needing some advice

This is eating disorder behavior. You can get an ulcer from doing it too, chewing causes your stomach to start producing acid to break down the food and if it doesn't get it the acid just sits there. Bad option if you ask me, we need to retrain our body and our brain in a healthy way.

Not tryin to sound preachy but eating disorders are nothing to play with.

What you are feeling is totally normal. :) Rest assured I think we all went through this phase. Good thing is most people after surgery have to force themself to eat because they don't feel hungry and get full very quickly. :) Keep your head up and we're making room for you on the losers bench.

Thank you so much for the support.  It is always good to know that you are not alone in your thoughts.  One of the first things I wanted to make sure I understood was that this was only a tool. I have this bad habit of doubting myself alot but I am working on that.

Melissa - I would love to go to dinner.  I will take a look at the calendar and get back with you in a little bit.

Beth

Yeah...I think we're all afraid we will be the first person ever to not lose anything with the RNY. Believe me, you WILL lose. I had no willpower whatsoever before surgery. The RNY changes everything, you will be amazed!

Looking forward to following your journey!

Jenny

As I get closer to surgery there is one thing that keeps lingering in my mind so I am hoping that someone else can help. I keep thinking about how many diets I have tried and failed at. I get scared about not having any will power after surgery and failing at this also.  I mean if I cannot make myself stop eating now how am I going to make myself stop afterwards?
Weight loss surgery is a tool for weight loss.  You will still have to have will power and be willing to train your body and brain to live a healthier lifestyle.  I struggle daily with food, some days are easier than others.  I struggle with exercise, some days I would rather let you take me out back and knock the snot out of me then get on the treadmill.  You have to learn to live your life healthier and not graze on food all day.  I am seven months out from surgery and if I had no self control could eat damn near non stop from the time I wake up till the time I go to bed.  You can fail at this surgery, don't be fooled into thinking you can't.

What if I never feel full?
You will feel full, put that thought out of your mind.  This surgery can not be explained, the feeling of full is different.  You will know when your belly is full even if you learn the hard way like I did, by throwing up after darn near every meal for the first two months because I didn't pay attention to the signs.  I know darn good and well now when my nose starts running and I belch I better stop eating or puke.........funny thing is sometimes I still eat until I puke.  Now that's addiction!!
 
Wonder if I am one of those people that can tolerate anything and never dump or feel sick?  If I fail at this than I would be devastated.  But I am devastated every time I fail at a diet or I pick up that huge piece of cake or bag of potato chips.
 I don't dump, only 30% of us who have had surgery do dump.  I can eat cookies, chips, pizza just most days I choose not to.  This surgery has a lot  to offer you but you have to work with it, it does not work alone.  I will be eternally grateful for this opportunity to live a healthier life, but its not easy. 
I hope that I am not alone in these feelings. Did all of you post op remember feeling anything like this before you went?
I still feel like this seven months after surgery.  I have way more good days than bad something I could have never accomplished before surgery.  I have had great success with surgery, I look forward to reaching my goal weight in the near future and moving on to maintenance.  I thank God daily for giving me the strength to do the things necessary to regain my health. 

In closing I would like to say
You can do this!  Look at yourself honestly and decide that the time is right for you and set into action to make it happen.  You have a surgeon who you trust ........listen to him.  He has a whole practice full of professionally trained staff to support you and to insure that you are successful..pay attention to them. this is the absolute best chance that you will have in this lifetime to regain your health, embrace it.   Attend support groups and find your peers you may need them do not wait until you need them to start looking.  You are off to a great start here on this board, but make some support groups.