than once a day, cause I know you are.LOL!

Hi,
I am saying ditto to all of the responses- it will get better!!!! It took me 3 weeks to get rid of the water weight. Hang in there, you are going to do great!!!!

Beth., I cried so much after surgery. I thought I'm starving and I can't eat. I couldn't get my fluids or my protein in. You're doing so very well!!  The emotional part of it does pass, just hang in there. The head hunger will stop. When your head says you're hungry, tell it you're not and drink some water. The weight will come off soon enough too. Your body is just now saying, "Hey, what in the He** did you just do to me? Where's the foods I love and why in the world are you pouring so much fluid into me?" You're not being a big baby, we all have had those moments. Call me tomorrow if you need to chat. I'll be home from some hospital testing in the early afternoon.

Melissa

hey!  how are you feeling?

I was there a week out too.  I did end up going to my PCP and getting started on an antidepressant for the mood swings.  Its been about 3 weeks and I feel better.

The hunger does get better.  I felt starved for the first few weeks, and also questioned my decision.  It takes time.

As my dietician told me, I 'm a newborn.  You are just a week or more old, and you have to learn this new life.  It is frustrating, but once you start to see the pounds drop, you know its worth it. 

I'm 6 weeks out, 47 lbs down, and still having some struggles, but there is a light at the end of tunnel!!

Good Luck!