LOSERS are the best of the best

let me say it..your all awesome...some of you i have to learn who you are....but i know your awesome and yet how many friends and family say you have changed? i do not feel i changed at all, in so far as my weight loss....others changed though...now, someone may hold the door  open...where as before they would not have been able to shut it fast enough...when you go out to eat and are asked time and time again is the food ok...it is like hey leave me alone...where as before doubt they would have asked....people no longer look through you..

then look...at that reflection in the doors or windows or a mirror it is still over 4 years later and some weight gain...who is that person.....lol...look at the size you need and you think no how no way is that going on my rump....and lo and behold it did....yahooooooo awesome.

and what else use to those plus size clothes i always saw in the regular area what i wanted...now in the plus size i see all sorts of things...not sure what is up with that, but i see color and things i would wear..but then too as an obese person that orange i may have thought i would look like a jack o lantern...

i am on my way to lose these 25 pounds i have gained and not doing very well so i have got to jump back on the fence and i have some yogurt and cheese sticks and my shrimp and back to behaving i am.....i was in some 10's now some of my 14's are to tight so thats a sure sign..plus of all people ed asked me if i have gained all my weight back...i was 293 pounds.....and in 24 -26's and still have 12's and 14's i wear i ain't buying any bigger i want back into some of those 10's where i was happy....

Thanks for reading my ramble

You've made the most IMPORTANT step already by admitting you've put on some of the weight you've lost AND you want to bid it farewell again.

Go back to the basics, weight/measure, walk or workout, reach out for help and hit a support group meeting if you haven't recently and KEEP posting and reading the stuff posted because I honestly believe this is the BEST support tool a girl could have!

You CAN do this - you've done it before and you ARE strong enough to do it again!!

Huggs,
Frankie

oh yeah and i know some that have gained every pound back too and then some...and i am not going there....to hard to get there.......and i know i have the tool...now i still do good to eat  8 oz at one time...but pretzels..carbs

You have done so well, so don't beat yourself up over the weight gain as long as you recognize it and put the brakes on it before it and you get way out of control.  You mentioned that you don't feel like you have changed.  When people ask me what I wish I could have known before I started this weight loss journey, I tell them How very difficult the emotional changes are.  I have just started my profile but I have posted a huge milestone in change that just happened in Jan 2009 and I am over 8 years post op.  Some changes are very obvious and others are very subtle and  take their own sweet time to reveal themselves to you.  Then you have a big WOW moment.  

I don't know what your BMI is for your height, but regardless of your clothes size, are you still within your BMI?  You don't have to answer this publicly. I ask this because some of us focus too much on wanting to be a certain size, rather than a healthy BMI.  I am guilty of doing this myself.  I lost mose weight then I expected too and found myself in a size 6.  6 was not my goal but once I got there I was elated.  But not such supportive people said I was too skinny and I looked sick.  I wanted people to leave me alone.  Before they were telling me I was too fat, now I'm too skinny!  The last 6 years I have put on just enough weight that my body seems to have found it's maintenance comfort zone.  That's also in my weight loss chart.  But I freaked out when I went "UP" to a size 8, then 10 because all of us have that fear that we are going to fail and let ourselves down once again. 

All I wanted was to be a size 6 again....then I would be "happy. " But that d__ scale just would not co-operate with me.  I ended up in rehab because I was overdoing my exercise, got released, overdid it again, and relapsed again.  I also had to get my first ever cortisone injections in both knee's.  (I need to have both my knee's replaced.)     

What I have learned now that I have several more years behind me is that I was focusing way too much on a size.   How often do we ask Non-bariatric people what size they wear?? But even 8 years out they still ask me what size I am!!  I can pretty much tell which people have genuine interest and who doesn't and I answer accordingly.  

What I mean is I could really knock myself out, do extra exercise , up my protein, and  do just exhaust myself trying to get into that size 6 again or I could just be happy listening to my body, my MD, the NUT, all telling me that I am already doing everything that I need to be doing---that I am healthy, and I am within my BMI for my height and my weight.  How important was it to me?  I've grown up and learned from my mistakes.  Size doesn't matter.  Health does.  I am now listening to my body instead of what society says about what size I should be.    

Try to realize that you CAN be happy in a 12 or 14, not just a 10 as long as you are healthy, eating right, seeing the NUT, going to support groups, and are willing to make changes.  Focus on all the positive things you have done to get from a 24-26  to that 12 or 14 and it will help you in the days ahead. 
hugs,
Kathy  

i can be very happy in 14's be just fine...but nothing more and i do not wanna go there.....ooh no i never got to be with in where i was to have been with my size and weight...but i am still under 200 pounds like 185 and 5-4 use to be 5-6...and i am 55.....so not like i have to be anything more or anything less...thanks....i knew i was ok where i was just nothing bigger